Chapter 198

Joseph

My whole body had chills and even the sheet that was rubbing against me was painful due to the sensitivity. I had been locked in my room since yesterday after Connor and Susan left. Staying here in the dark would have to do for now. I could smell every smell, every sound and it was difficult to focus on anything.

I got out of bed and opened the window to let in some wind. I literally felt like I was dying of heat. Cooking. And even with the cold shower it felt like my skin was boiling from the inside out.

I faced the day getting darker and the snow piling up more and more. The wind cooled my bare skin a little, almost nothing, but it was something. I looked down at the pulsing sensation in my body. The new sensation wasn't unpleasant at all, but it was ridiculous to think that it needed to happen. I had a morning wood that was impossible to calm down since that morning. I tried. I swear I tried, but I don't think I've ever hated something as much as I do now.

If this was never going to go away, I was literally toast. I would have every neuron melted by the end of the day. Because my nerves were exploding.

Then suddenly something caught my attention. First a noise. Then a smell. A sweet smell. So good that I turned my head towards the door, where it was coming from. Then I saw the shadow on the floor on the other side of the door. And then I heard three knocks.

“Sury let me come here.” And then my heart raced like a racehorse when I heard Sophia's voice.

Damn I told Sury not to do that. Not to go to her. She did exactly that! Even worse, Sophia accepted! To have sex with me!

To get laid. Have sex. Climb. Fuck.

With me!!!

I started pacing back and forth and saw the shadow under the door move again. No. No. No. I can't let her in. Better yet, I won't even answer. She can't come in here.

Look at that smell... Look at her smell... This encounter cannot end well. It cannot.

“Joseph?” She's calling me. She doesn’t respond.” She answers me. I know she is there.” No. No. I won't answer.

But then why am I walking to the door?” Stop! Stop!

“Joseph?” Her voice was closer now. On the other side of a thin wooden door. Very fine in my opinion. So thin it would be so easy to break.”

NO!

I took two steps back and tripped over my sneakers making a huge noise as I fell to the ground.

“Joseph... I can smell you.” I saw the doorknob turning as she tried to open it. I've never been so grateful for turning that key.

"Go away." I thought it would be better to answer that than not say anything.

“I came to help you.” To help!!!?" No! You didn't come here of your own free will. This is humiliating.

“I don’t need your help.” She snorted from the other side.

"Oh no?" I reached over and grabbed my sweatpants to put on.” So let me see!

“There’s nothing to see. Leave me alone." I got up feeling my skin getting hotter and hotter. It was her fault. She was doing this to me. Just hearing that she had come and was here because of me had my wolf rolling with excitement. And I didn’t want to be like that.” Go away. You're only making things worse.

“If you don’t open this shit after I spend the whole fucking day not knowing what to do because I think about you so much, I’m going to break it in!” Her voice made my whole body shiver.” Open now!” She screamed and banged her wrist on the door making me jump.” It's humiliating that I'm here now and being rejected. I will not accept this.” Hearing her forced me to go to the door and open it slowly.

A pair of eyes were twinkling at me. No longer the brown ones that I knew so well. I felt my wolf almost come to the surface when I saw her completely. Her hair was loose over her coat, which was too thin due to the cold outside. Not for me, of course. But for her. Her blouse beneath her showed her breasts and I didn't even know why I was looking at them. And now staring at every curve I hadn't noticed before. She was breathing raggedly as if she were irritated, or maybe tired, or maybe...

Sophia pushed me away and entered my room, closing the door behind her. The place where her hand touched my chest burned and itched, but it was the most pleasant thing I had felt in hours. And remember when I said I couldn’t focus my attention on anything?” So it is. Forget about it. I have something I'm extremely focused on right now. Every slight movement she made. From your eyes observing my room in dim light, from your fingers shaking and your chest rising and falling too quickly.

“Your... Your pheromones are really strong.” She stammered and I looked at her mouth.

Sofia

Joseph was shirtless and yet the open window let in all the cold wind. However, the temperature inside remained incredibly pleasant.

“I already told you to go. As you can see, I’m fine.” He pointed at himself and turned around.

"Good?" That doesn't seem right to me. You missed class today.

“I’m just tired.

“Ahem…” I looked at his body and his back. His hair was messy and his skin was shining with sweat.” Look at me.

“Sophia, go away. Please. You don't want to be here and it's a bad idea.

“If I didn’t want to be here, I wouldn’t be here. Let me help you.” My body was starting to feel increasingly strange with every additional second I spent inside this room.

Joseph turned around again and went to the window to close it when I started to shake. What he didn't know was that it wasn't because of the cold that I was shivering.

“Is Sury down there?” He asked.

“She was leaving when I arrived. It’s just the two of us here.” I saw her shoulders tense.

“I'm sorry, I asked her not to come to your house.

"Everything is fine." I went to his bed and sat down. The whole room smelled like him. A sweet and soft smell similar to vanilla, but at the same time completely different.” Look, I'll be honest Joseph. I was afraid to come.” I faced the floor and buried my hands under my legs.

"Fear?" I looked sideways and saw him closing his hands into fists.” Why?"

And then I decided to tell the problem I had with the other wolves. What they did and what I was forced to do to escape them. Joseph remained motionless on the other side of the room at all times, listening to what I was saying. The blue eyes were now twinkling in the dark of the room. Because the late afternoon had finally turned into night and I was still there.

"I would never do that.

"I know.

“That's why I'm telling you to leave.

“I already said I’m not going! I...

"Me what?"

“I need your help too.” He looked at me and I swallowed hard when I saw him take a deep breath and stare at the ceiling. Blonde hair sliding out of her eyes.

"I understood. You want to get rid of it soon too...

“I don’t want to get rid of it too soon, I…” I bit my lip.” Yes I want.

“But you look scared.” And then I heard his light steps towards the bed.

"Look?" It must be your impression.” I forced a smile and looked away at the door.

"You are." He sat on the bed next to me.

“Of course I am. It’s my first time being in a wolf boy’s room before.” I felt like it wasn't exactly the first time I was trying to say, but it didn't matter.

“It’s my first time having a werewolf in my room too.” His voice seemed calmer and for some reason that made me feel calmer.” And how do you plan to start helping me?” I looked at him again and my eyes couldn’t help but look at his body.” Sofia?”

“How do you want to start?” I shook my hands and saw him look into my eyes.

I think someone might kill me now. I won't be able to do this...

I felt my blood racing through my body and doing things I never thought I would feel in my life. And Joseph's smell was extremely pleasant despite seeing that he was sweating. And it was strange to think that it made me want to get closer to him and inhale the smell that exuded from his skin.

“Maybe a kiss would be a good start.” He said that. He said. I swear I said it. If giving a kiss already made me close to falling apart, imagine when it happens...

“Hm… I think that’s a good start.” I could hear my own heart and feel it beating in my chest with extreme force.

Joseph continued to stare at me and I think I could see in his eyes that bigger than all that was to end this agonizing feeling of his heat. So I got a little closer to him and looked at his mouth. Joseph looked apprehensive when I leaned closer, but he didn't move an inch to move away or refuse the touch. And then his scent numbed my senses as I moved closer and pressed my lips to his.

My fucking first kiss.

I could hear a growl coming from the back of his throat and Joseph pressed his lips closer to mine. Tasting the softness and moisture when I felt him place his hand over mine.

Okay Sophia. You guys are doing well.

I pulled away slightly and looked up into his eyes. I saw those dilated blue orbs staring back at me.

Joseph shook my hand and came closer to kiss me again. Our lips touched again and I felt him deepening his touch even more, wanting to taste more until he slowly opened his mouth and I felt his tongue slide between my lips.

The desire to taste him made my tongue meet his. And the meeting of tastes made my skin crawl. I swear to you, but Joseph tasted like marshmallows. And kissing him started to feel more and more enjoyable when he leaned down and ran his hand up my arm to my cheek. Holding my face so he could kiss me better. And then he caught my bottom lip between his teeth and looked into my eyes with pure desire written in them.

“I’m sorry...” He whispered looking at my mouth.

"Whereby?" And then I felt the metallic taste on my tongue. Had he bitten that hard?” Ah...” And that would almost worry me if it hadn’t pushed me even more.” I didn’t feel it.” I put my fingers to my lips, but Joseph leaned in and pressed his mouth to mine again. The tongue passing over the recent cut and our mouths mixing between panting and pure heat.

“Sophia. I do not want to hurt you." When I saw it, I was already lying on the mattress. Joseph was on top of me and our breaths were so ragged it was as if we had run miles apart.

“I didn’t feel it. Everything is fine." He closed his eyes and rested his forehead against mine before kissing me again. I cupped his face and ran my fingers through his soft blonde hair. Until I felt his hands sliding under my blouse and giving me inexplicable goosebumps.

“Can I take off your clothes?” He whispered between the gasps of the kiss.