Zara

Zara's pov.

I woke up to a severe headache.. I was lying on my bed, the other side of the bed was crumbled..

I looked here and there to analyze what has actually happened. But then I saw a note on the table.

Usher left the note for me.

The note said that, he has gone to hospital to bring back Liam and Jonah is in office. He asked me to take the pills as I'll be having a severe headache once I'm up.

How does he knows that.. I'll be having a headache.

I started reading the note again.

Holy hell... What did I do... Damn it..

Usher had written and asked me not to drink any more of the alcohol as it isn't going to sooth my pain. He'll be back soon , till then I have to take care of myself and he'll talk about the night once he is back.

Damn it.... Now I remember..

Last night when I walked up to him with a gun clueless of what I have to actually do , watching Usher sleeping so calmly made me curse myself more even pointing the gun at him was gut wrenching for me, why did my path crossed with him.. Why it has to be him that night in the car.. If it wasn't him then nothing like this would have happened.. Then I wouldn't be swinging in between life and death.. Why the hell did I fell in love with him.. I'm miserably in love with this man..

Thinking that if I'll kill myself then the problem will be solved but I can't, I know Luke, he is way too vindictive, even if I'll die, he won't spare anyone cause it's not me who he wants to hurt but Chelsea....

Usher's mother... I was heart broken after I got to know the truth.

The real truth.. Like my life turned into a cosmic joke within a second.

I came running back to the person from whom I was running away. Never have I ever imagined that something like this could actually happen. My life became a joke..

The truth that I can never tell Usher..

I was relived after knowing it's not Luke's blood running in my veins.. But the relief did not last long... When Luke finally unfolded the history.

When he asked me to kill Usher... I was about to shoot him with the same gun he gave me.. To kill usher.

But then he said something which ceased my world.

Usher is Luke's son.... That's what he told me..

It is a long story of their horrible past..

Jason, who usher thinks is his father is no one but Luke's cousin. They both were in love with Chelsea. But Chelsea loved Jason.. Cause Luke was involved in illegal business Chelsea never preferred him as a partner, though Jason too was involved in illegal activities but somehow he kept it hidden from Chelsea.

Luke always tried to get in their way, Chelsea hated him for trying to destroy her love life but Luke's crazy obsession over Chelsea destroyed everything..

Being afraid that Luke might destroy their life's. Chelsea and Jason decided to escape and get married.

, but Luke found out about their plan of escape and getting married, he abducted Chelsea and raped her making her pregnant and the baby that was born thereafter was no one but Usher..he thought that this would stop her from marrying Jason as he has held her captivated so she won't be able yo leave. .. But Chelsea somehow escaped... From his castle... With the help of Henna. My mother's twin sister.. Who exactly looks like my mom. That's from where my journey to hell actually began.

Henna was Chelsea's best friend, she helped Chelsea escape from Luke's castle, and took her to Jason, and even helped them in getting married.

But Luke found out about henna and began searching for her. My mother loved her sister more than her life... So she sacrificed herself.

When Luke found out henna's house, he came to abduct her , punish her by exploiting her for what she did. But when mom found out about this, she made her sister escape and pretended to be her. When Luke finally came in the house, looking at the woman in front of him, he thought it was henna... But it actually was Genna. My mom... Luke has seen henna only once and my mother looked exactly like her sister... No one could differentiate between the two in one go... It takes more than that.

Thinking my mom as henna Luke abducted her and tortured her, my mom at that time was already married and pregnant with her first child that was me.

When Luke found out that mom was pregnant he thought it was his child..later when he found out that, it isn't henna but Genna her twin sister.. From that day he started Exploiting my mom more than ever.

And the truth about my birth was the final nail in the coffin..

Now everything was crystal clear... Jason's hatred towards usher... Cause he to must have found out that he was not his child.. Cause from the way Luke told me that Jason fought with everything he had for Chelsea only shows that he was so in love with her.. So there's not a single chance that he would have treated Usher like this, if he was his own Child..

Everything slowly unfolded... All the mystery was solved now..

My mom was paying the price for loving her sister... Who obviously is oblivious to the fact that what might have happened to my mom... I don't know who is henna... But even if she looks like my mom.. She doesn't has the heart of gold like my mom.. The respect I had for my mom increased to infinity.. I just want to embrace that courageous lady for what she did for her sister.. I hate henna even if I don't know her..

I was paying the price of being the daughter of this brave lady and I don't regret it even a bit..

But how the destiny played this joke on me... How it made me fall in love with a man.. Who is a part of the man , I loath with my every breathe..

. Every thing was flashing right in front of my eyes.. How many a times I saw Luke in usher's persona..

He even looks a bit like Luke...

Never did I ever thought even in my wildest dreams that mine and usher's history is moulded together.. We are part of the same horrible past... I hated Chelsea at that moment because of her dark lie we all are in this mess and soon Usher too will find out and then I'll never be able to save him..

Chelsea thought that it will all remain hidden but little did she knows that her past was chasing her all the time. I wonder why Jason never told Usher , the truth..

Oh... My heaven.. Why did you played this cosmic joke with me.. Why.?

I fell for the man, who is ultimately going to be death of me..

I have only two option here.. Either I kill usher the love of my life...the father of my unborn child..or let my mom die with Greg..

In no circumstances.. I'll loose my mom.. She is all I have. And she is not even responsible for what ever happened with luke she is just paying the price of love.... But then how can I kill usher..

How easily Luke got his revenge... Why always the good suffers..

Moments of Luke telling me the heart wrenching truth,Was flashing in front of my eyes..

The pain became unendurable..

I saw the bottles filled with vodka.

I always saw people drinking this piece of shit saying that it eases the pain..

And the pain with shock in head and heart was eating me alive.. So I decided to drink.. The whole of the bottle thinking that may be it can ease my pain too...so..I did something that I loathed.. I drank a bottle full of alcohol..

After that everything I remember is blurred I hope I did not say anything that I should not..

I know Usher already have had enough in his life.. One more shock and that to this huge will break him.. Forever.

I hope I haven't ruined that in my drunken state... Looking at the note it doesn't seems like I have said anything..I just remember me asking him that he loves me or not.. On which he replied that it's me that he breathes now..

I almost died hearing him say that.. How can I do this to him how.. ? This man loves me more than I deserve.. And here I have been nothing but lying to him all along..

But then I realized something more huge a blunder..

Holy hell, how can I be this irresponsible. I'm pregnant.. And.. I drank.. Whole bottle of wine. Damnit..

I need to go to the hospital.. I have to get a check up to see if the baby is fine. Not even once I went to the doctor after finding out that I'm pregnant.. And after Luke's assault.. I don't know if my baby is fine..

I had to go and visit a gynecologist.. As soon as possible.

I immediately got up from the bed.. Took the pills that usher kept for me cause my head was still hurting like hell .I Got dressed and waited for usher's arrival so that I can leave.. I still haven't planned to tell him that he is going to be a father.. I hope he is ready to be a father.. If not then I don't know what I'll do .. I'll have to tell him all about this.. And that to very soon before be finds out from somewhere else.

It was getting late. I know I woke up quite late but now it's been like three hours since I'm up.. And usher said in the note that he has gone to hospital to bring back Liam... Then how the hell is he being so late.. I was getting restless and worried by each passing second ..

And soon my phone rang... When I received the call ... My all fears came alive...