Chapter 65 - The Rejected Goddess

Emma POV

I open my eyes to a grassy plane. I sigh, guess I died again. Either that or someone wants to talk. Not that I mind, I could quite happily sit here for the rest of eternity just watching the grass. I might even add some wind and plants to make it even more relaxing.

I feel like I have awoken from a long slumber, the memories of what happened and me losing control enter my mind, causing my head to hurt and me to whimper.

I close my eyes tight and try to think of other things, I don’t want to remember the pain and agony that filled me. The way I took lives and killed those around me, even if they were rogues. The hatred and resent that filled me that day surprised even me, all I remember was Melanie killing and then I saw red. The memories and emotions I had bottled up were released, and it resulted in me losing control and killing.

“Hello Emma. How are you feeling?” Selena asks causing me to open my eyes. She steps onto the field a few feet away from me.

“I feel disconnected. As if what happened, actually happened to another person and I feel oddly calm about it, except for the guilt of killing all of those rogues so mercilessly.” I explain.

“Do you remember what happened over the past few months? Just sometimes memories can be lost after you went through the craze.” Selena asks. The craze is what happens when a deity loses control, sometimes the deity is too far gone and they have to be left to pass away rather than be saved as their pain and anguish are too much for them to handle.

“Yes, I have a mate and Eric and Melanie have been dealt with almost. Eric needs to be dealt with, Melanie… she is… Melanie is dead…. At my hands… and I don’t feel anything. I don’t feel happy, I don’t feel guilty, and I don’t feel sad. I don’t feel anything about it. Is that bad?” I ask, looking at Selena as she steps closer.

“No, she did a lot to you over your life. Even if you forgave her in the past, what she and Eric did are still ingrained in you and made you who you are today. Melanie overstepped the mark and strayed numerous times from her path and the last time your hand was forced, and you did what anyone would do in that situation.”

“I don’t think I ever really cared. Maybe that sounds bad, but I don’t think I ever really cared about revenge or anything like that. I wanted to lay my demons from the past to rest and thanks to you I have managed to do that, all except one. What is going to happen to Eric?” I ask.

“That is down to you.”

Hmmm…. I sit there and think for a while before a smirk covers my face.

“What do you have planned?” Selena asks me knowingly.

“I think Eric should answer for what he has done, and his fate be placed in the hands of the five packs he destroyed. I hope we can give them their homes back and they can rebuild their packs and lives, but I don’t think Eric should die just yet. That would be too easy, after all Erics one weakness is his ego and status. I think he should be broken first, just like he has broken others.” I explain, I look at Selena expecting to see hatred or disgust in her eyes, but I don’t.

Selena nods her head, “I think that is a very good idea. After all, Eric has wronged many people and Melanie is gone so he will have to withstand the brunt of their anger.”

I nod my head; I look down as waves of emotions hit me.

“Do you want to talk about it?” Selena asks, sitting down beside me.

“It hurts, no matter what I think about all I can think is the lives I cost because I refused to use my powers on Eric and Melanie.”

“You made the right decision. While some may not agree, a deity should never abuse their powers and you are cautious with who you punish with yours. It comes with your heart, you always want to see the good in people, and being harsh to others hurts you. Though you really should have reached out sooner.” Selena chastises me.

“I know. I tried everything to make things right, but nothing was ever enough for Melanie or Eric, and they never learnt their lessons. It was almost as if they just didn’t see anything wrong with what they were doing.” I say, pouring my heart out to Selena. She embraces me.

“I know.”

“I know people will be saying that I should have used my powers and all of that, and in hindsight I should have. But how could I when I didn’t have all of the facts? Melanie and Eric were evil towards me, but to just kill pack leaders is itself a crime and I would have had to have been punished for that. And I hoped that they would change.” I cry.

“I know, but sadly people like that don’t change. They are evil through and through. But I have to ask you something.” Selena says, while running her hands through my hair to calm me down.

“What is it?”

“Why didn’t you kill them sooner? Once you made them omegas you could have killed them without any repercussions.”

I sigh. I have been expecting this question. “This probably makes me sound cruel, but I didn’t kill them for two reasons. One, technically they were leading the rogues so they were still actually Alpha and Luna but they had no power on the territory any more. And secondly, I wanted them to suffer, to be humiliated and hated and hate their lives as much as they made me and others hate ours. Death was too good for them.” I dryly reply.

“I see, you wanted them to suffer longer. Makes sense and I like the idea.” Selena smiles at me.

“I thought your not supposed to be like that.”

“When someone hurts my girl, you can bet I become like that.” Selena replies, smiling still.

We sit in silent for a while, just lost in our thoughts and letting time slip by. That is a benefit to being immortal, time is meaningless so get to enjoy the smaller things such as sitting down and getting lost in your thoughts.

“What is your next move?”

“I want to heal and move forward.” I reply. My heart heavy but my mind made up.