Chapter 39 Fire in water.

Chapter 39 Fire in water.
"The heartbeat seems okay"

Ursula searched for a bump.

The nurse noticed.

"Don't worry. It's still one month old. Eventually, you'll see him without even trying"

What makes her think it's a him? Why do people automatically assume it's always a him?

And as if the woman could read her thoughts, she asked "You know Mr Ethan would be really happy to have a male heir."

Ursula faked a smile.

It's not my battle to fight. I have no say over this child. I have no right to say that it doesn't matter the gender of the child. I have no right to get angry and say that I want her to be female. That they shouldn't automatically decide it's a male.

"Your blood pressure however, is a little bit high and you have to stay calm at all times and avoid stressful situations, okay?"

Ursula watched the nurse write something on a file.

"It says here that you're an asthmatic patient."

"Yes"

"How often are your attacks?"

"Huh?"

"Your attacks. How often do you go into a crisis?"

"Oh..I-uh not too often, only when I'm afraid"

"Okay. And when last did you go into one?"

"I..maybe a month now or so..I can't -"

"That's okay..just have some rest so that your blood pressure regulates a little bit"

"Okay"

The nurse packed her toolbox and the documents with a smile on her face.

"It was really nice meeting you. It is such a huge honor, Mrs Ursula Blackwood"

"Thank you. Likewise"

Will I ever be recognized for who I am and not just his wife and even though we divorce, won't people just refer to me as his ex? Won't they say I got all my power and influence from him?

"Goodbye. Have a nice day"

"You too" Ursula replied.

The nurse left.

Ursula sighed.

The door opened.

"Ursula, how are you?"

Ursula recognized Taylor's voice without thinking twice.

Taylor stood at the door.

Her under eye bags made her look very tired, almost in an exaggerated way. She specifically focused on the eye makeup to make it look very real.

Her messy hair was in a tie.
The pink joggers and sweater was so unlike her.

And it was no longer a bandage around her wrist.

It was now a wide plaster wrapped around it.

Taylor?

Ursula sprang up to her feet immediately to help Taylor from the door.

"Oh no-no-no, Ursula. Don't stress yourself. Remember, you're pregnant" Taylor's voice seemed to crack.

Acting.

"No, you're the one who shouldn't have come here. Please, sit down" Ursula helped her sit down on her bed.

Camilla was right. Not only is this girl a gold digger. She's also a pig. My God! What's that breath?

"Thank you"

"I'm so sorry for not coming to see you earlier. I was so occupied... I mean..it skipped my mind...I was planning to, actually b-"

"No, it's nothing"

Then a silence.

"I know I'm not the one you would want to share anything with b-"

"It's okay. You can ask"

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah, totally. I mean, whatever I could tell Camilla I could tell you....I never want you to think that I'd for once have negative thoughts about you in my heart...all because I used to love Ethan."

"It's an honor to me, really...."

"Yeah. So, go on"

"I don't really know how to put this but...how do you feel? How do you even cope after everything that had happened? I'm sure it must have been so hard for you"

Of course bitch it was so hard for me. I mean Ethan's dick, actually. And I'd give anything in the world to experience him in me again. Anything in the world. Only thing I'd erase is how he kept moaning your name. Gold digger!

"It has actually been difficult..."

Taylor didn't blink so that the cold air could make her eyes tear up.

Ursula's heart melted within her.

"I'm so sor...I don't even have a tissue" Ursula said as she looked around.

"No, it's nothing. I would rather let everything flow...it heals me"

"Okay... whatever makes it easier for you"

"You know Ethan and I used to be... lovers. Well, one time, someone told him that I was cheating on him..and he believed it..and broke up with me. That wasn't just the reason he broke up with me. He also broke up with me because I wasn't ready to give birth to a child..."

Ursula's eyes widened.

"Yes...that reason. Pathetic, right?" Taylor continued, forcing a sniff that was so fake that she was surprised that Ursula wasn't noticing.

"I'm so sorry you went through all this because -"

"And now, he forced himself on me all because I came to look for you to tell you that it was time for us to get your... mother's ashes...he didn't stop...no matter how much I cried. He said he wanted me back"

Oh bitch. I know damn well that that hurt you so much.

"Well, if he did...he should have done it appropriately without abusing you. It's a cr-"

"I don't want anything to happen to him, please. I still genuinely care for him.... because of my best friend, Camilla...I would never hurt her. He's her only family...after his parents died in that accident."

"Accident?" Ursula asked.