Shit! We were almost caught. I drove the car this time and quickly left that place, even if the kids were complaining about why we left early. I wanted to go home, but Red was crying constantly, so I decided to go to a market so that he could go shopping there. For sure, Axl Raven wasn't there because he was busy in the parks.
"Red, we should be home after this." I comforted him, and Hiro ordered some food. I saw a balloon and bought them their favorite. Red also stopped crying, which was a good sign, and I was able to breathe easily after that.
"We'll eat, and do you want to go shopping?" It's afternoon, but I know that some malls are still open this time. And I also have to buy my children new clothes, and so do I. Everything happened suddenly, and I didn't bring too many things.
"Yes, Mommy, I want to buy my art." Red shouted. I put my finger between his lips to silence him because people turned their eyes to us.
"Tone down your voice, Red; we're not in our house."
"Okay, mom, tone it down." He answered me almost in a whisper, so I pinched his cheeks.
Both of them are eating what they want, while Hiro is looking at me weirdly.
"What?" I just lowered my voice, and he took a deep breath. "Say what you want to say, Hiro."
"Aren't you going to tell Raven about them? Or your children that Raven is their father? Just even a glimpse of their father is a heaven for them." He explained to me, but I sighed. I can't let that happen because I know they miss their father even if they don't tell me.
"I can't, Hiro, you know that." I was intently looking at my kids. I was afraid to lose them from my sight; I couldn't; I was afraid something would happen to them. "Not now, Hiro, not this time."
"When will you be ready for the truth, Cbiara? Your children need to know about their father; Raven has a right to know about them."
"Why are you siding with Raven? You know what he did to me, right? So why are you siding with him?" I don't want us to have a conflict just because of that traitor, but if he tried to put Raven in this family, then we would be enemies.
"I know, but..." He paused. I waited for what he would say so I could know everything, but he didn't follow up.
"What? But?" He shook his head and went to the children. I don't understand Hiro; he knows what happened to me when I was pregnant and what I did because of how Raven made me feel, and now he's like that.
He was aware of my suffering at the time, since I was experiencing severe homesickness and emotional instability, and Raven was not around. Where's Lethia's he, enjoying the warmth of her arms, and now she's going to claim Raven ought to know everything? That the child is his to have? No way! He was absent when the children were born and raised during my pregnancy.
I will deprive my children of their father. I have been selfless for the past years but to my children?I will be selfish for the second time just like I did to him; I don't want to think about anything. It's not my fault because I was the one who suffered while he had fun with his girl. And one more thing: I don't want to ruin the image of his family and his wife. I'm not that quick to forgive, but I'll admit that Raven revived my sad heart, so as much as possible, I don't want to resent him that much. However, I don't think the things he did to me will go away.
There's a dreadful memory yet a victory one that I want to treasure. I didn't think that the many emotions that Raven made me experience would all end up in anger. I want to scold him for everything, but I don't want us to go back to the past, but here it is. Something that shouldn't have happened has happened.
"Mommy, we're done."
"So full!" I laughed because they even showed me that they finished eating, so I applauded.
"Where do you want? Let's go shopping after you two can rest."
"Okay, Mom," they both giggled and talked to Hiro so they could fight again. I was content with my kids; I couldn't trade them for anyone.
We walked to our car, and when we got in, I looked for the mall I frequent. I didn't think it was near the restaurant where... I should remove those memories because it was a long time ago. I shouldn't have put that in my brain anymore; that was in the past.
The two of us were in the middle, while I was on the right side and Hiro was on the left. If someone we don't know sees us, they will think we are a family. I was the mother, and Hiro was the father until they heard Red and Hiro fight.
"Excuse me, where's the art store here?" This place got bigger and bigger, and I was getting lost. All I know is that someone else has managed it since the chairman died, and the family is out of nowhere.
"On the left side, ma'am, you'll see an arrow with an art store on top of it; just follow that, and that's what you are seeking." I smiled at the woman and thanked her. We put that first.
"Don't you want to go somewhere, Rayden?" I ask him. I don't want him to feel that we put Red before him. I don't want him to think that I have my favorite because they are both equal to me. "Something that you want to play or what?"
"Let's find Red first, then I'll buy a piano or Cielo," he beamed, a smile that was pure, innocent and able to let go for his brother.
"We can go to the instrument room first, then to art," Red suggested.
"No, on you first." Rayden insisted that there would be no fight; that's all we did. Instead of fighting with the two of them, we went to Red, then to Rayden, just in case my heart suddenly sank when I saw a person that I wanted to avoid.