Chapter 192

Chapter 192
AMELIA

“I want you right now, Alexander.” The moment those words left my mouth, he carried me to the bed in my hotel room.

He ripped my clothes from my body until I was naked and exposed. Then he spread my legs wide, and one thing led to another. My ovary was throwing a party as he dipped his head between my legs.

A gasp escaped my lips as he pressed the softest kisses on my foot, my leg, and my inner thighs, nipping my skin. Then captured my entire pussy with his hot mouth.

“Ah!” My hips bucked, hand came to his head to grab a handful of his hair, shamelessly pushing his mouth to my sex. Then he dragged his tongue from my folds upward to my clit, making my head spin. Tingles ran down my spine as I shuddered in delight.

“Goddess!” I panted, rocking into his talented tongue, stroking my clit. Every muscle in my body clenched, and my legs trembled. Then he glided it in my entrance, thrusting in and out, alternately sucking my sensitive hard nub.

Tension instantly coiled in my lower belly as he covered my clit with his mouth and began to suck me deep while shoving two fingers deep inside me, twisting in rhythm. The swirling storm of my orgasm had tightened inside me.

Breathing hard, I writhed in his mercy. I didn’t want it to end. It felt so good, so intense to let go. I was second away from coming and my heart was about to burst from my chest.

Then he demanded. “Open your eyes, sweetheart. Look at me.”

I didn’t even realize they were closed until my eyes flew open. Propping up on my elbows, I looked down at him. “I wanna come.”

“I’m of many things, but leaving you hanging, unsated was not one of them. And I’m going to make you happy.”

“Let’s talk later,” I said breathlessly because right now patience was not my strong suit. I wanted him to eat me like he was a starving beast, feast on me like I was the most delicious thing he’d ever tasted. And I wanted him inside me like the air I breathed.

As my hunger grew, I spread my legs wider and begged, “Please, Lucius?”

I barely finished my words, he gave me exactly what I wanted. I screamed his name, not caring if the whole hotel could hear me.

I moaned and he groaned. His voice reverberated into my pussy, sending shockwave to my clit.

“Yes! Fuck, Lucius!” I growled and swore I could feel the entire room vibrating as I came so hard. 

My body flew, quaked, and blasted into millions of stars, sending me flying into the sky. I collapsed on the bed as an intense bliss went on and on in waves.

After he made me come again, he made love with me, and we fell into slumber.

I woke up cocooned in his huge arms, and it was already dark outside, reminding me of how long I slept.

Then he sighed, tightening his arms around me.

“You gotta let me go, big guy or I pee in bed.”

He chuckled. His sleepy voice was still groggy. “You can pee here. I don’t care.”

“The housekeepers’ job is already hard, working on a minimum wage.”

“You have such a heart of gold.” He kissed my shoulder before he loosened his arms around me. “Be quick.”

After I entered the bathroom and did the deeds, I washed my face and brushed my teeth. Then a gut-punched with the sudden huge ball of guilt hit me. 

This time, I slept with Lucius in real life while my mate was waiting for me back home, and it crushed my soul and broke my heart.

Quite frankly, the sex was good, but what we had was more than just sex. This was my life. As complicated and twisted as it was, they deserved better.

They were both good men and willing to offer their lives for me. I could not do this to them. It was either I chose one of them or I left them both.

When my emotions became too much for my chest to bear, I screamed in silence, alone in the bathroom, in front of the mirror. Then I washed away the tears on my face.

“What would you do if you were in my position, Amelia?” I talked to myself in the mirror. She looked happy, but guilt was deeper in her eyes. 

I stood there for another minute, and I still got nothing.

I drew a deep stable breath before I went back to bed. 

Lucius was already fully awake, resting his back against the headboard. His massive broad chest and abs made my ovary explode. With only covered from his waist below, his bulge was prominent under the sheet, leaving me to wonder further.

I joined him in bed and kissed him on the lips, and he scooped me so I could rest on top of him. I curled into a fetal position as he wrapped his arms around me, his fingers tracing my spine. I felt tiny and fragile when I was with him, but powerful at the same time.

He sighed again as if something was bothering him.

“How did you find me?”

“Your mate gave me your letter. I supposed you went back from where you started. Did you mean what you said?” He was talking about the letter.

“All of it.”

“Hmm.” He kissed the top of my head. “He came to me. He’s worried about you, sweetheart. You should go back.”

“What about you?” I lifted my head and looked him in the eye.

“I always trust what you do that you know what’s best for you. Like always, I won’t control you.” He smiled as he tucked my hair behind my ear. “But of course, I get worried all the time even though I know you can take care of yourself.”

“How’s everyone?”

“I’m not telling you anything, Amelia. It’s about time you go home and make decisions.”

“So if I go home and decide that I don’t want to see you again, you’ll accept it?”

Pain instantly crossed his eyes as he sighed. “If that’s your decision, even if it will break my heart again, yes, I’ll stay as far from you as I can.”

“I love you, Lucius, and it’s not because of what we had shared a long time ago and that I have loved you before, but I love you and I also love Ryden. I don’t want to hurt you both.”

He smiled, even if it didn’t reach his eyes. “I love you before and now, and forever, Amelia. Nothing’s gonna change even if you stay with Ryden. For the past months since I met you again, it has been the best days of my life. And I’m happy and will always be happy for you. But this isn’t a goodbye, okay?”

I hugged him tight and let the tears fall down my cheeks. I wiped them away as I smiled. “Why do you love me, Lucius?”

He chuckled. “Should there be a reason to love someone, to love you?” He shook his head. “No, my angel. I don’t love you because you’re goddamn beautiful, or you’re kind, you make me smile, or some chemicals in my brain or we share the same interest. I love you because I don’t control my heart and my heart is yours. And I only live and I die for you.”

I swallowed when my heart began to pump so hard in my chest. I didn’t know why I had to come and see the man who killed many people, including those innocent boys. 

It didn’t feel right that he was still breathing when he was merciless taking those lives.

Alec should be rotting in hell right now, but it still didn’t set right that I couldn’t see his suffering with those demons he set free.

Watching him in the thick layer of concrete wall behind the steel door with his wolf suppressed by magic was more satisfying than being dead.

I guess, I still have a little compassion in my heart to keep him alive than to thrust the blade of my sword into his chest. Besides, I cared a lot for Nora. I knew what it felt like to lose the people I cared about, and taking his life into my own hands wouldn’t be worth a taint in my soul.

I pulled the door open, and he looked surprised to see me. He wasn’t chained to the floor anymore. In fact, the moment Zarah and Samarah got his soul back, he acted more like a human.

“Amelia.” It was the first time he called my name without being disgusted.

“I can never forgive you, for what you’ve done to those people. I can’t forgive you for what you did to Ryden. Whether you were possessed or not, you took so many lives and you don’t deserve a second chance.” 

“I don’t deserve it.” He dropped his gaze.

“Damn right, you don’t. I’m here because your daughter has proven to us that people could change, so don’t screw this up.” I quickly turned around and knocked on the door for someone to open for me from the outside when he called my name again.

“Thank you for what you’ve done to Nora.”