Killian.
“I am who I am. That’s the least I can tell you for now,” I whispered, as calmly as I could.
Finally, she was acknowledging the things I was trying to tell her. Somehow, one of the problems was solved. Yet, another problem occurred.
Knowing Yzabelle possessed an ability that humans shouldn’t have, that is a problem.
I’d been analyzing that thing awhile ago but a nuisance came, lingering to my mate.
“For now? You mean you still have things that you should tell me but you didn’t or you couldn’t?” she asked, puzzled.
“Yes.”
That’s too short for an answer but I couldn’t say much. I needed to sort things out first.
“So, when do you plan to tell me?” Yzabelle groaned. “No. You shouldn’t tell me at all. I have a lot in my mind already and I could hardly process them all.”
I sighed. “That’s why we are driving to the city outskirts. For you to breathe and refresh.”
She didn’t answer. I decided to give her privacy and stopped myself from hearing her thoughts.
I knew she was confused with everything she experienced. And accepting the truth I was trying to lay in front of her was the best decision she’d ever made.
***
Yzabelle.
Killian brought me downtown at the lakeside. I kind of liked it here. The air was refreshing yet cold. I could guess it was more beautiful here during spring or summer. The supposed grassland was covered with snow. Good thing the lake didn’t freeze yet. I could still see a few swans swimming calmly.
Calmly.
My life was calm and peaceful until Killian came. I managed to leave my supposed family to live in peace. I was supposed to be living quietly and content.
But it seems life has its own way to mock me. I couldn’t be at peace now that I let Killian enter my life.
And as funny as it could get, I could not imagine living life without him.
I didn’t know what this guy was doing to me but every time I looked at him, all I wanted was to be with him. Honestly, I didn’t care if my unit would be fixed anymore.
I already enjoyed living in his apartment unit. I enjoyed him eyeing me all the time. I loved it when he looked at me like he didn’t see anything and anyone but me. It made me feel special.
And no one had ever made me feel special just the way he did. Well, aside from my dad.
My dad made sure I felt loved in his own special way. But I still felt the distance between us. It seemed that there was a gap between us that neither of us could fill.
It must be the longing that I felt my entire life. Longing for something I didn't knew. Was it a longing for my own mother?
How I wished I could find the answer.
Because if it was the longing for my own mother, I guess, the gap would never be filled anymore.
And I was afraid the gap would grow bigger and wider. I’d already lost my mom, I didn’t want to lose him—the only family I had.
“Care to share with me your thoughts?”
Killian came, handing me a cup of instant coffee he must have bought from somewhere nearby. I accepted it and he sat beside me.
“And I thought you could read minds?” I said as I started sipping my coffee.
“Oh, you figured that out too. I thought you would need a lot of time and hints before you could finally realize,” he started with his coffee as well.
“You should have told me instead of giving me hints. You just confused me.”
Killian arched one of his eyebrows. “Would you believe me if I just told you?” He shook his head. “I bet you’ll not.”
I didn’t answer him. He already had my answer. And he was right. I wouldn’t believe it as easily as that.
Well, would you believe something supernatural after someone told you about it?
“I decided to close your thoughts to give you privacy. I know you need it the most right now,” he said after a few seconds of silence between us.
“Oh, you can do that as well?” I asked in surprise.
I think there’s a lot of things about Killian that would definitely surprise me. I should brace myself.
“Of course. We can do a mind link too if only you were like us. I mean, Corbin is kind of the same as me.”
I was stunned for a couple of seconds. I should have anticipated it already given the fact that they knew each other. Yet, I wasn’t saved from being surprised.
“Mind link?”
“It's the way we communicate without anyone knowing,” he briefly explained.
“So, when you exchange gazes, it means you are making a conversation?”
Killian nodded in answer.
“Is that why both of you called me mate? Because you were the same kind? The same species or however you call that?”
Killian took a deep breath. “That thing also confused me. It’s rare to have two mates. And most importantly, being mated to a human.”
I could not find myself to answer. I didn’t even know the laws of their species though.
“Can’t you tell me now what you really are?” I asked. I finally gathered the courage to ask the same question he declined answering.
“You’ll have the answer at the right time. I still need to find an answer to my question.”
I got annoyed by him being vague. “Why can’t you tell me now? Who knows I wasn’t a human too? I had this experience at the mall entrance that deeply confused me. I was even asking myself if it really happened or not!”
“It happened,” he calmly breathed in and continued sipping his coffee.
Mine got cold already. I could tell by just holding the paper cup.
It was cold as his answer.
Nah. Deep inside me I already knew he had an idea of what was happening to me back there. When his eyes glittered as he looked at me, I understood that he knew what was happening.
I don’t know why he didn’t say anything about it. Why did he let me drown in confusion?
“As much as I wanted to answer you, I couldn’t, Yzabelle.” He sighed. “Corbin and his kind didn’t have that same ability. Only those who were the same as me. But I was certain you weren’t like us. I couldn’t find your link. And I couldn’t sense your wolf.”
“Huh?” Again, he threw me into the valley of confusion.
And I guess he had no plan of saving me after hearing his answer.
“That’s all I can tell you, Yzabelle,” he said with finality.
I blew a harsh breath.
Didn't he say he and Corbin were the same? Now, he seemed to tell me they weren't. His words were too confusing.
Corbin seemed to be eager to show me to his family. If Killian would not give me the answer I needed, I’d get it by myself.