When we make love

~Janine~

“...am not being selfish am I?” He chuckled and kicked the door of his room open, and it was a bit loud. “Close your eyes.” I did as he said, and closed my eyes. He placed my feet on the ground when we entered his room, and I felt his lips connected with mine. His hands slid into my hair and wrapped around the back of my head.

He kisses me as if he is apologizing for what happened, and like he missed me. All at once, and then it became a little more passionate.

His hands dropped to my back and he pulled me closer to him, the only thing I was aware of was his mouth against mine.

I broke apart from him with a slight push on his chest, and our mouths separated but my hand remained against his chest, and I could feel the rise and fall of his chest.

“Janine.” He called out breathlessly and ran a hand over his face. “Did I do something wrong?” He is breathing heavily, and he has to catch his breath.

I shook my head.

He exhaled and pulled me closer by the waist. “What’s wrong then?”

‘Is something bothering you?’ He used the mind linked.

‘Beta Baron might be my father.’ I blurted out to him through the mind link. He didn’t look surprised, his fingers cautiously caressed my cheek and brushed some strands of hair off my face.

‘Your Wolf is a Beta female, she’s strong and very fierce, you might be a hybrid. We ain’t sure yet we haven’t found out about your birth mother. I suspected that Baron was your father only recently, the same thing you did. Is that what has been bothering you?’

‘I’m scared of him.’ I replied honestly. He cupped my cheeks in his hands and placed a kiss on my forehead.

‘And I hate him for what he did to you but I realized something must have changed him. Why and what happened eleven years ago.’ He sighed.

“I don’t want you to worry about it, that’s why I’m here and I’m glad you were able to talk to me about it.” He smiled at me.

“...so let me take care of you, worry about you, miss you, and kiss you. I’m happier each time I spend with you, and I want you to feel the same way and we can go through everything together.”

‘Everything?’ I mind-linked him.

He blinked his eyes at me.

‘Everything.’ He confirmed.

I took a step back from him, leaving the comfort of his touch and body. ‘How? I can’t even speak, I don’t feel good enough to be your mate. I can’t go through everything with you, I can’t do anything, Kaden!’

‘Don’t say that Janine, what makes you think you’re not good enough.’

‘That’s the truth!’

‘Don’t make me feel like what I am not. Kaden, I am mute, and if I have to stay beside you, it would be too tough for me to handle once I found out everything about my family, I will...’ He closed the distance between us and crashed his lips on mine, it happened so fast and I didn’t have the chance to push him off.

His kisses are fierce and demanding. “I don’t care about anything else, Janine but losing you isn’t part of it.” He said with his mouth on mine. He lifted his hand and pressed his palm over my dress against my heart. “What I want to do is what you feel for me, not the shitty problems that we have. It doesn’t matter.”

I tried to breathe but his hand on my chest wasn’t allowing it, his other arm wrapped around my lower back.

“I could feel your heart beating so fast as if it wanted to break through the wall of your chest.” His lips were inches apart from mine, and I was staring at him. “And I want to show you off at any opportunity that I’ve got.“

I smiled, was he teasing me?

“So stay with me....” He stared intently at me and added. “Please.”

I stretched and pressed my face against his neck, hearing the desperate plea in his voice, and his hand tightened sprig my back.

After a moment, he lifted my head off his shoulders and tilted my face off to his, and his mouth connected with mine again.

His mouth is everywhere as he kisses me with relief, though the fear I had lingered in my heart but I wanted to focus on every moment that I had with Kaden while it lasted.

He cradled my head between the both of his hands, and he kissed me slow and deep. His hands made their way to my thighs, he gripped them and lifted me, carrying me to his bed without breaking the kiss and lowering me down.

He slid on top of me and ended the kiss with his forehead against mine. “I will never feel this way with anyone else.” He mouthed and caressed my numb lips with his thumb, he cradled my head into his forearm and kissed my forehead, and the tip of my nose, then smiled. “Pretty mate.”

His eyes met mine, and he looked at me with sincerity in those eyes. “No one deserved you more like I do, and you’re more than enough for me. I think we complete each other, you and me.”

He didn’t say anything more as his hands went to my dress, and his lips rested on the mark on my beck before he took the dress off my body.

“No one sees you like I do, not even the fucking dumbass Calus.”

I chuckled and listened to the sound of his voice and the feeling of the touch of his hand against my skin. His palm roamed the sides of my legs.

“No one understands you as I do.”

He pressed himself against me as his tongue slid into my mouth, his hands on my bare skin, and his body that was pressed against mine was like gasoline on fire.

He began to pull my bra and panties, and I couldn’t do anything to help or stop him.

“...and no one makes your heart beat like I do.” He trailed kisses in between my breasts. He paused to remove his shirt, and he lifted himself off the bed, and I closed my eyes, I heard the sound of his jeans dropping with the belt.

When he was on top of me again, I opened my eyes to have a look at his beautiful body. I slid my hands up his arms, along the curve of his shoulders, and looked directly into his eyes. “Do you want this?” He asked.

I nodded curtly.

His forehead dropped to the side of my head and he grabbed my legs, lifting them, and locking them around his waist.

He pushed into me.

I let out a sudden gasp as he thrust.

He buried himself deep inside me, held still, stared at my face for a moment, and started to move slowly. He kept his mouth close to mine and brushed them against mine delicately. He moved in and out of me while looking down into my eyes, he pulled back and pushed against me at the same time his lips met my cheek.

My hands gripped his back, and his eyes were focused on mine with every thrust that he made.

His hand slid through my hair and he lifted my head slightly from the bed, and filled me with a deep kiss, covering the moans in his kisses, his mouth moved over to my jawline, and my neck and to the mark, he grazed on it with his teeth softly, and my arms locked around his neck and his thrust became hard.

His mouth met my breast with warm smooches, and my head fell back, and my eyes shut.

The next several minutes are blurred with moans, kisses, and sweat, and in a low whisper.

“I love you, Janine.”