The party ended up messed up, but I was satisfied with it, but that wasn't enough. The Smiths left immediately because of the scandal that happened, except for Raven. Raven was all by my side and never left me; that's what I was hoping for. Roux didn't leave me in the air when everything was cruel. That state in my mind is still giving me a pang in my chest. I shouldn't think that way. It's over, and it can't be taken back.
For a moment, I needed to act like I was clueless about everything. Raven helped me to the car when the party was over. I felt ecstatic at how my visitors still continued the event after what happened to Smith. I just don't know if Smith is delighted. Anyway, that's how everything started.
"Are you okay?" After all the tragedy that occurred in my life, I just now heard that term again. I was stiffened while sitting in the front seat of his raptor, and I was even more rooted to my seat when he clung near me. Suddenly, my heart beat faster when his scent touched my nose.
I swallowed and closed my eyes. I was expecting something that I couldn't name. But after a few moments, my breath suddenly came out when I heard a little noise. He inserted my seatbelt. I opened my eyes, God! What am I expecting?
"Hey." I was surprised when he suddenly caressed my hand. "I ask if you're okay." I looked at him; he didn't start the engine. He stared at me and seemed to be waiting for my answer. I looked away before answering him.
"I am." My voice shivered, maybe because of the power of his car's air conditioner.
"I know you're just acting earlier." The sudden nervousness I felt when he uttered those words faded. "You don't have to pretend anymore." He spoke coldly, then started the car. I could feel in his behavior that he wanted to ask something, but he chose to keep his mouth shut.
How did he notice?
The whole ride, we were speechless. I didn't know how to approach him or talk to him nicely, so I let it pass by. Besides, I'm not obligated to explain everything to him. But even so, I still can't stop feeling edgy about him. I'm getting chills from his gaze and treatment of me now, but I choose to ignore it.
I was still unable to talk until I got out of his car. I was walking into my gate when he suddenly grabbed my hands, which is why I was facing him.
"What?" I saw how he gulped and the way his Adam's apple moved, as if he were holding back.
My face got hot when he stroked my entire body. From my sandal to my face, he brought his face close to mine, so I held my breath in the meantime.
"Relax." He kissed my head and let my hands go, then left me alone. That's it? Oh crap, what am I expecting?
I was up all night and couldn't sleep because of what he was doing to me. I knew he wanted to ask me something, but he chose to keep quiet. I sighed. I need to go to sleep since I have a lot to do. What happened earlier was just one of the appetizers I served; they better know what I can do, though.
Roux's wrapping hands around his wife made my heart shatter. I was devastated to know that until now. I'm still not good enough for both of us, and I know something is still missing. I'm still looking for someone to treat me the way he does, but not in a fake way. Fvck! I should erase this kind of concern. It can't help me achieve my goal; this will be the barrier.
"You weren't going to force yourself again on the person who doesn't love you." I reprimanded myself; I shouldn't be thinking about other things. I am going to focus on my goal.
Revenge. That's all I'll do—not to love, beg, or whatever I did in the past. I lost my child, my mother, and my father because of them. Everything that transpired to me was the execution of the Smith family. My fists clenched one more time, ready to fight those who made me become like this.
The next morning, I woke up when someone kissed my forehead. My forehead knotted, I opened one eye and I immediately realized that it was Axl Raven.
"Fuck!" I curse and sit on my bed. "What are you doing here?" I covered my face with my hands. For sure, I have my saliva and then the dirt on my face since I didn't wash! "Leave first," I begged softly.
"I can't hear you," he says, teasing me. Back then, he hardly gave me a look, but now he is like this to me.
"You may go out first; I'll be downstairs in a second." I raised my voice a little.
"Can't I wait for you here?" His hoarse voice sent shivers down my spine. I could almost hear his breath when I felt him approach me. I still covered my face.
"N-no!" Fvck! Why do I still have to stutter when I'm in front of him? I should act normal.
"Why, baby?" He said softly. I'm still sitting on my master bed while my face is covered.
"Y-you go out." I don't know what I want to say, but while he's here, I'm getting hot. I don't know why he has this effect on me every time he approaches me—the warmth and sensation. I always felt it, and that's not good.
"I'll wait for you," he kissed my temple. I remained motionless.
God, why are you doing this to me? I shook my head and got up to take a bath.
I was humming while walking downstairs when I could hear a break in the living room. I was in a hurry, and I saw a vase that fell, and Raven was trying to pick it up, so I attended to him.
"I'll sweep this away; don't touch it." I scolded him, but I saw that his whole neck and ears were red, so I held his chin to raise his face. He was in a rage; his whole face was screaming in red. "What happened?" I asked him, but he didn't reply until he met my gaze, which was full of aloofness and madness.
"Do you still love your ex? Are you still hoping for your ex?" His voice was hard when he asked that. I swallowed hard. “Answer me, Blair, is this for vengeance or are you seducing Roux? ”