Chapter 376 Hello darkness my old friend

Chapter 376 Hello darkness my old friend
Trigger warning

River POV

I watch as tears fall from his face as he quickly gets off of me. He's getting ready to take me and I need to make it easier for him so they don't beat him again. I wish I made it easier for Denalii then they wouldn't have made me slit his throat.

I've been numb since then so now I don't care what they do to me. I've lost Finn and Denalii and the rest are slaves like me now. I have nothing left. My kids are safe and I keep him happy so they stay that way, to me that's all that matters.

I close my eyes as my legs are spread open and fingers enter me. I whimper in pain as something cold is put in me. I squirm a little trying not to cry out.

"River please open your eyes!" I can hear Sheldon loudly yelling at me. It must be time to film, I need to play my part or they'll pick one of the little girls they have in the back room. The youngest is Annie's age and the oldest is maybe thirteen. I groan softly and open my eyes.

Sheldon's bloody and tear streaked face looks down at me. His eyes full of sadness and tears almost makes me cry too but I hold it in and tell him "It's okay. It goes easier if you don't cry, I know you don't want to hurt me Shelly but they will kill you like they did Denalii if you don't give them a good show. Please try for me."

I close my eyes as my head spins faster. I hear something shattering against the wall. I take a deep breath as the darkness comes for me like a old friend "Finally!" I gasp out as everything goes black again.

"No!" I cry as I start waking up. Why does the darkness keep letting me come back. I don't want to come back, I want to stay with my mother, Denalii and Finn safe and warm in their arms.

"River." I hear my name being said softly. I open my eyes and reach for Finn's beautiful scared face. "Finn." I say as I look up at him. Finn's face changes into Sheldon as my eyes become less foggy. I scream and try to move away from him.

"No please just let me go." I gasp out my throats really dry and there's a horrible taste in my mouth. My legs feel weak and my hands must be tied again.

"I would never hurt you River please just look at me!" Sheldon says his voice full of sadness. I open one eye and another. I start breathing heavy as I see another man I don't recognize. I scream as he moves to get closer to me.

"Just stay back Cliff your making it worse please." Sheldon's voice cracks.

"They should have let..Owww!" I moan at the pain in my stomach "You need to.. hurry and...Oww leave Sheldon hurry before they... come back." I say trying to push him away from me. Wait who untied my hands. I look at my hands and under my nails are bloody my fingers hurt and my wrist is throbbing with pain.

"I'm going to move you back to the couch bed." He says lifting me. My head falls back I can't hold it up this time. They must have pushed my body too far this time. It's not the first time and it won't be the last. I have to get the presidents okay before I can just be Randy and Jenson's forever which means party after party till August Abbott comes and has me for himself giving me the seal to be a wife and not a toy. Once I'm theirs I'll have privileges and as soon as I have their trust I'm killing them all myself.

"River just breath. Someone has to come soon." Sheldon's voice says as my head falls back and my old friend pulls me back into his dark embrace.

"Mind manipulation from the psychedelic drugs they were pumping into her is my guess. I've seen it used during interrogations when I was stationed over there." A male voice says as I open my eyes. I move slowly as I slip off the bed I'm on. My eyes aren't adjusting fast enough and I'm almost blind as I feel around. My middle hurts so much but I suck in the groans of pain as I try to drag myself along the floor on my belly.

"River! Fuck! Baby girl please your going to hurt yourself." I feel arms turn me and then lift me.

I'm so tired "Please no more. Let me rest please." I cry. "I can't take it anymore it's too much pain." my eyes are too heavy and my whole body hurts.

Arms just hold me as someone sobs into my neck. I smile as the darkness returns.

I wake and I can hear soft breathing close to my face. I open my eyes and jump as Sheldon's face is close to mine he's head is slumped forward and he's eyes are closed. He's alive at least. Maybe they let him stay with me. Randy said if I perform really good for master August then I could keep one when they bring me back.

Master August wants Lucky but maybe they changed their minds. I remember what has happened for the last little while and I remember Randy saying he looked forward to Sheldon coming to play with us. I push his head lightly back. I try to sit up but it hurts, I make a little groan before I can stop it as I try to pull myself up to look around.

"River try not to move a lot." Sheldon says. I bow my head to him not looking in his eyes. I don't want to anger him, I'm hungry and maybe they will give me food if I'm a good girl today. I'll have to try really hard but I'm not sure how much I can take without food.

He moves my head and pulls me up as he slides a small pillow under my butt making me sit a little over to the left.

He comes back and lifts my hand and puts a foil pack on my lap. He opens the foil and pulls out some weird meat stick thing. He puts it in my hand. Master is acting weird, it might be a trick. I put my hand out and my palms down waiting for permission. My stomach growls as the smell of the meat hits it. Come on master please let me eat it.

A hand touches mine and I almost inhale the stick as it hits my mouth. I grab a water that is handed to me next. I drink almost all of it.

I look up and look around. I hope no one notices.

Sheldon's eyes met mine and I quickly look down placing my hands in my lap palms up. I wait for him to excuse me so I can get cleaning and then I can bath.