Usher

When I got back from the hospital, I went straight for Zara though I promised her that I won't be disturbing her but I can't I need to see her.

I was on the way to her room when Jonah stopped me.

" Usher, stop hounding on her,which part of she needs space you do not understand, "

Damn it Jonah.

" Yeah, I was just going to check on her has she slept well, nothing else.. " I trailed off.

" You and I both know what you were going to do.. So stop lying and let's go and get some sleep tomorrow Liam will be discharged and then Zara will be also fine after she will get to see him. "

Jonah and I both then went to get some sleep. In our respective places.

I was half asleep when I heard a ruffling sound coming from the hall, I got up and went to see.

But what I saw....

Oh my god... Zara at the alcohol counter.. Holding a bottle of wine in her hands..

Is she drunk.. Damn it..

I should have listened her before when she always told me make this corner of the hall as something else instead of an alcohol counter. And now look what has happened.. I never expected her to drink though .. She hates the one who drinks so her drinking is hard to digest..

I rushed towards her.

She was sitting on the ice cold floor.. In her nighties...her hairs disheveled but then also ..She was looking adorable.

I took a seat beside her.

Holy hell the smell of vodka is coming from all over her.. I wonder how much did she drink.

And why the hell did she drink on the first place. She was always against it... Always.

Then what made her touch this bottle of poison that's what she calls them.

" Hey, you are up... Did I wake you up.. "She said in a childish tone.

Wohhh. She is wasted.

" What are you doing here Zara.. So late at night..? " I asked her slowly caressing her cheeks..

" I'm drinking.. " She said grinning and raising the bottle in her hands..

She is obviously looking cute acting all childish..but I'm certainly not enjoying her broken state.why is she drinking, my girl never drinks. What has made her drink.

" Zara, I can see that love. But why are you drinking? " I asked cooing her.

" Because I like it.. They say it takes the pain away. But I'm still in pain Usher. I drank two bottles but I'm still in pain... Tell me how much do I have to drink to ease the pain.. How much do you drink to let go off the pain. " She asked with tears welled eyes. Taking my hands in her keeping on top if her chest as if telling me that her heart is in pain..

. It breaks me to see her like this. First she decided not to tell me anything and now I get to see her like this.

What is that which is causing her pain. Why is she so hesitant to share that with me.

Doesn't she trust me enough yet.

And on top she is asking how much do I drink to ease the pain away.. I already have told her that I drank myself to almost death.. And looking at her now like this is killing me. I'll never ever let her drink like I used to do..

" Love, what is causing you pain.. You know you can tell me. " I asked her.

" No I can't... You'll hate me.. I know.. " She said chiding me.

Jerking my hands away, which she only kept on her chest..

What I'll hate her... I don't think that is even possible in this life.

" No baby.. I'll never hate you.. " I said. Caressing her cheeks..

She grinned a little..

" I like the way you call me baby.. " Grinning she said..

" I can call you baby whole of the day if you like.. " I said lightly kissing her alcohol dripped lips.

" Usher, do you want a baby...? " She asked looking me in the eye taking Me by surprise... It felt like all her hangover is gone.

What ? A baby. Just a few days ago she refused to marry me and now she wants a baby.. A child.

She definitely is trashed..

" Answer me. " She demanded.

" Okay.. We can definitely have a baby.. Whenever you like.. But before that I need to make you my wife and for that you have to accept my proposal. " I said.

Giggling she said.

" What if we have one now.. "

Damn it.. I need to get her back to her room, before Jonah hears her brazen talks. I'll have to kill him if he even saw her like this.. She is looking like a walking seduction..

" Look, you are drunk.. I think we can talk about it.. After you are sober.. " Saying so I picked her up in my arms although she protested all the way, for me to put her down as she wasn't finished with her drinking yet.., climbing up the stairs I reached inside her room.

After tucking her into bed I was about to leave but she pulled me by my arms making me fall on top of her.

" Usher, will you hate me... If I kill you.. " She asked.. Tears pooling in her hazel eyes.

What where did that came from. What is wrong with my beautiful girl.. It's killing me to see her like this, she isn't telling me anything but if tomorrow she doesn't decides to explain me all then I my self would find out even if I have to turn the world upside down cause I can't see her Like this..

" Why would you kill me.. Zara..? " I asked perplexed.

" Will you hate me or not..? " She asked emphasizing a little on her words.

She should know by now, I'm all hers to do as she please.

" I'll never hate you Zara, I can never hate you regardless of the things you do to me. " I said looking deep In her eyes, still lying on top of her.

" You should know....... Now it's you that I breath.. I'm nothing without you. All of me is yours. You can crush me ,break me ,or can even kill me... I won't even flinch a bit. " I said kissing her drunk lips one more time.

She started sobbing loudly and hugged me..

" I love you so much... Usher... I love you so damn much that it hurts... " She said crying..

Loving me hurts her... Why..? I don't want anything to hurt her in any way. If loving me hurts her than I'm ready to let her go.. To who ever she would like to be... Cause I love her enough to let her go. To find what makes her most happy.

And if I don't make her happy that would definitely hurt me, but this girl is more than anything to me. And if loving me hurts her then I can let her love anyone she wants to... Even Liam..

Even I know that it would kill me to see her with anyone else but every pain is worth if it can make Zara happy..

My mind started drowning in doubts thinking that why does it hurts her to love me.

But then my shy girl gone all brazen and bold with alcohol she silenced my thoughts by kissing me passionately.. I could still taste the alcohol on her lips.

" Usher, I want to spend the rest of my life with you.. I want to love , live and laugh with you only... Only you. Just you.. "

This girl confuses me to hell. Just a moment ago loving me was hurting her and now she wants to have me for the rest of her life..

She can easily break Me and can make me the happiest man on the planet within a second.

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The depth of my love for this girl scares me to hell.

" Zara, please tell me what has happened.. Love... Trust me I'll understand.. I won't over react.. " I asked her.. Almost begged her to tell me the truth tell me What's hurting her.. But she still didn't say anything.. I'm going bonkers over thinking what actually happened with her in these past two days.. That made her like this , since the time I have known her I never saw her this broken ..

Her eyes were feeling heavy. Her breath to were becoming shallow..

She dozed of repeating..

" You'll hate me... He'll hurt them.. "

Why the hell she thinks I'll hate her.. Nothing and no one can make me hate her.

And who'll hurt whom..

She was asleep finally..

Leaving me bewildered.. All of the night I could not sleep. I even called Ethan to find out about everything..

In the morning I had to go to the hospital to bring Liam home.

Jonah was already gone to office as I wasn't able to be there so I asked him to look into the office matters on my behalf.

Leaving Zara like this was not something I wanted to do.. But I had to go and pick Liam.. He too is important to her. And looking at her hangover.. I'm sure I'll be back before she'll be awake.

Leaving a note on her side table and a pain killer cause I know she hasn't been drunk ever so she must be needing them.., and then kissing her forehead , I left.

When I reached hospital, I got to know that Liam was already discharged. Someone already picked him and has taken him home.

Hell, now I have to go to his apartment.

If I went back home without taking Liam with me then Zara would kill me.

Or she would come running to his apartment. And I don't want to trouble her, when she is already like this

So I went straight for Liam's apartment.

But when I reached there... I went to knock the door, but it was already open pushing it , I entered..

What has happened in here....Everything was broken and shattered, scattered on the floor...moving inside I saw....few men..whom I have never seen before....Who are these people....

Wait... Is this..... Oh my god...... Mum......