Saving River

My name is River and for as long as I can remember I have been abused at the hands of someone who claims to love me. At the age of 7 my mother and my older brother Ryder disappeared my father has told everyone that they left us but I know better they would never leave me behind. Now at 21 scared and 4 months pregnant I find myself again running from the horrendous abuse at the hands of someone who claims to love me. A year later as I'm trying to put the shattered pieces of my life back together, I look into the eyes of the 4 gorgeous men who claimed to love me and want to protect me but the same questions still runs through my mind "how long before they start to hurt me and how could anyone ever love me after this" Do I trust that this could be real, or should I just keep running?