Chapter 43 Holden
Elara.”
“I don’t want to leave, I don't think I should, it feels so wrong to even think about leaving.” I breathed out, I placed my hand on his grave stone, his name beautifully written on it, using his favorite font, and his picture, it was all there.
This is our family’s graveyard, and no one has been buried in the last ten years, there were names I have never heard. Pictures I have never seen before because papa never let me ever come here.
“I want to stay with him, it’s getting cold and I know how much papa hates it eve it’s too cold, he always gets cranky and behaves like a three year old.” I stated with tears in my eyes.
Adrain wrapped his hand around my body, pulling me up, when I stopped moving.
“You are going to get sick Elara and your papa is not going to like it, I promised him I will take care of you.”
“I didn’t ask you to make a promise you can’t keep.” I started when my breath hitches, I didn’t mean it, I didn’t want to be rude to him.
“I am sorry.”
“I know you are princess.” He said and I nodded, I turned to look at him when he leaned in and he wiped the tears that fell against my cheek, my breath hitches as I stared at his with a frown on my face. “I want to show you something.”
“I don’t- you are coming with.” He said cutting me off, and I nodded.
Every second that passed, I thought about my papa, how scared he will be when he wakes up all alone, I didn’t want him to be alone, I didn’t want him to think I left him so soon.
When the car came to a halt, Adrain and I headed out of the place. It was a house.
“What are we doing here?”
“Come with me.” He said and I placed my hand in his,
The house was small and cozy. He leads us further into the house when we stoped in the garden, there was a large tree, the leaves dropped on the floor softly as I stared at it.
I inched closer to it when I realized something was written on the tree.
In the memory of Holden.
“Your brother.” I whispered and he nodded. “You buried him under a tree.”
“He died beside the tree, he was just ten when it happened.” He said and my breath hitches, I was right, he didn’t have any family, he has lost everyone and everything, he is all alone, even worse than I am.
I stared at Adrain when I settled on the floor, I didn’t care if there are ants or if it’s dirty, I didn’t care if the wind would get me sick, I didn’t want to live anymore.
“How did everyone die?.” I asked. “How did you handle all of it.” I breathed out, when he settled beside me, his hand on mine, “you lost your parents, all of your siblings, how can someone recover from that, they were all killed except for you.” I whispered.
“I didn’t kill them.” He said and my breath hitches.
“I don’t say-“ I was about saying when I turned to look at him, hd was filled with pain and thoughts, Adrain covered his pain in darkness, he covered his anger in tears and he is much stronger than I could ever be.
I stared at him with a weak smile on my face.
“They thought you killed your family for the mafia.” I asked and I he didn’t speak. “They called you a murderer, they said you were cold and you didn’t care for anyone, you didn’t deny it, you didn’t tell them you didn’t because you didn’t want to seem weak.” I stated. “How old were you?.” I asked
“Eighteen.” He said and my heart skipped a beat, that is young, I can’t imagine the pain, the anger he went through, I can’t Imagine how he must have felt, I can’t imagine how angry he would be.
“You wanted to seem strong, you could not grieve because if they see you cry, they will think you are weak.” I stated when tears streamed down my cheek.
He was not looking at me, I leaned in and I placed my hand around his chin before forcing him to stare at me, my breath hitches as my eyes were on his.
“You are the strongest person I ever know Adrian, what you wet through; what you did, I could have never been able to do it.” I started as my eyes met his.
“I had to for my family, for my mafia, and for me..” He said and I nodded.
He would have never been respected if it didn’t happen, If he didn’t pretend to be strong the way he is
“I-“ I was about saying when I kept quite, there were no words, nothing I could say to make him feel better, there is nothing I can say that can change what happened to him, what happened was horrible.
“You are strong.” I whispered again when my eyes met his lips, the soft wind caused a wave of goosebumps appear on my body and the leaves of the tree fell against my body,
My eyes were on his when his hand found its place to my face, and it felt right, it didn’t feel wrong, we were both grieving, we both and so much inside of us that needed to be let go and right now, there is no one that can understand how I felt like he did, no one that can understand what I wanted to do like he did.
The thoughts escaped my mind when my lisp found its place to his, it was warm and soft, my eyes closed for a second when he started to move his lips against mine, his hand softly touching my body as his lips devoured me.