Chapter 395 Its just us..

Chapter 395 Its just us..
River POV

He kisses down my face as I moan. He holds my face we're so close if one of us moves our noses would touch. He moves slowly as he just lightly caresses my face and neck and we both cum quickly. I can feel his legs shaking as he pulls out. I shutter missing him in already.

"I love you Sheldon Mumford. You own my heart and my body. I have never regretted anytime I've gotten with you. I'm sorry that what I said hurt you." I kiss him softly.

"I love you baby and I love you too baby." He says kissing my belly as he grabs a shirt and wipes me off and himself. He throws the shirt in the hamper.

"God I'm glad we do our own laundry." I kiss him as he laughs and carries me to the bed and gets me dressed. He kisses my legs all the way up as he pulls my sweats up. He kisses my belly as he pulls a tee shirt over me. Then he kisses my lips as he pulls me to my feet.

"Are you scared?" He asks me and I nod my head.

"Me too my love. I promise if shit happens I'll make sure Pickle doesn't get taken." He squeezes my hand.

"It's just us." He says. He looks at me and waits. Finally he tips my face to him "It's just us!" He says louder.

I shake my head "Sheldon I can't." I start crying.

"River say it." He says leaning down to me, I shake my head.

"Baby please." He says as he starts crying "River fucking say it!" He pleds.

"No I won't! I'm not letting him take you or them! If he wants me then he only gets me!" I say moving away from him.

"River! That's not happening! You won't survive there without me!" I nod and kiss him, I don't stop till I need air.

"Surviving isn't the plan and you know it! We made the plan.. you thought of this backup plan. I love you but I will not sacrifice pyou! That's not something I'm going to negotiate or change my mind about!"

"River.. no! Please look at me!" He yells as I start walking out of the room.

"Sheldon I don't want to fight with you about it, please baby just come with me and let's make lunch. I'm excited to meet Colts girlfriend and I don't want to think or talk about Randy anymore please." I turn and touch his burnt face. I move my hand around his face and neck till he takes a deep breath and looks at me and nods. He leans down and kisses me, pulling me tightly to him.

"I love you too River and I can't lose you.. I can't lose you too please understand that." He says wiping my tears away. He puts his nose to mine as he looks in my eyes and smiles.

"This doesn't mean I've changed my mind but I want you to be calm and I know it helps so.." I kiss him as he laughs and then I put my nose back to his "It's just us. You and me!" I say. He picks me up and spins me as he kisses me.

"River baby." He says as he reaches down and caresses my cheek with his stub. I smile at him.

"Don't get mad at me but I need you to know that I love you and I already love that baby in you." He says tearing up "I want to be that baby's daddy not matter the results, this is still my baby too." I cry harder. He grabs me and holds me "I want this baby. I want your baby. I will love it no matter what. If it comes back that Pickle's not the father, I will be! We won't need to know any of the results the baby will be mine. I'll sign the papers, I'll do whatever." I wipe his face and I nod.

"So you want me to keep the baby?" I ask just to give him another chance to think it over.

"Yes. I really do River." He says. Putting his hand on my belly. The baby likes his voice and moves a lot when he's around.

"Okay then the decisions made. We're keeping the baby." I say kissing him.

I look up and Pickle's there in the doorway and he looks pissed. I guess he should be, I just made a huge decision without him but I already know what his choice would be.

I wave him to us "Colt's home." He says not looking away from my face. I pat Sheldon's chest. I reach over and take Pickle's hand.

I bring him to the bed and pull him to sit with me. I squeeze his hand, he's already looking at me when I look up.

"I already know what you would choose, Lucky too. This isn't a decision that is easy and I'm happy that I have the most supportive men. I'm scared to feel or look at my baby with hate. It terrifies me so much that yes I have thought about...getting rid of it. I want to think I can look past how the baby came to be but I'm honestly not sure. You guys have more faith in me then I do and I'm scared to let you down." I reach my hand out for Sheldon as I cry putting my head down.

"I feel ashamed for thinking like that but I want to be honest with you guys and I want you to be honest with me. I know that the baby won't grow to be a monster. I know that in my heart. Lucky and Annie are proof of that. Lucky had to have him as a father for twelve horrible years and he is a amazing person with the purest heart so yes I know our baby will grown with love in its heart but I'm terrified that maybe it's just to much hate and evilness." I cry hard as I let go of them and put my hands on my belly.

"I really do love you already and I won't let him have you." I say. I need to go see my brother. I need to see him with my own eyes.

"I love you both with everything that is in me. I think I need to know who the father is to make a decision." I stand and wipe my face. I take the envelope from the dresser and open it. There it is my baby. You can see it's head, arm and legs. It looks like it's got it's fingers in its mouth. I cry as I look at the pictures of it. I hand them to the guys as I leave the room.

I see Colt with his back turned so I jump on his back.

"This is why Ryder calls you a monkey." He says laughing.