Chapter 23

My mind was going crazy. The theories that I had about Eliana's identity. I couldn't stop my thoughts about and worse of all my mother was so taken with her it almost like they're twins and it bothered me a lot. My dad on the other hand avoided being home, he was hiding away from her and the questions in my mind ate at me. There was no way that Eliana was my dad's illegitimate daughter and get along so well with my mom. There was only one other explanation but facing it was hard.

l hated being back at school, everything was the same yet so different. Something was different in the atmosphere and it scared me a lot. If Killian were to find out what we did then he would destroy us and as a matter of fact he wouldn't just get us arrested rather he would take his time in breaking us and it scared me a lot. l know how dangerous Killian is. He is more dangerous but Connor but l know that rape was something he would never do.

Both Eliana and me come from money and it may have helped cover our tracks but we were in for a ride for a lifetime. "You are quiet " Jace said and I just smiled. l grew up with the guys. They know me as much as I know them, we're like siblings but from different mothers. l didn't view Killian the same way though ,he was the love of my life but now I'm struggling to even look at him in the face. Always forgiven between us because of what happened to Connor but I know Killian , part of him or always resent me for what l did to Eliana he isn't the type of person to let things go.

Nobody suspected us of being involved though . They all thought that I was grieving and totally shattered by the death of the man I considered my brother but in reality I was grieving my conscience for killing a man who had repeatedly touched me despite the fact that I said no. l know I was partly wrong to an extent and I take responsibility for that but that did not give Connor the right to touch me like he did. All l wanted was Killian and he took advantage of that.

"I'm okay it's just been a strange two weeks "l reassured them but they didn't look like they believed me and I wasn't even in the mood to placate them. We were all carrying our burdens. These two saw Connor as a role model, Killian was his brother and to me he was the man who raped me. I hate calling what he did to me rape because I hate that l have equal faults in it.

"You can say that again "Killian mumbled. Killian was quiet and lost in thought. I know he's thinking about revenge, what he will do to the person that murdered his brother. "Have you noticed how much Eliana looks like my brother and father "I asked no one in particular but the question was directed to Killian. I needed to know what he thought because it was driving me crazy not knowing ,having all those thoughts and theories wasn't doing me any good. It's almost like I'm always in a different planet or world because it's all I think about.

"I wanted to ask but I was afraid of been bitten off " Drew said looking at me and I just shrugged . "Yes ,I mean how does someone look exactly like your father and not be related to you unless of course you guys are related " Jace exclaimed looking at me but I shook my head. We weren't related.

"l think she's your dad's bastard daughter "Drew mumbled like he was saying some top secret but that possibility was thin. "l look like no one in my family" l said to them. It was one of the things that bothered me the most about this whole situation. l was the odd one out. Liam looked like dad but he still has parts of Mom in his behavior and characteristics but l on the other hand was just different from everyone.

"Do you really want the answer to that question "Killian asked and l nodded. "Then you know what you have to do" l honestly expected him to tell me to stay away from his girlfriend and not to ask her any questions but he stood by me today and it made me smile.

"You won't bite my head off if your girlfriend is upset about my request "l looked at him and he let out a soft no. Killian was unpredictable so always make sure that l really understand what he says to avoid problems in the future. "If your suspicion is true then having another family could make her happy "he said and l fumed. For a second there l felt like he cared about my feelings but he was playing me for a fool. He just cared about his girlfriend.