Chapter 130 Home
When her body has been thoroughly washed, I work on her hair, massaging her scalp and cleansing all her silky honey strands.
When I am satisfied, I just hold her under the spray, rubbing soothing circles into her skin, but I know we can't stay here forever. My girl is about to drop, so I shut off the water and quickly pat her dry. I squeeze out as much water from her hair as I can before towel drying it the best I can.
I wrap a towel around my waist and lift her into my arms again. I'm happy to see Jeff brought the soup, and that it's still warm.
"Okay, sweetheart, I'm going to get you some pajamas," I whisper, placing her on her bed.
I rush to the drawers and find some warm flannels and a pair of panties. By the time I return, she's shivering again, so I make quick work of her clothes, then pull her into her covers, placing her between my legs so she can lean against me.
I sit behind her as I hold the bowl of soup in our laps.
"You need to eat, sweetheart," I murmur into her ear. "I'm sure you haven't eaten in ages, and you'll wake up early if you are hungry."
"Mmm... Okay," she whispers.
I hold her as she takes a few spoonfuls of soup, but she's too tired to finish it all. That's better than nothing. I move the soup to the nightstand and pull her into my arms.
"I love you, Josie," I whisper into her still damp hair.
She doesn't respond in words but cuddles deep into me. That's all I needed. To know she still accepts me. That she still wants me near her. She hasn't kicked my ass out of her room, so I'm taking that as a win.
My hand finds its way on its own under her shirt and settles on her belly. There is a little life growing in there, and it makes me so damn happy. I'm going to be a father.
But not one like mine! He's a piece of shit! I'm going to be the world's most devoted dad and actually take care of my children's needs.
I watch as she drifts off to sleep. I'm surprised she's actually sleeping so well. I almost expected for her to wake up from nightmares. If she is having bad dreams, she just seems to burrow deeper into my hold.
I'm not able to sleep at all. All night long, I watch over my Josie, scared to even close my eyes. Not to say I'm not fucking exhausted, but I'm scared of losing her again.
What if this is all a dream and she disappeared the moment I don't see her?
I watch her sleeping peacefully as the sun finally breaks through the window. And she finally stirs, nuzzling my chest with her face.
When she blinks awake, a sweet smile is on her face. "I'm home," she whispers.
"Yes, baby. You are back home. And you are safe now. No one will ever take you from me again!" I promise, stroking her messy hair away from her face.
I can't resist so I lean in and kiss her good morning. And I'm so fucking relieved she responds, pulling me down to her. I let her little hands explore my body and I want inside her so damn bad, but I'm going to wait. Kissing is one thing, but sex is completely different. After what she's been through, I need her to be the one who asks for it.
I'm careful to keep my body weight off Josie right now, and to keep my stiff shaft away from her. I don't want her to freak out.
When I finally pull away, we are both out of breath and she's adorably flushed. "You hungry? I think Jeff was planning on making waffles and some fruit this morning," I mention.
She didn't eat a lot last night, and I want to take care of her.
"Yeah. That sounds good," she smiles up at me.
"Good!" I state kissing her on her nose before grabbing her into my arms and helping her to the bathroom. I know she can fucking walk on her own, but she's tiny and barely weighs anything. Not to mention, I love having her in my arms.
By the time we make it to the breakfast table, Charlie and Liv are chatting excitedly about the new addition to our family. I can't help but chuckle as I listen to them.
Josie leans into me as Jeff comes out with stacks of waffles and a pitcher full of orange juice, along with a large bowl of fruit salad and a side of eggs and breakfast meats. Good man!
I watch as Josie grabs a waffle and some fruit for her plate, but she avoids the eggs and meats. I heard some pregnant women have aversions to some things in early pregnancy. However, she does take a large glass of juice.
While I eat, I just watch Josie talk to her sisters about the baby, completely ignoring the whole ordeal yesterday. I think we will be okay. Our little family will be okay.