Sweet Dreams Bellamy

**\[ALPHA BELLAMY’s Point of View\]**

It was impossible to deny these feelings when Alice was around.

I tried to act tough. Made myself the most unlikeable guy she would ever know, all for the sake of my friendship with Zen. I thought it was simple at first, knowing how she hated me after I made it clear to her that we weren’t meant to be together. That the Moon Goddes made a mistake for me to be her mate. I knew deep within me it would never work. I couldn’t compete with Zen. I owed him my life and I couldn’t betray him by taking his fiance from him.

Rushing out of the room, it was the only way I could do not to… not to do something that Alice would regret later. Even though our bond told me it was me she wanted the most, I couldn’t let myself celebrate. Zen knew about me and Alice and yet he trusted me to take her back to the resort. He trusted me because he valued our friendship and my conscience would never let me sleep if Zen would despise me for taking the girl he loves.

\[You met her first, idiot.\] Bjor, my wolf scowled at me as I marched my way out of the hallways and straight to the room where I usually stay when I visit here. My mother always prepares that room for me.

\[Stay out of my business, Bjor.\] I growled at him, making sure he would feel how pissed I was. Goddess, I was still hard and I didn’t know how I could calm down after those exchange of hot kisses with Alice. I wanted to hold her, taste her—fuck! I wanted to have her all by myself! I wanted to feel her and just hear her sweet voice moan my name.

I was so full of rage that I uncontrollably punched a wall and made a hole in it. It was too late when I realized what I had done.

“Bellamy, you fool! What are you doing?” despite my mom’s age, she was still terrifying when she was mad. A once fierce she-wolf soldier of NightShade pack that aged gracefully. 

“Mom!” I said in surprise as she approached me, examining the damage I did. “I’m sorry, I—I—”

She squinted her eyes at me. “Stop destroying everything and just tell her how you feel, boy.” Mom shook her head, her wrinkly eyes full of patience as she relaxed. “I know what’s going on, Bellamy. I know how you struggle with your feelings for that girl.”

“I don’t know what you are talking about, Mom. I’ll just apologize to Zen about the damage. Tell him I would pay for it.” I said, ignoring my mother’s opinion about the problem that had been troubling me since the day I met Alice.

She shook her head though, clicking her tongue as she moved sideways, glaring at me from the corner of her eyes, “You don’t know what you are losing, Bellamy. Having a mate is a blessing given by the Moon Goddess. I could tell how you feel based on how you look at each other. I just hope you won’t waste this chance, because if you did, I swear it will be hard to fix if you break that girl’s heart.”

I was left dragging my hand down my face. Disappointed not just in my decisions but in my cowardice. Yes, I was a coward. I was a fierce soldier on the battlefield but when it came to my feelings, I always hesitated with them. Maybe it was because I was scared Alice would think choosing me would be a mistake after she realized how her life would be great and easy with Zen. I had properties. I had good money in the bank and I had a pack and territory I was leading. But my wealth and my pack weren’t as huge as his and Alice would have a better life with Zen than I could offer.

But why does it feel as if I was torturing myself seeing Alice in Zen’s arms? Why couldn’t I just be a selfish friend and be happy with her? Why do I have to push her away?

I didn’t know. I wasn’t really sure about her. About us. Of the future, I could give her.

I wouldn’t be enough, I guess.

Slamming the door shut behind me, I threw my body on the bed and the wooden furniture creaked and popped, threatening to be destroyed under my weight. I stared at the ceiling, my chest heavy and my head dizzy, still reminiscing about that intoxicating scent of Alice’s skin still lingering in my memory. Her glassy soft skin made me swallow hard as I bit my lip, missed her lips pressed against mine.

Goddess, I felt like I was losing it. 

And I was still hard as f*ck.

*****

Something warm and wet tickled my chest.

My frown deepened when I felt it brushed down my stomach. Warm hands exploring down my abs lower and lower—

I pushed myself from the bed wide-eyed, perplexed about who was on top of me until I saw a familiar face I never imagined I would see taking my belt off.

“A-Alice what the—”

Her eyes fluttered as she put her finger on her lips in a very sultry way, “Shh…”

I was about to reach for her and stop her but she successfully took my belt off and pressed my hardness with the palm of her hand. I fell back on the bed with a moan with my eyes closed.

“Good boy, Bellamy…” she murmured and bit her lower lip with a flirty grin on her face. I was so surprised at what I was seeing.

“Ohhh, Alice…” I grunted when she slipped her small hand into my jeans and felt my hardness in her hands. “Goddess, what are you doing…” I put my hands on my hand; my stomach tightened and flattened as I grunted and moaned. Her hands started to move up and down and it was so good I couldn’t even utter to stop her.

I didn’t want her to stop.

My mouth partly opened when I stared at her when she pulled free my c*ck and she wasn’t even surprised at the look of it. Instead, she licked her lips as if she couldn’t wait to taste it. As if she had been wanting to put it in her mouth for so long.

That expression confirmed it wasn’t Alice. 

I jolted upward, face full of sweat, as I woke up from a strange dream. I was panting and I couldn’t pacify the delicious feeling I had in my dream. It wasn’t true. 

F*ck, it was a dream.

Someone banged at the door and opened it forcefully. I forgot I didn’t lock the d*mn door.

“Bellamy! I—”

Alice’s face turned red when she gazed at me and I frowned. That’s when I realized I was all naked when I fell asleep.