Chapter 13 That night was a mistake
CHAPTER 13.
\-LILITH-
I have never been so nervous in my entire life the way I am now, standing in front of his study room.. the atmosphere has become so tense.
Somehow, I wished the ground would just open and swallow me up. I regret placing a knock on the door.
“Come in”
His deep voice echoed out of the study room.. I reached out to the door knob with every single guts I had in me and stepped in.
He had his face buried in some papers and I used the opportunity to look around his study room.
It's stacked with papers and documents.. That's just it.
Almost as soon as I stepped in, he raised his head up at me.. I quickly buried my gaze to the floor, doing everything in my power not to look at him.
“I brought you breakfast, Alpha” I said.
“Place it down on the table”
I did as he ordered and was careful enough not to make mistakes. I was lucky the last time, might not be lucky today.
“Do you need anything else?” I asked further when I was done setting it down.
“No..”
I felt relieved… So glad that he asked me to leave. I was beginning to think about how much longer I'm going to endure his constant stares.
I scurried off to the door, glad that I'm getting out but just as I grabbed the door knob, his deep voice made me halt on my steps.
“Wait..”
My hand lingered against the door knob… My heart sank as I turned around and found him walking towards me.
My breath tightened as each step he took made me panic.
It's not out of fear.. I'm not scared of Alpha Damian… Strangely enough I'm not. But, I guess I'm just extremely nervous and all I want to do is just leave the study room.
I don't want him getting closer to me or talking about that night.
But, I don't think I can escape this.
Standing right in front of me, his hands folded to the back.. his huge body hovered over me.
The air changed… just his scent and his domineering aura.
“Are you avoiding me?”
I looked at him but immediately averted my gaze back to the floor and didn't respond.
He took another step closer.. and another. While he did that, I kept taking each step back as well until my back hit the closed door.
He placed both hands on the wall, caging me in-between.
“I asked you a question”
I shivered… Again, it's not because I'm scared. But, this closeness.. it's killing.
I could feel his body pressed against mine.. it's making my heart race so fast and making me nervous.
“I'm not avoiding you… I just.. I just have tons of work to do” I answered.
He lifted his hands to my face, moving my hair behind my ear.
I shuddered as his cold hands brushed past my skin.
“You have been trying to avoid me.. I know because you're well aware of the fact that we both have a lot to talk about…”
“I'm sorry, but we don't have anything to talk about, Alpha Damian” I told him.
“That night… There's a lot to talk about. You know what happened. There's no way we would both pretend nothing happened and the fact that we're both mates..”
“I didn't ask for us to be mates.. And whatever happened that night, Alpha Damian, it wasn't planned” I told him.
“I want you. I want you, Lilith…”
I'm shocked by his words.. He wants me? The Alpha of Blood moon pack wants me?
“That night was a mistake, Alpha Damian… Let's respect the fact that we were both drunk when it happened.. no, I was drunk and I made advances to you, but that doesn't mean that you can want me.. Besides, that night was nothing but a terrible mistake. For the sake of peace, I hope we let go of everything that happened..”
For a split second, I saw hurt flash through his eyes.. or maybe I'm just imagining things.
How can he be hurt just because I'm trying to stop things from escalating into something more terrible.
What would people say when they see me with the Alpha?
News would spread around like a wide fire… False news and I'll definitely be the center of attention.
Some might say that I seduced him.. others might say I used a love portion on him.
I don't want any of that to happen.
“A terrible mistake?” His voice has become rough and hard.
It's obvious he's furious… But, why would he be furious if I said something like that? It's a terrible mistake.
If I wasn't rejected, if my mate didn't choose my half sister over me… I wouldn't have been so hurt the way I was.
I won't have gotten drunk and made a silly mistake.
“I am just a mere slave, Alpha Damian.. And yes, that night was a mistake on my part. It shouldn't have happened. We shouldn't have met over such a situation. I'm sorry..”
I didn't know where I found the courage but I pushed him off me slightly and scurried out of the room as though my pants had caught fire.
As soon as I'm out of the room, I'm filled with regrets over what I've just done.
I just touched Alpha Damian without his permission.. I pushed him. I don't know what the aftermath of my actions would be, but I hope my head won't be chopped off.
Getting back to the room, I was like the shadow of myself.
I'm still filled with thoughts and memories of the cold look that crossed his face when I referred to the night we had as a mistake.
If it isn't a mistake, then.. What is it?
In the room, I found Becky fast asleep. I sat down, raised my knees up and bowed my head to it.
“I want you.. I want you Lilith”
His voice resounded in my ears but I brushed it off totally.
“You have to hope you don't get us into trouble, Lilith…. Alpha Damian said he wanted us.. What's so difficult about that?” Lena scolded me.
“What? So, do you want to jump on him because he says he wants us?” I asked.
“I don't mind…At least, we won't get to receive slaps from just anyone or get to do the dishes, laundry and get the jars filled up. Aren't you tired of leaving the life of a slave?”
“That's what we're born for, Lena…”
Lena hates this suffering. She hates it when we are being unfailingly treated.
She went quiet while I just sat thinking deeply.