Chapter 15 Chapter 15
Anna's POV
I felt bad and guilty that I refused to let the pack help an ex-member, but it's his ex-girlfriend, and I know she wants him back. I sigh and rub my belly. Derek went to sleep after we made love, but I couldn't; I was too worried about what Ellie's dad said. I was so worried he was right about it all that sleep wouldn't come.
Maybe he was right. Maybe she should be here and I should be gone because he was in love with her. I felt tears fill my eyes as I looked down at my big pregnant belly. Derek was snoring, and I held in my sobs.
"He was right; she should be here instead of me," I whispered. I get up and go downstairs to think and cry more.
I was feeling depressed, so I headed downstairs to get a snack. I was sitting at the counter when I felt our boy kick like he knew his mama needed comfort.
"I know, baby, but maybe Daddy would be better off with her," I choked saying it. I was going to give in and tell him to let her come back. She needed help, and I know if it was me, I would want help from my pack. I also knew this may push them back together, but it was the right thing to do.
I know there's a chance that she could try to steal him away, but I'm going to be the better person here. I rubbed my belly and finished my snack. I didn't go to bed; instead, I headed to the nursery and sat in the rocking chair. I wiped at tears and looked out the window sadly. I didn't hear Derek till he touched me. Looking up, I saw his worried face come into view.
"Little one, are you okay?" he says, noticing my sad mood.
"Yeah, I'm good. I think you need to let Ellie come back so she can get help," I said softly, holding in tears as his face registers surprise. He looks at me and sighs, no doubt feeling what I feel.
"No, little one, I don't; she has a mate and his pack. They should be able to help better than us," he states, stroking my hair. "But she needs help," I mumble. Stop. Nora says, "Stop stressing yourself; you know this isn't good for us, especially when pregnant." "Sweetheart, I'm serious; she has them, and I'm having her family join her there. I don't want unnecessary stress on you, so she stays there," he says, picking me up. I wrap my arms around his neck and lay my head on his shoulder. I'm so sleepy.
"You need rest, my angel, so we are going back to bed," he says, walking out and heading for our room. His lips hit my neck, and I moan. Yes, I'm more horny; we can thank my hormones for that.
"You know what would make Daddy happy?" he questions. Oh no, a daddy reference. Nora moans, "Such a turn-on," and he is a hot daddy.
"Oh no, what?" I play along because this will get me his big cock.
He growls, and I giggle. I actually giggle because his growl makes my panties wet.
"I'm going to take you to our bed, strip you down, lick your tasty pussy, and then sink my big cock in that tight pussy till we both cum," he says, making my mouth drop open and a blush darken my cheeks. Once in our room, he does exactly what he said, and by the time he is done, I have no doubts about his love for me. I cum hard for him, and he growls loud, releasing his load in me. His hands rub at my body, making me more tired and relaxed.
I fall asleep cuddled up to my mate, and I sleep soundly till our house phone rings and our perfect world comes crashing down. Derek is extremely upset, and I feel terrible after we get off the phone. I feel terrible that his first love died, but I also feel so relievedthat I mask it to be the supportive mate. "Finally the bitch is gone," Nora mutters. "I wish we got to kill her," she adds.
Ellie killed herself and left a note for Derek. Her family was inconsolable, and I felt the guilt snake back in. He left that morning, and I didn't see him for days. I was due soon, and he disappeared. "He probably went to mourn her," I told Nora. See, you begged to give him a chance, and this is what the fuck I get. "Thanks, Nora, I so appreciate it," I hiss at my wolf.
I sat in my chair watching the squirrels when he came in looking terrible.
"Hey, little one," he said, kissing my head. I hold in my sigh and words so we don't fight.
"Are you okay? "I'm sorry," I say, watching him. He kisses my lips and just nods. Yeah, he misses her. Nora mumbles. I should have left, I tell her, looking back outside.
"I will be fine, honey; let's get some food," he states, helping me stand. His attitude is different, and then it hits me: he misses her something fierce. He still has feelings even with me here. I'm his mate, but his mind is on her. Nora whimpered, but I ignored it and let him lead me to the kitchen. I cooked earlier but kept the food warm.
My appetite is gone, so I pick at the food and sit there staring at my plate. He still loves her and misses her, so where the fuck does that leave me? I knew I gave in way too soon. I'm a sucker for him, and now I'm hurt.
He still loves her. He always fucking will; I will always be second best. I place my fork down, too upset to keep eating. I want to throw up, but I hold it all in. I hold in how much hurt I feel and how much I wish he would have let me die.
I would have been better off dead than feeling this shit.
I would have been better off leaving this pack and running to my aunt.