Chapter 37

“Flight is at six thirty in the evening,” I looked at mom who just came into the room, my heart tightened hearing her but I was just helpless. What should I even do? Taking a deep breath I slowly nodded at her.

“Seyah, I know it’s hard. But how can you just fall in love with your brother?” mom asked me, making my body shudder. I couldn’t stormy tears, and at the same time I didn’t have an answer either.

“I love him mom, I know it’s wrong but I don’t know what to do” looking at her, I finally spoke. I can’t force myself not to love him. I’ve tried, I’ve just tried so hard to stop myself from loving my own brother but it was nothing but a failure.

“You will forget Seyah” she replied and caressed my face as she kissed my forehead. I nodded at her but in the deep inside of my heart I knew I won’t be able to forget. How can I just forget the man I loved and I slept with? That was impossible.

Then mom watched me for a while and walked out of the room again, I sighed and looked at her leaving. My heart was aching and I didn’t know what to do. I laid on my bed and closed my eyes as tears rolled down from them.

“How can I just forget you Seth?” I asked, knowing that he cannot even hear me. The pain in my heart was limitless and I never knew something like this would happen to us. I just don’t understand how mom and dad entered the room even after we locked it last night..

Wait, did someone tell them? My heart was covered with horror and at the same time I remembered the texts that came to Seth’s phone. Did that man do this too? I asked myself not knowing who the hell was that and why that man did something like that. Soon after my eyes felt heavy and I closed my eyes to sleep.

………..

I was awakened by my mom’s voice, opening my eyes, I looked at her as she forcefully smiled at me. Then showing the time from her phone she asked me to get up. It was already four in the evening. How many hours did I sleep? Ignoring the fact that I’m going to leave them all, I got up from the bed and walked into the washroom.

After taking a shower, I walked out of the washroom and walked into the dressing room as I lazily picked a dress to wear. I didn’t have any strength in my body and my heart was shaking. I don’t want to leave, I just wanted to be with Seth and that’s all but look what happened to us.

Wearing a dress, I combed my hair and came out of the dressing room as I looked at my mom. She was crying as she looked at me. I know she was also helpless but why send me away from their lives as if I wasn’t valuable?

“Can I talk to him before leaving?” I asked her. I knew what would be her answer but yet I had a little hope that she would let me talk to Seth. I couldn’t even say goodbye to him properly.

“He’s in the room Seyah, I locked the room from outside so he won’t be able to see you” my heart shattered into pieces as I heard her. Why? Why can’t I even see him before I leave?

“Mom, why? Just please let me see him” I said but she just shook her head and looked away from me as she took my bags and left the room. I watched my room for a while and memories surged into my mind.

I just remembered how Seth hugged me to sleep and how we kissed on this bed, we played, laughed and did everything. I sighed and closed my eyes before walking out of my room, closing the door behind me.

I walked out of the house and saw dad was waiting for us. I looked at him as he looked at me and smiled. I didn’t even have courage to smile at him so I just did nothing but lowered my head. I have already failed him and I just can't face him.

I got into the car and looked at the house via the window but I couldn’t even see what I wanted to see, Seth was nowhere to be seen. How can I just leave him like this? I just don’t want to.

“Seyah, just go and see him before leaving” Hearing dad’s voice, I looked at him. Then he smiled at me and said, Then I looked at my mom who was looking at dad with shock. I smiled at him and nodded as I got out of the car and ran into the room.

“Seth,” I stopped in front of his room and knocked on it. Then I found the key was still there in the keyhole. I unlocked his door and entered as I saw he was already at the door with tear filled eyes. I smiled at him and hugged him without wasting time.

“You’re leaving me?” he asked me as he buried his face against my neck. I didn’t know how to answer his question. Breaking the hug he looked into my eyes before smiling.

“It’s okay I love you” he lowered his head and kissed my lips as he said that. Wrapping my arms around his neck, I nodded at him and kissed him back. Then after a while I broke the kiss and looked at him.

“I love you Seth, remember our promise? I will only love you” he nodded at me and wiped my tears. Resting his forehead on mine he caressed my hair in a loving manner.

“I will also only love you” he said as he kissed my forehead. Then I looked at him for a while and nodded before turning to leave but he caught my hand without letting me go. I turned and looked at him as I saw he was crying but yet smiling at me through his tears.

“Take care Seyah I will be waiting” I smiled at him and nodded as I turned and left his room, leaving him alone there. Wiping my tears, I came out of the house and got into the car as dad started and drove it away.

I looked at my house and saw Seth was standing at the door with a small smile playing on his lips. Really charming and innocent.

Raising my arm I simply waved at him as he did the same before we faded from each other’s sight.