Chapter 50 Confidence Is Winning Today

Chapter 50 Confidence Is Winning Today
(The next chapter will continue where this one left off.)

April

With our lips still connected, Corran gently lifts me off the counter. I cling to him tightly, refusing to break the kiss. I’ve been resisting, but there’s only so much I can endure. My resolve cracked because of the naughty dreams about Corran I had last night. His morning arousal, pressing against me as soon as I woke, only intensified my desire. Every part of me seems to yearn for him to take the lead. Will I regret this later? Maybe, maybe not, but right now, it’s what I need.

He takes me directly to the bedroom, breaking the kiss to catch his breath. “Are you sure you want this?” 

I pause, refraining from rolling my eyes. Didn’t I make that clear? 

“Yes, I am sure. Please stop asking.” 

He nods and pushes me onto the bed. I bounce with a laugh and prop myself up on my elbows, waiting for what he'll do next. Corran stands at the foot of the bed, silent and gazing down at me. 

I tug my lower lip between my teeth. “What are you waiting for?” 

He finally climbs onto the bed toward me, parting my legs and kneeling between them. I reach up, gently running my nails over his chest, sensing his muscles tense again under my touch. 

He slips his fingers into my shorts as I lift my hips to let him take them off. He tosses them aside and runs his fingers up my bare thighs, causing me to shudder under his touch. 

I wrap my legs around him, pull him close, and reacquire his lips without resistance. He clutches my hips firmly, making the kiss deeper. His arousal presses against my thighs, and I grind against him, craving more friction. Without hesitation, we remove any barriers, and our bare bodies meet.

Corran places his hand between my thighs. “I want to ensure you're prepared for me, but judging by how wet you are, I’d say you already are.” 

“I am more ready than you know. Please, Corran, fuck me now.” 

“Do you have condoms?” 

“No, but I am on birth control. If you’d like extra protection, you can go get some?”  

No, I haven’t had sex in years, but I stay on the pill because it helps to regulate my periods. 

“I have some at my place, well, if they are still in date.” He chuckles. 

“Please hurry," I groan, feeling already sexually frustrated. Thank goodness he's only a few doors down the hall. 

He chuckles and nods, quickly climbing off the bed, nearly falling. I laugh as I watch him stumble around, trying to get his joggers and T-shirt on. We don’t want the neighbours talking if they run into him half-naked, rushing from my place to his. 

“I will be back in a few minutes,” he says, rushing out. 

I sit up, run my fingers through my hair, and try to ignore the sharp throbbing between my thighs. I hope he returns, and that his time away is not enough for him to reconsider. If he doesn’t come back, I won’t blame him. I’ll just feel a little annoyed and sexually frustrated. 

My eyes fall on the door, and I wait, wondering what will happen next. If he comes back, I really hope the condoms he has are still in date. Yes, I am on birth control, but extra protection is a good idea. I would never forgive myself if I became pregnant with another man’s child. Something I shouldn’t be thinking about right now. 

The sound of my front door opening pulls me out of my thoughts. I crawl to the foot of the bed and wait for Corran on my knees to come back into my room, everything clearly visible. I feel comfortable today, not self-conscious. In fact, I feel the opposite—confidence is on my side today. 

“Please tell me you have some?” I ask the moment he strolls in. 

“Yes, thankfully, they are still in date for another year.” He replies, but then stops on his tracks when his eyes focus on me. A deep, throaty groan escapes from his lips. 

Smirking, I motion for him to come to me. Thank God he has some! I don’t think I could have waited any longer if he had to go out to get them. 

His tongue darts along his lips as his eyes take in my naked body. He doesn’t move for a moment, but eventually he strolls over to me and stands before me. I take the condom from his hand and set it on the bed, only so I can remove his clothing once again. I rid him of his clothes quickly and reach up. 

“I wasn’t sure whether you would come back,” I say honestly. 

“Really? Why?” 

“I thought you might have changed your mind after things cooled down for a moment.”

Corran shakes his head. “I am not going to change my mind. I can promise you that.” 

I open my mouth to reply to him, but he doesn’t give me a chance. He grasps my face in his hand and roughly covers my lips with his. A moan escapes from my lips, vibrating against his, and I kiss back in the same way. 

“Mmm, good,” I mumble. 

He pulls away from the kiss. “Trust me, nothing will interfere this time. Lie on your back and scoot up the bed.” 

His voice has a commanding tone, causing between my thighs to throb even more. I groan and comply immediately. I enjoy being ordered around in the bedroom. I also like to take control sometimes, depending on my mood. Corran quickly responds, pressing against me, and we share another kiss. 

“I am more ready for this than you know,” I breathe out. 

“Trust me, I understand.” He replies, then kneels, tears open the condom packet, and puts it on. 

There is no stopping us now! It's about time! Both of us are ready for each other, and I genuinely believe we've been since our first kiss, especially after that night we shared.