Chapter 29 Chapter 29
Jojo
How can he say his not sure his a good guy, fuck if he was any other guy he would have left me already just because I broke a promise that was made between our parents, and besides he didn’t need me he had enough women falling over him. But his here, his listening to me like no one else has ever listened to me and he makes an effort to know me not just the superficial stuff but the good, the bad and the ugly. “Why would you say that?” I asked him “Come one Jojo you weren’t blind you saw what I got up to in Europe.” “I did and?” “That’s not the actions of a good man.”
“It all depends on what you see as good man Benji. Since the moment we started to talk to each other you where nothing but nice to me, yes, I ignored you when we spoke about our kids because I think our kids should have the right to choose what they want to be one day and especially the two of us should understand being pressured into doing something just because your parents said so. But after that conversation, you listened to me, you even listened to me when I told you I lost my virginity to Morne and you didn’t judge me you where more worried if my needs were met than upset about the fact that I’m not a virgin anymore. And even now you take my side over your mothers what other man will do that, please tell me because I don’t know many of them. You are observant and notice immediately if something is wrong with me or if I’m thinking about something that makes me sad. You ask me about my parents and our relationship and you listen you actually listen to me. That is the signs of a good man in my eyes. You being in Europe that was your way of rebelling against what was going to happen whether you like it or not, I don’t judge you on that neither does that make you a bad man.” “Oh my God Jojo I couldn’t have asked for a better person to share this life with. The fact that you don’t judge me that you see the other things. I’m in total Aw of you.” “You really shouldn’t be I have my moments.” “I didn’t see them yet are you hiding your true self from me?”
“Honestly Benji I think I’m more real with you than I have been with anyone else in my life, maybe because I know we have to get married and there is nothing I can say to make you run away. Or there is but you are not allowed to run away.” I gave a small evil laugh. “Oh, she can be evil. But I understand what you are saying, we need to learn to accept each other no matter what.” “Exactly. So, with that being said I’ve never been this honest with anyone you don’t know how good I’m feeling at this moment right now. It feels like a weight has been lifted off my chest, these few hours with you have done more for me than any appointment at a psychiatrist ever did.” It was like he couldn’t help himself anymore he got up picked me up from my chair and held me. “I hope that never change” he said into my neck. “As long as we don’t change, I’m sure that won’t change either.” “So, you promise you’ll always be honest with me?” He asked looking me in the eyes. “I promise Benji I will always be honest with you.” “Good and I with you.”
He put me down in my chair again and said “I think we made more progress in this short time than most married people do in a life time.” “I must agree with you.” We both looked out the window as we were approaching the Hamptons “You excited?” He asked me “Very I’ve been here last when I was in high school on a summer break.” “Oh” he said a bit confused. “With who?” “Friends we were mostly girls but a few boys did show up.” “That wasn’t when we were about 16 was it?” I had to think “Actually yes why?” “I was in the Hamptons to with my mom and dad, and my mom disappeared every night checking in on a friend’s child.” “Oh, that was probable me.” “Now that you mention it, I’m very sure that was you and one of those guys that rocked up at the house, I was one of them.” “No, you lie.” “No, I’m dead serious. I came down for the summer holiday and we spend the whole holiday in the Hamptons which was weird my parents never stay that long, but now everything make sense.” “It feels like I have to be mad or something?” I said but I was just so over our parents I can’t even be bothered. “Where you and Morne something by then?” “No, we only started dating when I was 17 basically a year later, that was the most boring summer of my life, the others got drunk and I had to clean up after them.”
“Why didn’t you get drunk?” “I don’t know, I’m just the one that looks after everyone and if I don’t trust the people around me, I won’t drink, it was just something I took away from someone else’s mistake. I basically read the whole holiday and tanned on the beach at night I had to look after the girls that was using booze like it was being band the next day. “I’m sorry we didn’t meet then.” “Oh no you wouldn’t even have looked twice at me; I had braces I looked terrible.” “You really make me sound very superficial.” “No, I’m not it’s just…..” He interrupted me “No it’s okay I get it.” He looked sad in a way. “I didn’t mean to offend you.” “No if all I had to go on was your social media and it looked like mine I would totally agree with you, but I’m a much deeper person than you saw on social media.” “I know Benji you have been showing me the much deeper side of you the past few hours.” “Well good and for the record I also had braces.” “But I’m sure you were still sexy.” That got a smile on his face “You think I’m sexy?”