Chapter 64
Enzo
While Cat was sleeping in my arms I wondered if she could have experienced sub drop so quickly, I mean for some girls it’s almost immediate which is very very rare but for other it takes up to 3 days. If this is a sub drop, Cat is really very sensitive and we are going to have to be very careful with her. I fell a sleep a few minutes later thinking of Cat and the women we want to turn her into.
The next morning, I woke up to an empty bed but I could hear the shower running. So, I got up and walked towards the bathroom as I entered, I pulled down my boxers. When I walked into the shower, I saw Cat sitting in the corner of the shower with the water running over her. I could still see the tears streaming down her face. “Angel what’s going on?” I asked her as I picked her up from the floor and walked out of the shower, I grabbed a towel and made sure she was totally wrapped in the towel before I put her down on the vanity, wrapping a towel around my waist. She was scaring the living shit out of me. I took her face in my hands. “Talk to me angel, what’s wrong?” “Nothing I’m being silly.” “Nonsense tell me what’s wrong angel you scaring me.”
Cat (Caterina)
When I woke up, I felt so funny I couldn’t describe it to anyone, I felt lost and that everything and I mean everything that happened last night was a mistake and so wrong. I mean how could I let 4 men have me sexually to start off with, then their rules and how they will punish me, why do I need punishment? Not to mention what happened in the play room, Enzo hitting me and then flogging me and the worst of all was I enjoyed it. What was wrong with me how can I enjoy this stuff it so wrong. I started to cry. I didn’t want to wake Enzo so I got up and went to the bathroom and got in a hot shower. The sound of the water will disguise my crying. Everything was playing off in my head, from the conversations over dinner to Enzo and me in the playroom and then me shivering and passing out with the words of Enzo telling me how good I did, after I asked him. I’m very sure life fucked me up because why would I like this. It’s not right. I sat in the shower I don’t know for how long and I cried and cried and cried. I thought if I cry, I will feel better but it made me feel worse. I was still in the shower when I saw a shadow coming over me, when I looked up it was Enzo asking me “Angel what’s going on?” I didn’t want to talk as he picked me up and wrapped me in a towel putting me down on the vanity. He came and stood between my legs took my face in his hands “Talk to me angel, what’s wrong?” “Nothing I’m being silly.” “Nonsense tell me what’s wrong angel you scaring me.”
If he only knew I was scaring myself as well. He pulled me towards him to look at my back lifting the towel. “Did I hurt you last night? I was careful.” He said worried. “No, you didn’t hurt me.” “Then what is going on angel.” I couldn’t hold it in anymore I actually raised my voice “Everything okay Everything.” I said loudly. “Okay what do you mean everything?” “Last night what we talked about in the restaurant, the fact that I liked some of the stuff you where saying.” “There is nothing wrong to like it angel.” He interrupted me. “There is something wrong with it even what we did in the play room it was wrong. So, So wrong.” “Did you enjoy the playroom?” He asked carefully. “Yes, how can you doubt that.” “Then why is it wrong?” He asked like I wasn’t making sense at all. “This.” I pointed at the both of us “and the others it’s not normal it’s not how a normal relationship work. This is not what people talk about when they are out. And they definitely don’t talk about punishment.” “Angel, I understand last night was a shocked but who is telling us what we can and can’t do, we don’t follow societies rules we follow our own rules and if we enjoy ourselves why are we worried about what other people say. Are you upset because you liked it?” I got quiet because yes, I was upset because I liked it. “It’s not normal.” I said softly. “What isn’t normal? To like it?” “Yes.” I said softly again. “Who says?” He asked me lifting my eyes to meet his. I just stared at him. “Come on Cat tell me who says it’s not normal? You would be surprised how many people are into this kind of kink we are into, it’s not an us thing there is a whole community that is into BDSM and M/s. So, stop comparing you to society I mean you are so much more than just a woman you are a Capone woman and you can make rules as you please and if you decide it’s a rule to have more than one man in your life if you are part of the Mafia then fuck, they have to follow it. I mean do you think if a man makes a rule they should have more than one wife the other men is going to be upset about it?” A small smile formed on my face because no man would say no to that. “No”
“Then stop worrying about society angel and go on how you feel. If it feels good to you to have the 4 of us by your side then do it. If it feels good to be flogged enjoy every second of it but never ever question yourself. There is a reason for you feeling like this this morning.” “There is?” “Yes, it’s called a sub-drop the thing is the women we played with normally experience it within 3 days after a play not the next day so this mean you are very sensitive.” “What is a sub drop?”