Hungry

Yes I really owe Ceasar and his friends, as much as I enjoyed their company they had to leave because they had classes and the exams are around the corner. I sighed for the fifth time because I was too bored to even have the energy to do anything. My side of the room was the messiest and I also remained messy with my pajamas. What I was missing was a cat right now. Even my phone was told far away because I would at least play music, an embarrassing sound entered my ears and I realized that it came from my stomach. Right, I haven't had anything to eat and I'm not allowed to leave the room. I'm supposed to die of starvation.

It's fine I'll ignore it, I'm a shape-shifter after all so I can endure hunger for days but it doesn't change that it isn't a good feeling. At least something looks like it'll get fixed and I'll soon be able to leave this prison. I sighed thinking about how Sera is fearing, I'm thinking not good since she'll have to see Jacob in classes. Even though there isn't much hope between me and her that isn't the same for him and her. If I can't fix our friendship then I can maybe try to fix their relationship. Not to make her forgive me but for her to have someone she can talk and laugh with. She didn't have any other friends beside us so I have to secretly help her but that can only be done with the ability to get out of this room. Ugh what is taking that snitch so long!

Then there's Ceasar...

"I'm sorry but I am not going to be able to do it because Dintle you're the first ever decision I've made for myself...by myself

You're the best thing that has ever happened to me and I know it's hard but right I am going to fight for us and make sure no one hurts you or repeat what was done to you

So I'm sorry that I got you entangled with me and I'm sorry that I won't stop because...

I'm in love with you Dintle.

I haven't been able to stop thinking about you for a long time now and I don't want to.

I know that you feel that you have to choose yourself and not me but that's not true..

You can choose to choose us just like I'm doing because I promise you it will feel great"

Now that I look back and think about it, most girls would've melted and evaporated from his words and I was no different. The way he said them with so much emotion and while having this intensity in his eyes, unwillingness to let go. To let go of me?

Then the words of someone else invaded my mind...

"He can choose to end your relationship or introduce you to the most powerful leader in this country, you a mere maid's daughter? What do you think will happen!

Or say he is determined to be with you and then he gets punished by never becoming the next pack leader, don't you think he will resent you? Two things happen to him and that he never becomes a pack leader or he just becomes an ordinary pack leader. No improvement from what his father achieved which will make him unhappy and that'll make you unhappy. He will regret not marrying his chosen mate, things will end up not working out between you and him then his sacrifice ends up not being worth it at all.

I think you should think for him and his future because he is certainly not doing that for himself. You can also see how perfect Aurora will look standing next to him as his lunar because at the end of the day what will being with you do for him?"

Sadly he isn't lying or telling the truth, this is just another big possibility. A big 'if'. It can be as amazing as Ceasar promises or can turn out like Rodrous's harsh prediction. What if he really ends up regretting it, I mean he looks sure now but will that be forever. In the face of his biggest influencers in his life which are his parents will he fight for us? Or will I end up being embarrassed when he disposes of me and chose Aurora instead. The truth is I can never be sure and I'm afraid, what If I really look the other way as Rodrous says and end up regretting it. Gosh why is this so hard, I just wish to know the future to know which to choose and which not to choose.

He was right about one thing and that is to just focus on the task he gave me. To search for the traitors but I feel like I have made him wait for too long now. From the way he has been acting and treating me I know that he is dying to hear my answer. He shows such transparent emotions towards me that it's cute. Sigh if only there was someone who could decide for me. If this place had the internet I would ask Google what to do in these kinds of situations. Google would give me the wrong answer so that I know the right answer if you know what I mean.

I got alert when the door knob twisted, who is it this time? Is it maybe Sera but it isn't time for a break right now. The door swung open and Ceasar alone entered through the door holding one tray of food that was full to the brim with food.

"Ceasar? Aren't you supposed to be in class so why are you back?" I asked softly, my eyes not leaving the tray that had a very tempting smell. He answered with two words" I bunked" , "oh ok and what's that you're holding?" Oh you know very well what it is Dintle! "I just figured you were hungry and I wanna spend more time with you because" ah spend more time with me because?

"I haven't spent much time with you in quite some time now and it's always in the presence of others so...I missed you"