Chapter 90 CLAIMING WHAT HE DENIED
~ Calvin ~
My eyes glance over to Lara every once in a while during the drive back. She hadn't spoken once, and just sat there looking out of the window.
I felt instant regret, wondering if I went too far.
"Lara." I say, watching as her head snaps towards me.
Her face was red as fuck
"Y..yeah?" She says quietly, looking anywhere but my face.
" If you ever feel uncomfortable, just tell me to stop." I utter, watching as her head tilts to the side.
" You don't make me uncomfortable." She mutters. I clear my throat, turning my head back towards the road when I catch myself looking down at her swollen fucking lips.
I shift in my seat, trying to ignore my dick as my head replays her voice telling me to keep touching her.
" Fuck." I mumble under my breath when my head starts imagining other things.
By the time we arrived at the house all the guests were gone.
I walk behind Lara as she goes towards the front door, trying to avoid my eyes from moving to her ass.
I failed
Before Lara opens the door someone else pushes it open, causing her to stumble back into me.
I move my hand around her waist to steady her, trying to control my fucking thoughts.
"Calvin, you’re back." My mom suddenly sighs out in relief. I quickly unwrap my hand on Lara’s waist, moving so there's more distance between us.
Her eyes glance over to Lara curiously, before looking back at me.
"Oh, were you guys together?" She asks, a hopeful look in her eyes.
" No." I reply before Lara says anything.
I didn't want anyone thinking we had some relationship.
Lara looks up at me confused before quickly turning back towards my mom. "
I...I'll leave now." She mumbles before walking away.
"You’re not being mean to her are you?" My mom sighs as she watches Lara walk away.
"I don't talk to her." I mumble, walking towards my room.
"What happened earlier with your old tutor?" She asks suddenly, following behind me.
" Nothing."
I hated looking into my moms eyes. She never gave up on me, but I still acted so cold towards her.
I thought if no one knew, if I never talked about it, it would just leave my head. Like it never happened.
If anyone knew, it would only made my nightmares reality.
Who the fuck would want that
" Your dad was there, he said you looked off. I know you barely talk to me, but even I know you would never just hit a woman."
She says, moving in front of me while grabbing my hand.
" You can tell me anything, I just want to help you." She sighs.
"There's nothing to tell you." I scowl, pushing my hand out of her grip.
" You know I'll never stop do you?" She suddenly sobs. I look down at her, hating that I was hurting her like this.
"I just want my baby boy back." She cries silently. I clench my jaw, turning my head away from her.
"I'm going to bed." I mutter before walking past her.
I couldn't sleep.
I knew closing my eyes would bring back images I didn't want to remember. This time though, even with my eyes open, everything replayed in my head at once.
"You’re very good looking for someone so young."
And I open my phone, going to the screenshot I took of her Instagram profile picture.
I stop, turning my phone off when I catch myself smiling at the fucking picture.
~ Elara ~
My music is turned up to the loudest volume as I walk down the sidewalk to school. I tried to not think about last night, but it kept coming back to my head.
Was he embarrassed for being seen hanging out with me? When he said no to his mom it hurt me more than it should've.
Maybe I was overthinking.
He probably took off the stupid bracelet too.
I shake my excessive thoughts away as I sigh, walking into the school.
My eyes catch Calvin leaning against his locker as he talks with Leslie, noticing the yellow bracelet still wrapped around his wrist.
He catches me looking, and I give him a small smile and wave. The smile quickly goes away when Calvin completely ignores me and turns back towards Leslie.
Oh
I feel my stomach drop as Leslie looks over, scoffing as she looks me up and down with her arms crossed over her chest.
I quickly turn my head back, tightening my hands around my backpack straps as I quicken my pace.
What was I expecting.
Is this what it feels like to be used for your body?
I didn't like this feeling.
Was he really only being nice to...
I choke back tears as I sit in my seat, focusing my eyes on the table in front of me.
I thought, just maybe, he might've liked me.
People don't just do that with no feelings, right?
Maybe this is what I get for not understanding my feelings either.
But it hurt more than it should've thinking he had no feelings for me.
I wanted him to like me
Because, maybe I did have feelings for Calvin.
And that's what confused me, because I enjoyed being around Wayne . He was perfect, in any way you could think.
So why was Calvin invading my thoughts out of nowhere?
The class felt even more loud today since there was a substitute. Mr. Silas must've gotten sick, which didn't seem to bother anyone.
I almost wished I was sick enough to skip school too.
I could barely even get my thoughts straight when I realized both Leslie and Calvin were missing from class.
My hand moves up to get a hall pass when I can't handle the loud class any longer.
I sigh when I finally walk out of the class, enjoying my moment of silence as I walk down the hallway towards the bathroom.
I could hear low voices speaking as I got closer towards the bathroom, freezing when I realize it was Calvin and Leslie.
She was tugging on his uniform jacket, whispering something in his ear as she stood on her toes to even reach his height.
I watch them, feeling my blood boil as I clench my fists at my side.
"Jackass." I mumble under my breath. I quickly turn around, deciding to go to the other bathroom three halls down but get greeted with something else.
A gasp leaves my mouth when I bump into Wayne, looking up to see him just as shocked.
"Wayne?" I ask, watching as he looks around confused.
" W..what are you doing?" I say.
"Trying to see who else it could be." He jokes, a boyish smile on his face.
He had a hall pass in his hand, so I figured he was also going to the bathroom.
Unfortunately Calvin and Leslie ruined the walk there for probably anyone.
" Very funny." I laugh, playfully punching his arm. Wayne grabs his arm I punched, a painful look on his face.
" You injured me, how will I put my number in your phone now." He groans, a playful look in his eyes.
I squint my eyes at him jokingly before shrugging my shoulders. " I guess you'll never have it."
" Can I have something else in exchange?" He asks, looking down at me curiously.
"Hmm, depends on what it is." I laugh, expecting something weird.
"I want to go to prom with you." Wayne says, completely catching me off guard. I look up at him, expecting it to be a joke.
He looked serious.
I watch him with wide eyes, feeling my heart race in confusion.
" W.with me?" I ask, pointing to myself. A smirk reaches his face as looks down at my finger pointed to myself.
"Only you." He replies, moving his eyes back down to my own.
Before I can even answer him I feel a hand grab my arm and pull me back into a hard chest. I gasp when I realize it's Calvin, who didn't look too happy.
" She's not going with you." He scowls at Wayne .I freeze in my spot, watching as Wayne glares back at Calvin.
Leslie runs up, looking at me furiously when she sees Calvin’s hand on me.
This didn't look too good.
" Why do you think that's your choice?" Wayne laughs, a pissed look on his face.
"Calvin,let go of me." I mumble, trying to pull my arm out of his grip. I could feel his dark eyes on me, making me not want to look up at him even more.
"Don't be fucking serious, angel." He scowls, tightening his grip on me.
I look up at him, hating the way he was looking at me.
"Let go, I mean it." I say, watching as a flash of hurt reaches his eyes before it quickly gets washed away by anger.
The sound of the bell ringing and students swarming the halls only makes the situation worse.
Calvin’s jaw ticks as he lets go of my arm, ignoring Leslie as he pushes past Wayne and walks away.
I stand there, chewing my lips nervously as I feel the eyes of the other students on me curiously.
" What the fuck is his problem." Wayne grumbles, looking down at me.
"Are you okay?" He asks, taking my arm in his hand. Wayne pulls my sleeve up, checking for bruises.
I watch him closely, knowing the answer was easy. Knowing it should be easy to just say yes to Wayne .
Why was it hurting my heart so much?
I decide to ignore whatever feeling was hurting me in my heart, knowing either way Calvin was someone I should've never gotten close to anyways.
"II'll go with you." I suddenly say, watching as his hand freezes on mine.
"Say that again, I missed it the first time."
He smiles.
Wayne made me happy