Chapter 92

I'm at a loss for words. It has been a week since our last big fight we have had. We have not talked to each other unless it involved Faithlyn. He does not acknowledge me at all. It is almost like I'm dead to him. My days are full of laughter with Faithlyn. I try my best to hide what is going on with me and Derek from her. My nights are filled with mostly tip toeing around Derek's moods. I'm just trying to stay out of his way. I try not to upset him because it's just not worth the argument.

I'm not sure where things are going to go from here. It doesn't seem like he wants to work anything out. I'm thinking about just moving back to Alaska. I talked to my father, and he is willing to pay for Faithlyn and I to get tickets whenever I'm ready. I am going to plan it as just a visit and instead of coming back we are just going to stay there. I know that we would have to work things out for Faithlyn so that she would have both of us in her life. I just don't know what his reaction will be to all of this. I am going to bring it up today when he gets home, and I'm hoping that he is in a good mood.

I decide it's time to get moving, so I get off my homemade bed on the floor in Faithlyns room. I didn't want to be near him, so I am sure as hell not sleeping with him. Fuck that! I check on Faithlyn surprised that she is still sleeping. I decide to hurry up and get a shower before she wakes up. I don't get to shower every day because sometimes she is awake before me. I hurry up and get in and out of the shower taking no time at all. I'm surprised when I find that she still is asleep. I go over to Derek's room to get my clothes, and I get dressed. I left my clothes over there because he is only home at night. I can get what I need during the day.

I walk to his room, I open the door to walk into the bedroom, I go straight to the closet as I drop my towel, and I pick out my clothes for the day when I hear, “What are you doing Amelia!”

I jumped from not knowing that Derek was still in the bedroom. I don't talk to him, I just hurry up and grab my clothes and go to leave. He stands in front of me. I don't want him to touch me, so I back away from him and turn my back to him. I can feel his breath on the back of neck, and it makes the hairs on the back of my neck stand up. My body can't help but crave his gentle touch, but I don't want him to be rough with me. 

He begins kissing my neck. I want more, but I don't allow myself. I step away from him saying, “Derek, I can't do this. Please get out of my way so that I can get through. I was only coming to get clothes. I need to go and check on Faithlyn.”

“Amelia, why be such a prude? The only reason I allow you to stay is because of Faithlyn, so why not have some fun?”

His hands start roaming all over my body, but I can smell the liquor on his breath. I know he is about to do something stupid. I tell him to stop, but he doesn't listen. I knee him in the groin, and I watch him fall to the ground. I then run to Faithlyn's room and lock the door hoping that he just leaves me alone. What has happened to him? He is losing himself over all of this, and not letting me tell my part of the story. The part that actually fucking happened not just the lies that others have told him.

I go to check on Faithlyn. When I look, I notice that she isn't in her crib, and fear overcomes me. I open the door to go find her only to find Derek outside the door. He goes to grab me, but I dodge him and am able to run out of the bedroom. I know he is drunk, so I am trying to stay away from him because he is scaring me.

I run to Summer's room to see if she has Faithlyn. I know that Derek would never harm her, but Sumner never takes Faithlyn out of her crib without telling me, even if I'm sleeping she wakes me up to tell me. I become nervous hoping that she has Faithlyn. I know that Derek is right behind me, so I don't want to slow down. Once I go to open her bedroom, I feel Derek grab me by my hair and pull me backwards.

“Derek, what are you doing! Stop, please! I just need to make sure Summer has Faithlyn! Then you can do what you want with me, please!”

All of a sudden, I see the door opening, and I hear the sweetest voice saying, “Derek, what are you doing? Get your hands off her!” Derek lets me go immediately.

I get up, and I run to her. I am so happy to see her that I put my arms around her and I hug her saying, "Jill, you're back! You came back! I have missed you so much!”

“Of course I came back! I told you that I would be back. I would never be able to stay away. You are my family. All of you are.”

Derek looks at her with shock written all over his face. He is confused about her being here since all this time he thought she was dead. I tried telling him the truth of what happened, but he did not want to hear it. Now that Jill is here she can clear everything up, but can I forgive Derek for all that he has done? I know that I am not innocent in all of this, but what I did had reason behind it. What he did was just pure hate.

“Jill, I'm so glad that you are here! Someone tricked Derek into thinking I killed you and tried to kill him. I wanted to tell him my side of the story, but he was so angry he wouldn't let me.”

Jill goes over to Derek and helps him to his feet as she says, "Come my boy. Let's get up to bed to relax and sleep it off." 

I am so relieved that Jill is here. I don't know what Derek would have done if she hadn't stepped in which scares me. I know that he is going to wake up and regret what he has done and apologize. Can I really forgive him for all that he has done? He has hurt me physically and emotionally. He ignored my cry out for help to explain to him what really happened, and he didn't trust me. Then I realize what happened. Wait a minute, the notes! Summer is the one that dealt with them. She gave me mine, but never gave Derek his.

I look at her as she's standing there holding my child, and I'm wondering if she is a fake. I want to confront her, but I am going to talk to Jill about it first. I need to confirm that she gave Derek's note to her first before I lose my shit. How could she just watch us fall apart allowing all of this to happen when she knew the truth the entire time? I'm hoping in a way that I'm wrong, but I truly don't believe that I am.

When I see Jill walking down the steps, I walk up to her and ask, “Can we talk privately for a minute please?”

“Amelia, you have to understand whatever has happened here it is all a misunderstanding. I know he loves you and he's so sorry he mistreated you like this.”

“Jill, after that night everything was just so messed up. When I got back to the hotel Summer gave me my letter and Derek's letter. I never gave Derek his letter, and I don't know what happened to it. The only other person who would have access to his letter is Summer. I forgot all about it. I am such an idiot.”

“So, you think that summer deceived us? That little bitch!”

“I don't have Derek's letter. He has it, but it said something along the lines of 'I got rid of you, and I helped Brittany get out of the contract with you' and it said that everything isn't real.”

“Oh my goodness! He thought that letter was from me? He knows l have never lied to him! That's why he was so upset! It makes perfect sense now!”

“My question is, what the hell did Summer do with his actual letter, and why would she do this to me? I was nothing but nice to her.”

“Amelia, this is all my fault. I'm the one who found her. I really thought I did my research, but something must have slipped through the cracks.”

“Jill, it's nobody's fault but hers. She's the one who did this. It's time to confront her and get the truth.”