Chapter 64 - The Rejected Goddess
Selena POV
Being the moon goddess is a hard yet rewarding job, but there is one regret that I have and that is Emma. I love her, and I want the best for her but why fate dealt her the hand it did I do not know.
Watching Emma grow up was amazing, she blossomed into a healthy, happy and lively girl who had a heart of gold. She would rather spend time with the pack helping out and focusing on her grades than go out partying and put herself in danger. When the pack was attacked, Emma and her brother were always at the front, the two of them an almost indestructible team.
When Melanie and Eric did what they did to Emma, I could see the pain in Matthews eyes as he petitioned Eric and Melanie so much to help Emma. But when they threatened his mate and unborn pup, he had to choose, and he choose his family. I never told Emma this, as it would break her even though she would argue that he made the right decision. That is why Matthew was so full of regret and self-loathing until Emma told him she had ascended and was no longer dead.
I wanted to intervene numerous times, but nothing I did was enough to get her out of the situation. And as deities we can only watch and plan, we cannot interfere except for Emma due to her being both an unplanned deity but also one that the wolves wanted. Watching what Eric and Melanie have been doing both before and after her ascension has been heart breaking, but the worst part was watching Emma break beyond repair.
Normally when someone ascends to become a deity, their past is wiped but Emma fought so hard to remain who she is. She got a new body and a new life, but Emma remained steadfast in keeping her past and never forgetting. Yet what amazed me was she never hated; she forgave others for what they did to her.
When I asked why, her answer bemused me.
“I forgave them for me, I do not wish to carry hate around in my heart that has been planted there by another. While I never want to see them again, I died and so did the past. The day I ascended was the day I was reborn, so why let the hate back in? If I didn’t forgive them then they would have won, as they would have managed to change me. And I refuse to lose to them.” Was Emma’s surprising reply.
I know Emma didn’t use her powers on her old pack because of the emotions that being back there brought up, she had free reign, but her emotions were visible to all who really looked. The fact that she didn’t want to kill Melanie and Eric just goes to show how compassionate she is, but also how naive she can be. Her hope was that Melanie would reform and become the person that she should have been, after all Melanie’s original destiny was one of happiness as was Emma’s. But Melanie was not able to be redeemed, no matter how much Emma tried to.
When I saw what Melanie had done and that she had sneaked out to the rogue pack and was fighting I did the unthinkable- I intervened and made sure that Beta Edward was able to get the information quickly. I just hoped that Emma and her team would be able to get there before anything happened, but sadly I did not get the information to them soon enough.
Melanie killed the Luna and attempted to kill the alphas daughter, which cause Emma to see red when she saw how heartless Melanie really was towards others, I think caused Emma to go over the edge. It is one thing to have them things done to yourself, but to see someone else suffer like that from your own sister would be too much for anyone to handle.
I think Emma had put Melanie’s previous actions down to immaturity, but to see her sister behave such a way now was too much. And to kill, even I was surprised Melanie could go so far.
Watching Emma kill Melanie surprised me and the other deities, it was then we knew that we had to step in otherwise we would lose Emma forever. Her pain and suffering took over her heart and she couldn’t handle all of the emotions she had buried anymore. Watching it was heart breaking, and finally I was able to intervene and get Emma out of there before she was lost forever.
When Emma finally did kill Melanie, the pain it caused her broke her. The pain of everything she has gone through, both before and after ascending just became too much for her so I put her to sleep for a while. In the sleep plane Emma will be able to re-heal, but whether she comes back again is her choice. But seeing her broken like that broke a few of us.
Taking Emma has probably had a negative effect on her brother and the friends she has made, but I would do anything for her safety and to keep her safe. She is more than just my best friend; I have been with her through everything even when I could not help and she always bounced back no matter what she went through. I refuse to let her fall now.