Chapter 52 Hurting
She practically falls into a puddle of goo at his feet! I'm having second hand embarrassment for her. She has no idea how cringy she looks, trying to snuggle up to Richard Kingston. I'd feel bad, but... Well, no. She deserves to make a fool of herself, but it won't change a damn thing and Rick knows that... But he also seems to know something else, want to know what it is!
He sends me that look. The one he always did before he hurt me. It's calculating and almost an apology this time, but there is a determination in his eyes that says he's gonna make me regret letting this get this far. He is here to prove a point. And the point might be that I hate to watch him touch any other girl. The thought burns deep in my gut.
I shake my head, begging him to not do this to me, but like I'd expected he completely ignores me and does whatever the hell Richard Kingston wants to.
Then he leaned over and kissed my little sister right there in front of me. I have flash-backs to all those times Liv was back stage after ballet and she would look at me with disdain. I never knew what I did to earn it from her. She was the little princess. But every once in awhile, Richard would show up just to flirt with my sister. To make me feel less.
I watch as they press their lips together, lingering longer than needed. I want to look away, but I just can't. It's like I'm stuck. Frozen watching my sister hurt me all over again with the man who promised me he'd changed. How the hell am I supposed to ever believe a word that comes out of his mouth?
It isn't like the kiss he gave me. My kiss was desperate, needy and completely possessive. This is something softer, more innocent, but that didn't stop Liv from pulling him down to her and try to kiss him back. He kept his hands respectful at her waist and he kept a space... Not a big one, but definitely a space between the two of them.
I blink my eyes and I try to brush my tears away. But I see the smirk playing across Ava's face as she watches the display and puts 2 and 2 together. She has to know he's not really here for Liv. He was here with me when they stumbled upon us.
I don't understand why the hell this hurts so bad. I know it's just a show for him... Like he's done hundreds of times before.
Suddenly every single time Richard had kissed a girl in front of me comes flashing back. Each one with that warning look in his eye, like he knew it would hurt me. Each time he showed me, more than told me, that I wasn't good enough for him. That he had all the power, and I was just a useless little dancer. That he took joy in seeing me in pain.
I still don't know why it hurt so badly. I hated the bastard. I hated that I felt anything towards him besides loathing. That he could break me so easily, even if I tried not to show it. And now he's up to his old tricks. Only this time I understand why he's doing it. And he's using my sister to get what he wants!
I try to blink my tears away, but it still hurts like hell. Is this going to happen every damn day until I give in to him? What happens if I say yes? Will he keep hurting me or will he finally grow up?! Why is he doing this to me anyway? Is it because of James?
Why do I feel like I'm being manipulated? He said he was better than James... That if I said I'd marry him, he would never hurt me. That he had changed. I want to believe him, but I don't know now. James never tried to kiss my underage sister!