Chapter 13 Chapter 13
Anna's POV
I was pregnant and currently sitting in our house looking at the trees as squirrels ran up and down them. I found out Ellie wanted him back, and she caused an attack on our pack, her pack, well, her old pack. I guess it felt like he would want her the same way. Yes, he told me he loved me and would stay with me, but is he staying for the pup? I still doubt everything, but can you blame me? He broke me for her time and time again. I sigh as my thoughts race with a lot of what-ifs.
She admitted to still loving him, and that worried me because he so strongly stated his love for her. I sighed, rubbing my big belly while the fur balls ran around. I jumped when Derek touched me, and I smiled a little at his kiss to my head. I hold in a sigh as he rubs my belly and hugs me. He is affectionate. Nora states with a sigh. "I feel his love," she mumbled.
"Hey, my little ones," he said, rubbing my belly. My pup kicks at his hand, saying his or her own hi to Derek.
"Hey, Daddy. How was your day?" I asked, watching the squirrels. My thoughts went to Ellie. She wasn't going to give up so easily. She loves Derek and will stop at nothing to get him back. They have been together for years, and I had this sick feeling I was going to be alone raising our pup. I felt his hands go to my belly, and our baby kicked at them hard. I giggled but also winced; this was a strong baby. Damn, kid, be easy so you don't kick your way out.
"My day always goes good when I get to come home to you both," he says, kissing my lips. I blush because he always says sweet stuff to me, and I always blush. I always doubt he means it, too, but I don't say it out loud because my wolf begged me to try. Try to give this a chance, try to give us a chance, and my all-time favorite: he does love us. She swears by it, but I still doubt everything.
"My day always gets better when you come home," I say, kissing him back. I felt a change days after we got home, and I couldn't put my finger on it, but I knew deep down it was her. Ellie called, texted, and tried to come back, but he banned her. Was he missing her, and did he regret me and this baby? I wanted to leave so many times while he was at the pack house working, but I always stayed. I am giving us a chance, so I stay, but I also worry he will change and I will be left high and dry. She won't stop till she has him, and I feel I will be left heartbroken again.
He has been working hard and spending more time at the main packhouse, where his office is. I sit most days deep in thought and alone. His wolf told my wolf all of his thoughts, actions, and when he is unsure of stuff. He's unsure of stuff. I'm the one he broke for the whore; if anyone should be unsure, it should be me. I'm the one that went through hell because of them. I wanted to die to be free from it.
I love him, but I can't compete with Ellie anymore. I got this pup to worry about, so I'm not letting that bitch plague my thoughts anymore. She is still with her mate, but he is cold and distant with her. He has a son, and she does whatever she wants. I know if she could, I would be dead so they can fuck like rabbits.
I don't register Derek talking to me till he touches me and shakes me a little. I jerk because I'm startled, and I look at him. I was thinking about everything and miles away, not hearing him.
"Anna I was wondering if you would let Ellie come back to get help. Her mate doesn't care if she has help, and I was wondering if you would mind her returning to get her family to help her," he rambles on. I feel hurt snake through me as I look up at him sadly. This is just a way for them to be together again. I told you, Nora, I told you everything is a lie. He still wants her.
"I…I just...I'm..." I couldn't find words as he stared, wanting me to say something. I hate her, and I don't want her to come back. I choke up and don't talk for a few. Derek sighs and pulls me up, then sits, pulling me into his lap. He still wants her. I whimper to my wolf. "No, he doesn't; he just wants to help the crazy bitch. He wants her family to help her with her mental shit," Nora says, trying to comfort me.
"I'm sorry, little one; I just feel bad that a pack member is mentally breaking," he says, rubbing my belly.
"Ex-pack member," I point out, and I fucking don't mind pointing this out. I hate her, and I wish her dead daily. I even imagine all the ways she would die over and over.
"I know, Anna, but she needs help," he murmurs. Sure she does, or does he mean ways his cock can help her?
"Then her mate can do it; I don't want her here," I say, annoyed. I feel him sigh, and I don't know if it's a sad sigh or a relieved one. "I'm so tired," I say to my wolf. Will I ever be free from this pain because it still hurts? Yes, I smile, and yes, I act fine, but I believe in the "fake it till you make it" thing. I'm putting on one hell of an act to get through life right now.
"Okay, Anna, I will refuse the request and tell her mate he has to help her," he says, rubbing my back. Just trust him. Nora murmured, trying to soothe me.
"If she steps foot here, I'm leaving. I'm not going to compete for you, Derek." "I got our pup to worry about," I mumble. Yes, I'm not staying. He lets her come back. I will leave and go to my aunt's house.
"I know, honey, I swear you're all I want," he says, turning me to him and capturing my lips. The kiss feels nice as he deepens it, and I feel his hands go down my body.
We both moan as our clothes disappear.