STUNNED.

Oceana's Pov.

Fuck.

Suddenly the door opened, I nearly screamed when I saw Gérard coming in, he was startled but he quickly turned and muttered an "Excuse me" and left my room in a haste.

I was astonished.

I didn't know what to say. Why did he come to my room? I wanted to run after him, ask him what he wanted and the reason he came but I stopped and surprisingly, I was not ashamed even one bit.

Nevertheless, I was happy.

I wished he would come back and touch me, I wanted to sprint after him.

What was I going to tell him when he stopped and listened to what I had to say to him and the thought of his wife, the thought of him just recently getting married, made my blood boil and I was glad, relieved I had given it some thought and not run after him.

I was still pissed at what he did to me. Deep down within me, I was kind of happy he saw my body.

I hope he thinks about me all night and jerks off with his big dick while hiding in the bathroom away from his wife.

I badly hope I can see how he does it while stroking his dick.

I know he loves acting all cool and all that, like he's a strong Alpha and can't be affected by emotions, well, too bad he wouldn't be able to get me off his mind tonight.

I had read a lot of books about how Alphas find it difficult to resist their mates and love to protect them.

I also read it in a book that they get affected by the bond little by little and what even makes it worse is when they are in love with their fated mates.

Well, I wish that were true, I know Gerard loves me, I could deem it in my bones.

No matter how he tries to hide it, I could see the love and affection in his eyes.

I went back to bed, touched myself with my legs wide open, and imagined his muscular body nearly filled with tattoos and his white hair.

I know I have not seen his body recently but I could imagine it through the long sleeve he wears, those strong abs, his thick muscular legs, his big crotch, oh fuck.

"Gerard.' I moaned.

I couldn't wait to get fucked, I rubbed my pussy hastily, feeling the sweet sensation, how wet I was made me hornier.

Recalling how he masturbated six years ago, calling out my name, made me rub it even faster, moaning in ecstasy, touching my soft breast with my other hand as I screamed and had an orgasm.

Fuck, that was incredible.

However, I didn't stop there, I used different kinds of stuff, my pillow, and my fingers to fuck my asshole, I was so horny, I couldn't help it and ended up masturbating till dusk.

I was weak when I got up with the reflection of the sun kissing my face and I immediately ordered the maids to help me and took a warm bath after secretly cleaning up my mess.

My thoughts were filled with Gerard, while the maids were rubbing perfumed oil on me, I yearned for him for myself. If it's to fight to get what I want, I will and I don't give a damn.

When I was done dressing up in my green ball gown with a few golden chains on my body and some designs were planted on my long hair with some of its braided lines, I decided to go see Adolph.

I wonder how he must be feeling now, I have never heard such a thing from him about having his sister as his mate, why would he keep such a secret from me, he could have told me.

Well, I didn't tell him mine, so I understand the pressure he must have been under, I was in his shoes as well. We were both scared to speak up, the matter was really a delicate matter, very risky and could get someone killed. I understood his position, I wouldn't argue with that.

These past few weeks, I couldn't go out to look him in the eye, because I was in shock but I got over it sooner than expected and Gerard was still on my mind and hearing about the rumors about his wife being so kind infatuated me, that's why I refused to come out of my room so I wouldn't bump into her stupid self.

However, I was ready to come out and face the reality of my life or else, I will totally be a miserable wolf and no one will care about me.

Crying like a baby wouldn't solve my problems. I want to stand up and think of what to do, but first I will have to talk to Adolph and listen to what he has to say.

I instructed the guards and maids not to tell my parents where I was going out because I wanted to go see Adolph and have a word with him without their intervention.

I got to his pack and the instant his guards saw me, they bowed before me and let me in without informing their master. Adolph came out of his mansion and frowned at my presence before him, wearing a brown leather attire, his face was devoid of sleep, his eyes had bags, his white hair was so rough and seemed clean.

Well, that was surprising, at least he didn't look like a raging wolf in a hot pan.

"What have you come for?' He strictly questioned.

I knew he didn't want me to come to see him because of some stupid sympathy or pity.

"I came to see my best friend.' I uttered happily, hoping to ease the tension in the air.

"We haven't seen each other for a month and you still call me your friend."

'Who else should I call a friend apart from you, you are also my best friend.' I hastily spoke.

"Leave this instant, I don't want to see anyone.'

"But, I want to see you…"

"Oceana," he angrily shouted. "I don't want to see you, what's wrong with being alone, do you have a problem with that? Leave, before I vent my anger on you

"I'm not leaving until you see me, I'm the princess of the Mackenzie clan, I order you to see me.'

He suddenly chuckled. 'Are you using your title and power on me, don't forget I am a prince as well.'

"I had no other choice but to do that since you don't want to look at me.' I was quite persistent and knew if I didn't take such an action, he would kick me out.

He turned to me and sighed. "Come in.' He motioned for me to come over into his chambers.

I slightly raised the edge of my gown and followed him into his golden chambers passing by with the guards and maids all bowing before me.

He gestured to a sofa for me to sit on and I did and sat down on it, before starting up the conversation.

"Why didn't you ever tell me about your real mate, Adolph, I thought Sofia was your mate?'

"It wasn't worth telling." He replied, nearly sitting down while taking a glass of champagne. I quickly stood up, filled with emotions and held the back of his shoulder with tears in my eyes.

He turned to me. "Why are you crying?'

I shook my head, turning away from him and hiding my face in his shoulder even more.

"I'm sorry, I've not been there for you and I understand how you felt all these years, you must have been mad and frustrated, wish you would change everything at the snap of your fingers, I understand and I've been there, Adolph. Seeing your mate getting married and sleeping with someone else must have been hard and difficult, no one knew how you were feeling and you took all the heavy burden on yourself, you took it all.' I wiped off my tears. "I'm so sorry, if I'm being so emotional, it just hurts so much, that's why I spilled those words.'

He gave a deep sigh. "I thought you didn't want to look at my face or probably you were scared or ashamed of showing yourself to me, I understand and I will do my absolute best to be by your side, we are in this together and thank you so much for thinking about all that, I am grateful for what you've done.'

"Adolph.'

"Are you still crying?' He asked, laughing as we both sat down on the brown sofa with a rug that resembled the back of a tiger.

I cleaned off my tears. "Have I turned from a tough Alpha to a sour puss?"

He burst out laughing. "You are quite funny, Oceana, stop crying. Your face looks so ugly."

I sniffed back my nose to get rid of them and Adolph seemed amused, so I hit him playfully in the shoulder to stop teasing me, I knew that was just his way of cheering me up, so I smiled at him.

"So, how did you keep such a secret from me, I thought she was your mate."

"Well, she isn't." He responded. "She is just a replacement for my mate." He stated casually.

"Do you love her?" I questioned, referring to his sister.

He chuckled painfully, his eyes were devoid of emotions. "Yes, I love her very much, and too bad she is not my wife."

"You concealed such a deep secret, how did you do it, I thought anyone could be…"

"It was hard." He revealed. "It was tough concealing it, I am fucking surprised how Gérard was able to sustain for so long, he is pretty a strong Alpha. It is pretty hard enduring it, Oceana."

I sighed and sniffed once again. "When you found out who she was, how did you feel?'

"I was taken aback at first, then after some time, I began to accept it. I didn't know what else to say but it took over me. Every night I would dream of her, doing all kinds of disgusting stuff and she was also doing things as well, we begin having sex, and we couldn't keep our hands off each other, it is hard laying down with a woman who isn't my mate, the bed feels cold and lonely and every day, I wish I could just go out, shout out to the realm that Lucita, my sister is my mate, I would have loved it from the bottom of my heart but I can't hurt her, can I?"

He was sincere with his feelings, I could sense it in his tone, if only I could feel these emotions and tell them to Gerard, I know he must have felt tortured for years because of me and he still kept going and going without giving up on me.

He was really strong.

"Did you ever know that Gérard was my mate?"

"No,' he shook his head. "I had my suspicions but I wasn't sure."

"I hate him so much," I uttered sarcastically with rage boiling in me. "I despise him."

"What about me?' He inquired.

I cleaned off my tears one more time. "Yours is different from mine, at least you love her."

"What makes you think that he doesn't love you."

With my stained voice, I said. "I don't know why-didn't you see he got married?"

"He did it to save you, I think he's trying to protect you- from himself.'

"Ooh, please cut the lectures." I interrupted. "I'm sick and tired of hearing the same freaking thing."

"You don't understand, Oceana, he's trying to do the right thing, just as I am trying to do the right thing because I don't want to hurt my sister, that's why I got married." He shrugged his shoulders. "It doesn't mean I don't love her, we both know that."

His words caught my attention. "Protect me from himself?'