secrets

I should have been happy, if he had made his offer a year ago i would have been over the moon, heck! Even a week ago i would still have taken it, but there was something about theway he said it.

“oh” i said, reminding myself to say something so that i did not seem like a statue. “the shadow realm huh?”

He nodded, pushing a smile.

“i would love to, but… that…” i took in a deep breath.

“what? You don’t like that?” he said with a look of confusion on his face.

“no!” i said, before he could jup into any conclusions “don’t get me wrong, i do, i love the idea, it is wonderful, i can’t appreciate enough how much you always put me into consideration” i started, not knowing how i was going to bring it up without sounding like a whiny bitch.

“then?” he said, looking at me like he was getting more and more worked up by the moment.

“it’s several realms away Andrew. And honestly, i don’t want to be that far away from you, i want to be with you every single moment of the day. I want to be with you while going to bed and i want to wake up to your bed head and gray eyes. So yes.. i just…” i took in a deep breath, not really knowing how i was going to look at him after this. This was the most cringe worthy conversation i have ever had.

“Sam” he said, looking at me with something in his eyes. You could tell that if i was close to him, he would have pulled me in for a hug, but for the distance, he looked at me, letting out a sigh.

“this is your dream, i can’t have you pass up this opportunity. I would always be here, waiting for you, but this opportunity? We both know it is a life time opportunity because what if another person is qualified?”

He made all the right points, but still, something inside of me was not agreeing to that. I needed him to see it from my perspective.

“fine, you are right. Can i…” i took in a deep breath, trying to understand where he was coming from. “can i think about it?” i said.

“of course love, after all, it is your decision” he said, causing me to smile.

“thank you”

“while we are at it, let’s not forget how you randomly just said you love me… okay?” he said in a teasing voice.

I decided it was best not to answer him, i mean what comeback could i give? It was true that i loved him, and i knew that i did not say it enough, so i kept quiet, not disputing the fact that he in fact was right.

“i would catch you later yes?” he yelled just as i was stepping out, “i still have not had breakfast!!!” he yelled, refering to how we almost had sex before he almost passed out.

“it’s not my fault you were about to pass out!!” i said, slamming the door.

It was silent as i passed through the corridor.

I sat on the grass as soon as i went into the practice fields. It felt as though the emotions i was holding back came crashing down on me.

Ugly sobs broke out of my mouth as i looked up to the now sunny sky. It was horrible. The moment when i thought that he died.

“fuck” i thought as i let myself take in the relief i felt when i saw that he was indeed alive.

“it’s funny you think this would last” i tensed up.

Helios

I looked around but there was no one there, there could not be, not with the way the castle had been spell bound. The least he could do was to talk inside my head.

I ignored it, mainly because well… all he did was try to get on my nerves

“you think this relief you feel is going to last? Wait till i get his heart in my hands as a reward i would make sure….”

I shut him out, there was no need entertaining something that was going to fuck up my mind.

I took in a deep breath, deciding that if i wanted to train i needed to get into clothes that would make moving around more flexible.

I made my way back to the room to change, deciding to stop by the clinic to see if Andrew was getting his proper rest.

“well i am serious!!!!” his voice boomed, causing me to stop mid opening of the door.

“well i am telling you that, as your mother, you can NOT be serious!!!” the queen’s voice was heard, sounding eqally worked up.

“so what do you want to do? Stop me from dying?” he said with a scoff. I took in a deep breath, trying not to let it get to me. This was the same way i was hearing things before i opened the door, thinking that he died the last tie.

“by the goddess! If i have to do that, i would!!” she said, her voice breaking at the end of her words.

“fine then, i would love to see you try mother” he sounded smug.

What could have been described as a slap was heard across the room. “i need you to have some fucking sense right now caudly, this is not some of your stupid jokes.” i wanted to open the door to see what the hell was really going on.

“fine then, do as you please mother.”

“it is so fucking easy but your emotional attachements to that stupid feeder of yours has put you in this mess” she scoffed, “if i had known i would have made sure i did it myself, just like i have always done” i placed my head on the door, trying to make sense of what it was i was actually listening to.

“well too bad mother, turns out i actually have feeling, so you need not worry.”

She scoffed again. “listen to me son” she said, her voice sounding tense as she lowered her voice. “it is either you die, or that stupid girl you brought and we both know it must not be you”