Chapter 12 Surprise

My parents and Ethan's parents have been smiling like there is no tomorrow, I am even thinking they might know I am pregnant, do they know?

Ethan has been acting strange, I mean he gets angry at every little thing I asked him, maybe he's stressed or something.

Ethan

I know it's too soon but I just want to spend the rest of my life with her, yes! You guessed it right, I am going to propose to her again. I know it's soon but I love Raven and I want us to be together as a family with our daughter. I already have the perfect ring. I told my family during dinner that I wanted to marry Raven. My mom was like "finally! I thought you would never propose"

Son, don't you think it's too early? don't get me wrong, you just got back together.

I know mom but I love Raven so much and I want to spend the rest of my life with her.

Today is my birthday I hate celebrating it that why have been at work since morning but I got a call from my daughter telling me to come home she was even crying God I hope everything is alright as I got inside all I saw was people singing a happy birthday song to me I was shocked everyone was here even my siblings are here I am so happy right now I just dragged Raven and kissed her. Thank you baby for this, it is no big deal, I had a lot of help.

Everyone was giving me a present even my little angel got me a teddy bear, last but not least was Raven she gave me a card and told me to open it she was just smiling,

Inside the card was a write-up saying "you are going to be a father" I just looked at her and started crying. Are you serious? she just nods her head crying too everyone was just wondering what was happening before I shouted

Am going to be a father, Raven is pregnant, we are having a baby everyone was so happy congratulating us.

Son, I think this is the right time for you to propose, my dad said.

I went up to Raven and knelt and said "Raven I know it's too early but I love you so much, I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Will you marry me?"

Yes, oh my gosh yes I will marry you I said, and he slid the ring into my fingers. Oh my, I started crying. Are you okay dear? I'm fine, I'm just so happy I said hugging him. I went to my friends and family to show them the ring. What do you think? I asked my friends, "It's beautiful," Riley replied. Amanda, why are you being so quiet? It's nothing, it's just that isn't it too early to propose? I mean you just got back together. What the hell Maddy, you should be happy for me, not questioning my decision I said glaring at her. She held her hands up okay sorry it's your decision am happy for you. Congrats dear she said hugging me. It was the best day ever.

I am so happy that I am getting married in a few weeks. Everything is going great but I just don't get Ethan's mood swing, I mean what the hell is going on with him. One minute he's happy, the next he's yelling at me over little things I do, what the hell is going on? I thought he was seeing a therapist or something.

Maybe it was about what I told him, about losing his first male child, shocker right.

it's happened the very day I spent the night at his place, it was after the celebration and I was so tired to leave, Ethan suggested I should stay over. I mean it okay, this way we'll get to spend more time with each other. I told Blue we were staying over but she refused to say she wanted to stay with Dani. Gosh that girl, I had to let her go with Maddy.

You see I wasn't just having a child that day, I was having two. We didn't know I was having twins. The child was hiding I think

On the day of delivery, Blue was the first one out she was so beautiful kept crying, and all I just wasn't expecting that there was another child in my womb after delivering the second child I was so happy Ethan but all of a sudden no cries was heard from the baby the doctors tried everything they could to bring him back but he was dead, I don't even know why or how but he was dead Ethan, l

said crying on Ethan's shoulders while he held me close to him, it was emotional. I shouldn't have said this to him, this was supposed to be a happy day now that I have ruined it. I just wanted him to know That he had a very beautiful son, "David Ethan Carmicheal"

I moved in with Ethan a few days after he proposed to me, and after all the emotional talk, I guess I was just so excited to be his wife again. I miss staying with him.

Ever Since we moved in, Ethans has been behaving aggressively, sometimes I get scared that he might hit me or something. I hope he never does that, though he had held my hand a little tight which caused some bruises he had apologized for holding tight.

I remembered the first time he slapped me, yes our very own Ethan. We were attending this family party and Ethan started complaining about what I was wearing. Look, Ethan, nothing is wrong with this dress, I said before I knew it he slapped me, I held my cheek now go inside and change this, you look like a whore. Am so grateful my daughter was not here to witness this.I changed and got in the car with him then he apologized "look am sorry Raven I didn't mean to do that I was just angry, something happened at work, am so sorry forgive me, baby". This was what had been going on for a few weeks now one minute he will but the next he will apologize, I think he's bipolar or something.