13⁰Summer cutting part 3

{spring Kingdom}

Bella

It's hard to believe that I'm hearing this, especially from my mother.

- Are you listening to yourself? Are you serious? - I said, getting up from the bed.

- Sure, now wipe your face, dust it off a little so that no one can see, and let's go down to lunch. We shouldn't keep the others waiting. - he said, walking away. 

 Leaving me alone, I still couldn't believe she asked me to do this, and she's still defending that creep Antony, what kind of mother is she? My own husband swears to kill me if I say anything to anyone, plus he took his anger out on my friend.

I would not allow my life to be like this until the last day of my existence. I will find a solution, I just hope I don't get lost in the middle of so many negative feelings.

I got out of bed, went down to the small river, a part of the room made for bathing, and swallowed the urge to cry and scream in anger at myself for being so weak. My whole life, I never went through difficult situations where I was the target of the threat, any problem that arose I always communicated to my parents for them to solve. My mother didn't always stay by my side, and on some occasions she didn't seem to care about the events surrounding me. I always thought that the reason was the crown on top of her head because she was queen and had bigger responsibilities that needed her attention. I didn't care much for her aloofness.

I chose the first dress I opened the closet, tied up my hair, and did what she told me to do - I dusted every area of my face with powder to hide the cruelty of the man who is not punished for being who he is, will always see it as an excuse for his actions.

I close the door of the room on my way out, I walk cheerlessly with each step, it is a sacrifice, I will not know how to act before everyone there after what happened. Until I arrive even from the slowness that came through the corridors, the guards open the entrance revealing an intense table that would accommodate thousands of families, but few are sitting at it.

I walked in silence to the table realizing my presence, he stood up like a gentleman pulling the chair to his side for me to sit. I sat down without looking at him, I couldn't, because his lines came into my mind. During the dinner I remained silent, with a smile on my face of a woman happy with the life she is leading. 

He played the good husband deceived at every turn, and I played a wife who was happy on the outside but unhappy on the inside, but no one knows what goes on behind the appearance. No one suspects that I have been threatened with death, by the person who swears he loves me and cares for me at the church. 

I spent the whole dinner in silence, just listening to the conversations. Everyone had already finished their meals, but they kept talking at the table, about various subjects that were unimportant to me. I couldn't stand being in that environment any longer, so I left without drawing the attention of the others and went back to my room. I cried even more, tired of feeling sorry for myself, I decided to get out of that castle before going crazy in the room, I left looking everywhere, not wanting to see anyone to give satisfaction of where I was going.

In the stable I took my horse, Luz, and left riding towards the white tree where I had peace, with enviable speed of my horse quickly arrived. I realized that today there were few guards, so I left, hiding among the trees and managed to cross the border between my kingdom and the Winter kingdom for the first time, something that if I were at peace with my conscience I would never do, but since I am tormented I thought of nothing. I ran as fast as I could to the white tree, it is as if it leaves me at peace and gives me strength to continue, it could even be ironic to believe that a simple flower would give me the strength to face the obstacles. 

But this was the only thing I possessed, so I clung to this illusion, I must be like the flower, be strong and continue living day by day, facing and overcoming difficulties with my head held high, without dismounting that I am afraid.

When I got under the tree, I realized that it was too high for me to catch the flower, so I had to look for a big branch to be able to take it down. However, with several failed attempts my conscious was in the mood to give up looking, but for my happiness I found a branch. It is not as big as I wanted, but it was already a help, returned to what I was doing, still without success in plucking the flower, I am already exhausted with my arms aching for holding the branch taking too many minutes, again several attempts frustrating I decided to rest a little, to renew the forces. 

But I wasn't going to give up, I'm just calming my nerves to concentrate on my goal, ten minutes have passed with me sitting on the grass under the tree. I decided to start over again, I stood up determined to succeed, however, when I was already with the branch up, managing to almost knock one down, I heard a hoarse voice speak behind me.

- Hey, you there! What do you think you're doing? This doesn't belong to you, you thief. - I felt my skin crawl all at once at his gruff voice.

Various things went through my mind, with the dread of being discovered. My body trembles because it knows I'm in trouble.