Chapter 45 Chapter 45
Jess’s POV
I sat where I was for a while trying to process what he had told me. He had been asking how I was doing at work. He loved me. My head was spinning. Romeo came and sat on my lap and gave me a quick kiss on the chin then snuggled his snout against my neck.
“I love you too” I gave him a kiss on the head and then got up. “At least I will have my friends to talk to about all of this tomorrow” I loved talking to Romeo he always listened and never made me feel bad. He was the best therapist ever. “Come on boy lets go back to camp” When I got back to camp everyone had started to set up there sleeping bags. They all seem to have set them up around the fire. Mum and dad where right next to each other. Justin was on the other side of the fire from them. John had set up between them, and Kieran was opposite John on the other side of the fire. There was plenty of room around the fire, so I decided to set up my sleeping bag between John and Justin. I did not trust myself to sleep near Kieran.
“Night everyone” Mum called out
“Night” everyone Mumbled back
It had been a long day, and everyone just wanted to get to sleep. Tomorrow was going to be a busy day planning what we were going to do and how we were going to stop the aliens.
I was the first to wake in the morning and decided to take Romeo hunting for some breakfast. I decided that I would make some more stew for lunch since we would have visitors. I grabbed the 223 and went hunting. Romeo caught himself two rabbits for his breakfast and then stayed at my side while I shot four to put in a stew. On my way back to camp John came to meet me.
“Hi sir”
“Jess can we please talk”
“Of course, sir what’s wrong?”
“Kieran is sorry for hurting you. I was the one who told him that he should not contact you”
“What, why sir?”
“I thought that you been in a relationship would affect your training. So, I sent him away and told him not to contact you. I thought that you would get over him, but it looks like I was wrong, and I am sorry”
“You told him not to contact me. Am sorry but did you not think that having my heart broken might also affect my training?”
“That’s why I told him not to even dump you. I wanted the spark of hope there. I am so sorry Jess. But you need to forgive him. I saw the way that you have been looking at him. You have something that I have never been able to find don’t throw it away because I made an order that was stupid”
“I can’t think about this right now I have to gut these rabbits. I will talk to Kieran if I get chance”
“Thank you, Jess. Can I walk back to camp with you”
“Sure, you can make yourself useful and carry the kill”
“I am sure that I can handle that. You’re still a good shot I see”
“There rabbits. There not that hard to kill. Romeo here taunts them before he goes in for the kill”
“Really a border collie been a hunter who would have thought”
“Hey, he is a good little hunter” I growled
“Just like his mum” he chuckled
Kieran watched us as we walked back into the camp.
“We had the left-over stew for breakfast it’s still warm if you want some”
“Sure, I will just gut and skin these first” I pointed at the rabbits
“No, you go and eat. I will do that for you” he took the rabbits off John and got his knife out before I had time to argue.
Romeo followed me to the stew hoping that I would not eat it all and that he would get some. I filled my bowl and sat watching Kieran work as I ate. It was a warm day, so he was working with his shirt off and I had a very good view from where I sat. I was sat daydreaming about running my fingers over his muscles when I noticed that he was looking right back at me. I blushed and gave Romeo the rest of my stew. When he had finished, I quickly got up avoiding looking at Kieran and went to the river to wash my bowl. After I had cleaned my bowl, I sat and stared at the river. I was so confused I had no idea what I should be feeling. It was so much easier when I thought that Kieran had chosen not to contact me, but how could I be mad at him for following orders? I put my head in my hands and let out a big sigh.
“I know how you feel” Kieran sat down beside me.
“Really? How do you know what I am feeling?”
“John told me about your talk”
“Right”
“Jess come on I know that you want to be with me. Let down the barriers and let me in”
“I don’t know if I can. After you had not contacted me for a year, I vowed to myself that I was never going to let anyone hurt me like that again. I can’t risk feeling that pain again. It hurt too much”
“I will never hurt you like that again I promise”
“Yeah, until you get another order not to contact me. Then what?”
“I will disobey. It was so hard not to contact you. It tore me up every day. When you walked into camp yesterday when I saw your face my heart started to melt. I am in love with you Jess. You are the only one who has made me feel like this. I want to spend the rest of my life with you” He got on to his knees “Jess I am begging you please give me another chance. I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you”