Chapter 41 Daniel
Lana's POV
I stood inside of the pool, walking further inside of it, and I began to swim. The water was cool over my body. I swam in the deep end, my head under water and I remained that way. Holding my breath. I wanted to stay like this until I couldn't hold my breath anymore and maybe...just maybe, I shouldn't exist in this world.
I could no longer hold my breath, but I remained underwater. I closed my eyes. I needed air but I wouldn't come up for it. I was just floating under water, feeling lifeless and then something grabbed my arm, pulling me up and I coughed as I could finally breathe, I moved my wet hair to the back, out of my face. I was being held by Daniel.
" What are you doing here?" I asked.
"I came to visit you, I asked your dad how you were, seem that you ignored my calls and texts. I came here and I felt that something was wrong and I found you in the pool. I thought you drowned." he said as he got out of the pool and I got out after him.
I hugged myself because I didn't want him to see me this way. I did not even have a towel. "Well, I'm going upstairs to get dried and dressed," I said.
I walked back into the house and to my room. Daniel basically ruined that moment of ending my own life. I guess that it is not worth it to do something like that. Once I was dressed, I went down to the lounge. He was sitting on the sofa, watching sports.
I sat down next to him. "Are you okay? You are home permanently and I know that the professor could be the cause of all this," he said.
"I don't want to talk about it, we aren't together anymore. He has a son, he should be there," I said with emotion in my voice.
"Were you trying to kill yourself?" he asked. I looked at the television. "You were."
"I was, okay?" I looked at him. "I don't feel as if I can do life anymore. I love him and he screwed it up by not telling me things and I'm sitting with millions of things to think about," tears ran down my cheeks now. "It is too hard for me," I said as I now started to sob.
"Lana, please do not take your own life because of a man. There are so many out there that will not break your heart the way that he has," he said. I wiped my tears away with the back of my hands.
"You don't understand," I replied. "I won't explain half of it."
"You have supportive parents, whatever it is, they are here for you just as you have me as your best friend." He placed his hand on mine and I looked at him. I still had a lump in my throat because I wanted to cry, but I wanted to keep it together.
"I know, but I have to do these things on my own," I replied.
He had concern on his face but he held my gaze and then his lips were on mine. I closed my eyes, hoping that I could forget about Arden. He was a gentle kisser, but it felt so different. It was not Arden's kiss. I broke our kiss by pulling away.
I shook my head. "I can't," I said.
"I understand that you can't, but what do you have to lose? I have always been around, don't I get a chance?" he asked as I stood up. I turned around to face him.
"You are my friend and I would like to keep it that way. "
"I love you, Lana. I always had feelings for you. You are always thinking about the professor. He is holding you back from what you could have," he said. He seemed annoyed. "I deserve happiness too," he said as he stood up.
"If you deserve happiness, you cannot look for it by me," I replied.
"You sure as hell are looking for it by that Professor,"
"His name is Arden," I corrected him.
"Whatever, Lana. He broke your heart, he is far older than you. What did you expect?"
"That is none of your business," I said calmly.
"Well, you are my friend and I care a hell of a lot about you. I guess I'm the guy that always gets sh^t," he said as he walked towards the front door before turning around to face me. "You are too stuck on him and its preventing you from being happy and to move forward. He doesn't care about you, he doesn't love you. What makes you think that he does? All you were to him was an easy f^ck and I guess that you were better off dead in that pool."
"Get out!" I yelled at him. I took a vase as he walked out, closing the door behind him, I threw the vase against it. The glass shattered. I didn't care as I sobbed, how dare he say such things about Arden when he doesn't even know him? I wish that I had never been friends with him because all he cares about is a stupid kiss, not even giving me time to move on and he just wanted to dive into the deep end, making his move.
I screamed at the top of my lungs as I sobbed and I held myself as I just sat on the ground. Allowing myself to let it all out, but those words really ripped me apart. I didn't expect that from him. I guess that people's true colors do get revealed.
I don't see myself with Daniel and I never will. I don't see myself with anyone for that matter. If I'm a young single mother, then what man would want a kid too?
I got up from the group as I wiped the tears away. I went to the bathroom and I splashed my face with cold water. I looked at myself in the mirror and I seemed like a broken girl. I am broken. I took a towel and I damped my face dry. I have ignored most of the things on my phone, mainly to avoid Arden. So no one would get my attention that easily.