Chapter 46

"Do you understand why I avoided this conversation Olivia? You are like a ghost to me... Because every time I look at you I see her! Your eyes... are just like hers."

He pulled my chin to look at him

"Your hair is darker, but it still reminds me of hers, your lips are the same shape, the same color.... And your smell..."

He drew the air close to my face

"You are the ghost I can't ignore, I still love you! And seeing you... it's confusing and sad. Because if you weren't Josh's.... You would be mine!"

I jumped back when he said that, and then I understood how hard it was to be around me. But I would never belong to anyone other than Josh.

"Don't confuse things Adam"

I said looking at him

"I'm not confusing anything, I know you are his, you love each other and you are living the damn life I dreamed of living with Vivian, the same way, in the same mold! I have visited many places Olivia, read many legends, talked to natives and then I come across you, an Aaryn, pregnant with my Lycan nephew just like me, and that is no coincidence, and that is what your father fears!

"I don't get it Adam, my father fears? Are there legends about that?"

"He fears a hybrid! A person who would not give him control, would combine the skills of both peoples, the strength of both peoples! Imagine someone like that, threatening his reign, doesn't he seem to you the kind of man who would do that? And yes, there are legends about this! About the end of war in the whole world.

Yes, that description fit my father like a glove, he was exactly the person who would kill his daughters, his grandchildren and all generations as long as the power remained his. And if I already drove him crazy because I was uncontrollable, imagine my son with my blood and Josh's mixed together?

I was a side effect, the millennial side effect that my father couldn't ignore.

My mind was a mess, a whirlwind of thoughts passing through me too fast for me to catch them. And before I knew it Adam was pulling me into the castle, spears were being thrown at us as well as arrows. Yes, we were in the fucking Middle Ages, it wasn't possible!

I ran, holding Adam's hands. The moment he realized that I couldn't keep up, he picked me up and carried me.

He walked through all the corridors until he finally found the attack room. He placed me on the floor, Josh ran to me to find out what had happened.

"What happened Adam? Are you okay Olivia?"

I nodded as Adam shot back

"I've already let one woman die under my care, there's no way I'm going to let another die."

Josh thanked his uncle, but I understood deeper what he was trying to say, he had been too clear a few minutes ago. I caught myself wondering what Josh would say if I told him, and decided to let it go. Although Adam didn't seem to care what I said or didn't say. He didn't seem the type to worry about consequences. And when I thought about My mother, I would never think that she was once in love with him, just because of his impulsiveness. It doesn't sound like anything my mother would do, and that's what sounded so strange to me. But I would get used to it, to thinking about this Olivia that I never knew, but was so much cooler and more loved.

"Didn't I tell you not to go into the garden? They're surrounding us Olivia, you could have been killed!"

I couldn't even answer him, because he was right, but I could say "I needed to know what happened to my sister" saying it out loud sounded so dumb that I decided not to say it. Know about my mother? Okay! Risking my life for that? Too bad!

"What are we going to do Josh?"

Said Hannah with completely wide eyes, as Josh's father walked into the room, running like he was going to be shot at any moment.

"We're going to resist!" He replied haughtily

"That's what we do! We resist Lucius."

"Forgive me dad, but this is silly!"

Josh said nervously receiving a look of disapproval from his father and Jade.

"It's the truth, don't deny it! How long have we been at this resisting thing? Do me a favor! We're going to attack this time, I'm not going to let them break into the damn palace, kill half our people and take my wife to be killed in their castle with my son inside her, is that clear? I will stand up to them.

"Dad... This time I agree with Josh!"

The good neighbor policy is not working no.

"We have a place to hide my children, let's stay safe!"

"And it's that stance that wiped out many of our own, that killed Vivian and many others! The passivity of believing that by saving your family you are saving the people! Damn it, Dad, is this serious? You have no pride!"

Yeah, Josh was much worse than me!

But his father was a slacker, and soon he left the room, handing over control to him because deep down he was really afraid of what lay ahead, we all were, in fact, and to say otherwise was not fair at all.

"Calm down Josh, I beg you!"

I said with the feeling that I wasn't heard, as Josh confabulated with Adam and Hannah. Some loosers entered the room at Benjamin's behest, and everything was happening so fast that I couldn't even describe what I was feeling.

I was passive because despite the anger I felt for what my father had done to Vivian, and to me I didn't live subjugated by anyone, and my whole life I lived in my cage of another.

It was easy to ask for calm, but Josh's eyes burned like flames, you could see his skin turning red, and even though the day was cold the air in the room was warm. He wasn't just Josh, he was the warrior Josh. He was the man who would do anything to protect his own, which filled me with pride... To know that he looked nothing like my father.

"Someone take Olivia back to her room.... And stay with her there, now it's kill or be killed!"

He said firmly

"Have you gone crazy? Let's fight together, side by side!"

"You're kidding, right? Have you gone crazy?"

He said holding my arms.

"No, I just"

I started not knowing how I was going to convince him of the absurdity I was proposing.

"Olivia"

Hannah approached

"Your head is on the line, having you in combat is dangerous, for you and the baby... And also for us! We would waste time protecting you. Can you understand?"

Everything she said made sense, so I just lowered my head, and watched them prepare to face an ancient and bloody war that had been going on for several and several generations of Lycans and Aaryns.

"Okay, Hannah... you stay with Olivia" Josh said.

"Is that an order?"

She said staring at him. Well, she would miss the action too.

"No, it's a request! Take care of my wife and my son...I trust you!"

She had no way to deny, and while everyone else came out with their armor to set up a formation, it was just me and Josh left in the room.

When he took my face between his hands, I didn't know how to describe my feelings, they were many mixed together, but the predominant one was fear.

"Josh... I would give anything for you not to go out there."

"It's necessary, otherwise this will never end Olivia."

" But what if something happens to you? Out there?"

"You'll learn to live without me, I'm sure.

"No, I can't live without you... Where did you get that from?"

"Anyway, there's a piece of me in there with you. If anything happens, you run away from here with Hannah, without looking back. And create our miracle always thinking of me, I'll be watching over you both wherever I am. This I promise you! I love you... Aaryn!"

"I love you too Lycan!"

I said this and kissed him, emotion surging up my throat, and I avoided crying. I followed Hannah without so much as a peep down the path.

I stood in front of the window. and watched as the army of Lycans entered their formation, Hannah looked around and stood there motionless, I don't know if she just didn't say anything to make me worse, but the silence was deafening.

"Hannah, we have to go help... you know!"