Chapter 40 feels so good
"Now kiss me", He said. I instantly froze up at his words. I squeezed my eyes so tight like it would be helpful. "Am not going to kiss you", l snarled. "Actions speak louder than words", With in seconds he flipped me over on to my back and then he was on top of me. His lips were on mine and his body hard over mine.
I struggled , pushed him for a moment but he was strong. His lips were soft but he was rough. He got my bottom lip between his lips and sucked on it. I couldn't breathe but l didn't dare open my mouth. He made an " mmh " sound against my lips but that didn't change me. He roughly kissed me for a pretty good time but he lastly broke it.
"You didn't kiss back but you gonna get a pass tonight", He groaned then he flipped back so that I was back on top of him. His hands were on me , one on my lower back and the other in my hair. I couldn't move. My cheek was against his chest and his legs were parted. Our pelvises were touching . He was so rock hard and just feeling his hard erection made my eyes to bulge out of my sockets. My body was making him damn hard. This was evidently showing that he had something that possessed him. The Xavier l did know wasn't attracted to me. He didn't like omegas.
Slowly l felt his fingers massage my scalp , he was playing with my hair a little. He was quiet and I tried to ignore his fingers that we're in my hair. After a long moment of silence l started to take a stock of the day and slowly regretted everything. I was happy that I interrupted the dinner but now this was the result of it all.
Instead of living in happiness, l was now exhausted in mind and body on top of the body of the Alpha my mother didn't love. I had some how gone from trembling to completely still against him. He was muscular, strong and holding me like I was something precious. His hand occasionally moved either up or down my back and every once in the while I would feel his lips or fingers moving in my hair.
Everything was good until when he pulled up my leg and wrapped it around his waist. A whimper involuntarily escaped out of my mouth at that. I was pretty much totally on top of him. This time I tried hard to ignore his erection but now it was poking me directly against my core. It was as if he wanted me to naturally feel it.
This wasn't the real ruthless Alpha.
I was now worried that the longer l lay here awake , the more likely he would do something sexual so l decided l should try to sleep. I just wanted morning to come to early and get off him. I had no idea what tomorrow would bring but today had kicked me Upside the head and it needed to be done.
Recalling everything that has happened to me through out the moment I got to know that he was my mate, l started to cry softly. I didn't want to show him how weak l was but honestly it felt unbearable. I was tired of the punishments but I was so defiant. Tears dropped unto his chest and he just stroked my head and my back as if he was the solution not the problem. Then he took my right hand and placed it on his chest over his heart not letting go. I just wanted to remove it but it was as if he wanted me to listen to his heartbeat. His left hand was moving up and down on my back.
My left hand was at my sides and clenched into fist. I felt angry and tears we're flowing down my eyes , l just wanted to get off him. I don't know the time l laid there crying on top of him , lying in a puddle of tears on his hairy chest while he stroked my hair and back. He rhythmically stroked my fingers with his thumb on his chest against his loudly beating heart.
I eventually felt my eyes drop. Sleep was claiming. The Alpha was comforting me by holding me and stroking me and somehow it was working. I guess it was working because I could not push him away. .My fist loosened and my breathing started to even out. I had to act like l had no problem lying with my body on his or else he would take me against my will.
XAVIER'S POV.
She felt so fucking good in my arms. I wasn't someone who spooned a lady but I did it on her. Though she was a omega, it felt right. The answer in my head was crystal clear. It was because she was mine. I hadn't even fucked her yet but she was already mine. Right now holding her , her sleeping on top of me. it felt fucking right.
I just couldn't wait to plunge inside her core then fuck her with her hair held in in my hands , fuck her until she knows that she belongs to me . When she got mouthy with me , I wanted to haul her over my knees and spank until when she would beg for mercy . Her life had shattered into a million pieces by me , a bastard who would go to any extent to get anything he did want. .
Right now I just wanted her to stop trembling and sleep in my arms. I wanted those stress lines off her face. I felt a warm tingling in me as I heard her breathing even out. A while later , I touched her cheek and when I did , she was obviously asleep nuzzled into me like she did want to be near me.
I let out a long breath and closed my eyes.