Zara

Zara's POV..

Who would have thought that things are going to take a whole 360 degree turn.

The man who is embracing me in his arms, right now, who was dieing every single second when I was missing. Who I know loves me more than he has ever shown.

He is the man, whom I'm going to kill.

I have too, if I want my mother alive than I have to kill Usher, the love of my life... And the father of my unborn child...

Yes, I'm pregnant, a two weeks pregnant, neither the man, who is crying right now while holding me, knows more anyone else knows anything about this, I myself got to know about it only,the morning when Usher accused me of my character, when he doubted that I was cheating on him..

But right now looking at him, I know it was all just a misunderstanding that is now cleared..

" Oh my god Zara, where have you been, do you even have any idea how these past two days were for me, I almost died every single second that I lost you,. Don't you ever do that to again,." Usher was scolding me with love, cupping my face in his both hands,

His eyes were still red from constant crying.

But still he was looking all bewitching to me.

" Why aren't you speaking anything, what happened, say something Zara, you are making me go bonkers... Please say something "

Usher said Worriedly..

I didn't realized that I was standing just like a stationary object and was gazing him, till he shook me and brought me back making me aware of my surrounding.

I wanted to cry, holding him.. But no tears were left to cry..

He is asking me where I have been...

How am I supposed to tell him that I have been to somewhere much more worst than hell.

I did not speak, even after his constant plea, I was still reeling in shock..

" Usher ,let her relax for a while brother, come Zara, " Jonah said, diverting my attention to him, I did not noticed that Jonah too was here. Till he spoke.

They both took my hands and helped me to get inside.

Usher made me sit on the couch, that's when he noticed the bruises on my wrist and ankles.. Which I got because luke kept me chained, thank god my cheeks were not looking that bad for him to guess that, I have been slapped too.

" What the hell is this Zara, who did this to you... Ohh my god.. Damn it Zara answer.. " Usher said going all mad after watching my wounds.

Pulling his hairs, pacing in the room from left to right and right to left.

He was to hurt to see me like this..

I wish I could ease his worries but what am I supposed to do. Nothing.. I can't do anything to ease his tension, I can't tell him who did this too me. I can't tell him how I got this wounds. Cause if I told him one thing then eventually it'll lead to thousands and then finally the truth..

Even if I want too I can't tell him anything, cause then I'll loose not just him but mom and Greg too.

" God dammit Zara say something.. You being silent here isn't helping me at all. First you were missing for two days, now you are here in this situation, and you are not ready to speak anything.. Do you even have any idea what your silence is doing to me.. " Usher screamed at me, irritated and annoyed with my reaction ..

" Stop it man, she is in shock.. We don't know what she has been through, let her relax at least "Jonah said , calming Down Usher.

He is the most sensible man I have ever seen, he understands the situation and acts accordingly, but here I can't blame Usher for his reaction, I know what my silence is doing to him , but how am I gonna tell him, that I'm here to kill him, kill the love of my life, father of my child.

It was too much , everything was too much, luke, the secrets, usher's outburst,

Not being able to take it anymore, I broke.. Into sobs.

Hearing my sobs, Usher stopped pacing and quickly reached out to me, he took a seat beside me, and held my face in his hands and said..

" Hey, Zara, baby... Please don't cry.. I know I acted stupid, but please love don't cry tell me, what happened.. I promise I'll understand, everything and don't be scared of me, I won't react on impulse.. "

Seeing him like this was like twisting a knife in my heart.

" Do you love me, ? " I asked him.

He looked at me like I was an alien..

I guess his reaction was obvious,

No one will expect someone to ask such a thing, when they are in this situation.

" Of course I do.. How can you even think that I don't love you.. " He said cupping my face, with husband shinning glistening eyes.

He took a pause and then resumed...

" Ohh now I get it. You are asking me cause of that morning right, I accused you of cheating on me... I can't even explain you how sorry I am, but Zara I didn't do it intentionally, I didn't meant to hurt you, it's just something I do.. Trust me I know that you'll never do something like this to me. I guess my insecurities got the worst out of me.. " Usher said clearly ashamed of how he treated me, that morning..

I do know that he didn't meant that.. I know that it was his insecurities and jealousy that brought out the worst in him..

" I know that.... Usher, I know you didn't meant that.. " I said..

" Then why are you asking me this, if I love you or not. You already do know that I love you.. Don't you.. " He said perplexed..

" I know, that's why I want to ask you one thing. "

" Anything.. You only have to say.. " Usher said.

" Please don't ask me.. About what happened.. Please.. I promise I'll tell you when the time comes but not right now. Please.. I need some time alone. Please usher can you give me that.. " I requested him

" What... No way.. Neither I'm leaving you nor am I going to leave this topic.. You have to tell me who did this or else I myself will find it out.. " He stated, all irritated and annoyed at me..

" Please Usher... I can't, I can't tell you anything right now.. " I said and broke into sobs.

What am I supposed to tell him..

That I'm here to kill him, kill the love of my life, murder the father of my unborn child.

I can't tell him.. Anything...

What he expects me to tell him.. That.. My whole life was a lie.. I was never that someone who I thought I was ...

I can never tell him that I need to kill him to save my mom and Greg..

I can never tell him the darkest secrets that I got to know.. It will break him forever.. He will fall Apart and I won't be able to save him..

" What the hell Zara, you expect me to leave you alone when you are like this.. No way..

First you were missing since the last two days than you appeared all of a sudden, like this all wounded and now on top you are acting suspicious and asking me to leave you... Not happening.. I won't allow that... I'm not going to let you get out of my sight for a second... Not after this... " Usher said All irritated.

Hearing his outburst I broke into heavy sobs.

" Usher, stop it.. Can't you see her condition.. She needs your support, love and care, and you here are acting senseless.. " Jonah stated, annoyed at Usher's outburst.

Jonah is such a sweetheart, he has been my constant support apart from Liam..

Ohh my god.. Liam. I totally forgot about him.. How will he react when he'll get to know about this all.. I can't even imagine.

But right now. This crazy man with whom I'm in love with needs my attention..

Looking at like this, my man walked up to me and took a seat beside me. Gently he took a hold of my hand and said.

" Zara I'm sorry I acted that way, but you know I can't see you like this but if you want some space and time ,I'll give you that, even though a second apart from you kills me, but I'll endure it for you.. You don't want to tell me now, it's okay don't.. But you will have to tell me soon and I'm only going to give you the space if you agree to be in the house. Even though it will kill me to be apart from you but I can at least give you that. Look I'll stay here in the hall, you can stay upstairs, I promise I won't be asking anything until unless you are ready to answer them. I won't bother you, I'll be here only but I'll make sure that you don't feel my presence,is that okay with you.. "

Really, I can feel his presence from miles apart and he is saying that I won't be able to feel his presence while he is in the same house.

But I never expected something like this, so different from his personality, he is trying to understand me, I'm more than happy to see that, he is doing this for me.

And when he is trying this hard, than I at least can give him that.

" Okay, I'm fine with that. "I said trying to avoid anymore of conversation with him, cause one word would lead to thousands and than I'll be puking the truth out, I do know that I have to tell him the truth, but now is not the time, he is already disturbed seeing me like this and if I'll tell him the truth than I might loose him forever. I have to make sure that he is strong enough to endure that part.

Slowly I got up from my seat but I fumbled..

Usher hurriedly grabbed me and save me from falling..

"Damn it Zara, you can't even stand properly and than you want me to leave you alone... No way.. If this is going to happen again than I'm not leaving your side.. I was about to go to hospital with Jonah but now he alone can manage.. " Usher said chided me with love..

But... Wait.. Did he just said hospital...

Why, what has happened.. Who is in the hospital... Oh my god is usher's mother... No no...

" Who is in the hospital Usher, is everything okay... I mean your mom...? " I asked him concerned.

But looking at him , I don't feel anything is wrong with his mother... Then who is in the hospital.

" Umm... Zara.. Mom's fine... Actually.. You should go and rest... We both will handle... " Usher said trying to avoid my gaze..

. What the hell has happened..

" Usher tell me now.. Or I'm coming along with you both.. " I gave him the ultimatum..

" Zara, look I'm not proud of what I did but when you were missing, I went straight to Liam, and asked him about you.. Almost threatened him but he was way more shocked after hearing that you were missing, after my constant asking he didn't said a word but just said that it might already be too late to find you, this raged me and I thrashed him into the walls but I didn't hurt him that bad but still he had a nervous breakdown.. " As soon as usher finished talking.

I ran outside the house towards the car to reach my best friend, but usher to followed me and grabbed me by my arms and stopped me.

" Let go off me Usher, I need to see him.. " I said screaming at him..

" No Zara you are not in a condition to see him, he'll be more hurt after seeing you like this and actually it's not that serious, the doctor already told us that he is doing fine, he might be able to get discharged by the morning once he gets conscious. So stop acting childish. And you wanted some time alone right then why don't you go and clear up your head while I and Jonah pay a visit to Liam. " Usher said explaining me, making me understand the situation.

I think he is right, I want to be alone,this is the time that I can use to clear up my head..and I'm way more thankful that Liam did not speak the truth. Or else it would have been a disaster. Anyways I'll meet him once he is back.

" Zara, look in the morning I'll bring him straight to here okay now please go and relax. " Saying so Usher guided me back into the house and left.

What am I supposed to do now.. I kept thinking how to bail everyone out of this trouble. But nothing came in my mind. Already two hours passed since Usher left, thinking that he'll be back again and if he finds me like this then, he'll again start with his questions which I'm sure won't be able to answer. So I went straight to my bed and tried to sleep but I couldn't.

Usher soon came back along with Jonah, I heard the shuffling coming from the downstairs confirming that they are back.

I was just tossing on the bed restless, I could not think, sleep or do anything.

Then I decided one has to die to end the madness, I got up and took the gun that Luke gave me to kill usher, and walked straight to where Usher was sleeping.

He looked so calm in his sleep... But I have to do this.... Mum and Greg would die... If I didn't..

So.... I pointed the gun at.... Usher.....