Chapter 13: Change

On this fateful night we got into another argument he was flirting with the waitress while I was sitting there, "why do you keep flirting with the waitress Ethan?"I asked "Babe am not flirting with her'' he denied I got angry and told him I wanted to leave we got into his car and he became angry "why the hell would you do that Raven, why would you embarrass me in front of those people you bitch" he sped up. Me! a bitch, I couldn't even say anything and the idiot wasn't looking at the road. Next thing I know I am bleeding and am being pulled out of the car. That was the last thing I remembered before I fainted.

I woke up in the hospital only to look around and see my daughter and Amanda all cuddled up on the chair sleeping, when I moved my body to sit up I felt pains all over I think I woke them up because Amanda was next to me asking how I was and how I was feeling before going to get a doctor

Two weeks later

I was discharged from the hospital. Ethan was by my side. He even apologized for what had happened. We lost our baby. I cried for weeks.

I couldn't even look him in the eye, he disgusts me, when I found out I lost the baby I was devastated.

I moved out of his house even though we were not married yet.

He begged me to move in with him and blue wanted to live with her dad so I agreed thinking it would make us happy only a month later, Ethan started going to work and coming home late, sometimes drunk. Always giving stupid excuses telling me he has a business deal, he leaves and comes back in a week sometimes months and when he's back he doesn't even check up on me or his daughter was that too much to ask. I spent day and night crying over him.

I was fed up with this shit, today he came back drunk as always. I confronted him, talking to him calmly. Ethan you have been ignoring me, forget about me, your daughter, you stopped talking to her, you yell at her when she tries asking you to play with her I said starting to cry, what he had been doing was affecting his daughter and me very much. I think you need to see a therapist before I know it. Ethan slapped me, I held my cheek. He started saying stuff to me and blaming me for losing his child

You bitch! It's because of you we lost our baby, not just one but two kids. If only you had behaved none of this would have happened to me. But no! You just had to make me very angry and we lost the baby. I tried talking but he slapped me again and I fell before I knew it. He tore my cloth, you know what? We're going to make another baby. One way or the other I want another child in your womb. Please stop. I don't want this Ethan, I begged but he did not listen, he raped me, my fiancée raped me I cried and begged for him to stop but he wouldn't listen.

After he was done he left me there and went out. I had to call Amanda that night to take me to her place. I haven't told anyone what was going on but am sure Amanda had noticed my behavior.

I just couldn't take it anymore, I had to leave. It wasn't the first time he was hitting me. He had done it several times even in the presence of his daughter. I was just staying because I didn't want Blue to be sad but I couldn't take it anymore. I had to leave.

Amanda

I knew something was wrong with Raven, every time I tried asking her about it she refused to tell me. During our girl's night, she was always jumpy like she was waiting for something bad to happen I just didn't understand but when I got a call from her telling me to come over I was surprised when I saw her on the floor naked. Oh my, what happened, I had to take her to her bathroom to change and get cleaned up. She wouldn't say anything. Raven, please tell me what happened. You were right Maddy I shouldn't have accepted the proposal. I don't get it, wait, you mean Ethan did this to you? She nodded. What the hell! I got so angry. But I heard Raven whimpering. Are you okay? Am sorry if I'm scaring you. I am just so angry. How can he do this to you?. Please just take me away from here she said crying again, my poor baby I hugged her.

Raven

I went back to staying at my apartment. I had to leave him. He will never change, he won't change what was I even thinking, how did I let him in so easily, and to be hurt like this again I will rather be alone than be in a relationship with him. Even though his ex-girlfriend warned me about his behavior I didn't listen. I mean during our marriage I never experienced it this bad.

I met his ex-girlfriend when I was still pregnant with the baby, I was going shopping for some baby clothes when I saw someone familiar. I tried avoiding her but I guess she remembered who I was and she shouted my name, Raven. Oh my gosh, is that you? I smiled oh hi, it's good to see you again. She hugged me which was surprising. Oh dear, I heard about your divorce from Ethan. I am so sorry about it. Oh, we did divorce but we're getting married again. She was surprised, wait! You want to get back with that monster. What do you mean I said getting angry. She rolled her eyes please like I don't know about Ethan's temper what made you think I broke up with him. I couldn't say anything because when I asked Ethan about it he had told me she was cheating on him. But I couldn't confront her because she left the country the following week after they broke up.

How do you know that? My dear, you better run away while you still can unless you will regret it she said leaving me there.