Chapter 28 Chapter 28
Jojo
I was actually telling him the truth about everything I thought I would try and make the blows less but he didn’t make me feel like I had to. That’s why I told him exactly what happened at the party and then off course what happened in the bridal store and at Louis Vuitton. It didn’t feel like I had to hide stuff from him. I think that is why I told him I don’t resent him because I would have if Morne and I was still at that lovey dovey stage the one that was fake but I thought was real I would have resented him for taking me away from Morne but now I know the real Morne and I know the real Mrs. Devon and my mom’s true colors so I can’t resent him the question now is does he resent me. The pilot told us we should get ready for take-off and that the flight will be 3 hours and 25 minutes and that the weather was looking good the whole way. When I was eventually in my seat and the plane was taxing off, I looked at Benji because he didn’t answer me yet. “I’m still waiting?” I said. “God no Jojo how on earth can you ever think I would resent you. Us getting married wasn’t your idea neither was it mine so how can I resent you?” “You can resent the situation and inadvertently blame me. I mean you had your freedom you had so many girls you could pick and choose from and they where beautiful and now you have to sit with little old me for the rest of your life.” There I’ve said everything I was thinking about for the last 24 hrs. How a gorgeous guy like him, I mean he could be on the cover of a GQ magazine or wait he was on the cover of a GQ magazine, and now he has to sit with me, I’m not ugly by all means but I don’t come near the models he had in his bed.
Benji
I couldn’t believe what was coming out of her mouth doesn’t she know how beautiful she is, fuck she is the most beautiful women I’ve ever seen inside and out. “Angel look at me.” She was still looking out the window not wanting to make eye contact with me. I took my hand and turned her face towards me “Look at me please.” She lifted her eyes there wasn’t tears just sadness. “I don’t resent you and don’t you know how fucking stunning you are. I think you are the most beautiful women I’ve ever seen.” She sniggered “come one Benji you don’t have to lie.” “I’m not lying to you Jojo, you where honest with me last night and today, why on earth will I lie to you. Didn’t Morne make you feel beautiful because sweetheart you are more beautiful than any Model I’ve ever had on my arm.” She leaned forward and gave me a kiss on the cheek. “Thanks, Benji.” She said but I could hear in her voice she didn’t believe me. “Well, if you don’t believe me, I will just have to make sure to tell you every day and show you every day how beautiful you really are.” “You don’t have to.” “Off course I do, until you believe me, I will show you and even afterwards.” I got another kiss. “Thanks a lot. And to answer your question, no Morne never made me feel beautiful. If I look back at it all now, I can see how he manipulated me and said things just to please me, nothing between Morne and I where real that was clear when he introduced me to his fuck buddy for the last 5 years.” I felt so bad for her “I’m sorry angel.” “Not your fault.” She said as she looked out the window again.
“To come back to our parents, what was my mom gossiping about you and your mom?” “Just that she thinks we overreacted in the Bridal store, to her test.” “For the record I don’t think you over reacted.” She actually turned to me look me in the eyes and said “Thank you Benji that means a great deal to me.” “My pleasure. Please don’t take my mom’s point of views on marriage or anything for that matter to heart we are not the same not even in the least. And I don’t agree with her at all.” She looked at me “I’ve noticed thank God.” That made me laugh. Clearly, we won’t be visiting the parents a lot, which is not a problem for me at all I mean I am going to work with them. So that is more than enough time to see them, I’ve been away for years and to see them every day now will be the worst punishment any kid could have.
“And you and your mom? Are you close?” She sighed before she looked at me, “Let’s just say if I could I would have been out of the house a long time ago, but as I’m not aloud to work and earn my own money they keep me hostage at home.” “So, I take that is a no.” “No Benji we don’t have a good relationship in fact I was very shocked when my mother stood up for me against your mom. But I think it was more about your mother taking all the attention and not leaving any for my mom. In short it was my mom’s ego talking.” “I’m so sorry angel.” “You really don’t have to be I made peace with the fact that they only had me to marry you and make the business bigger and stronger. That is my fate. At least you are not a bad guy.” That made me feel like shit, because come one I am bad. I also knew about the arrangement that she needed to stay a virgin and what did I do I went out and was basically a man whore I fucked anything and everything. “I’m not so sure about that.”