Chapter 54 The knock
The knock
Milo’s POV
Everything felt different when I woke up. A good type of difference.
The air was warmer and richer, mixed with the more familiar scent that tickled my nose.
The bed beneath me felt softer than the one I was before. My fingers brushed against the smooth silk sheets that were a little too familiar…
I sucked in a deep breath. I didn’t need anyone to tell me where I was.
Masters room.
I turned and saw him across the room, he was bent over his desk with a little frown that refused to leave his face. He had not noticed me yet.
I tried to speak, or call out to him, but I realised that my throat was still sore and all cracked up.
I let out a slow, deep breath. trying to move my limbs, but I could hardly move them. It felt like I was inside a water tank filled with thick oil. I felt no pain at all. Except for a hollow feeling that lingered in my chest. An ache that refused to go away.
That was when bits of memory began to come back to me. The vivid, cruel memory of what I have done. It played in my mind like a horror movie.
I couldn't remember what had happened no matter how I tried to think, but I have seen it for myself in the dream world. The lack of control, the hunger that had taken over me. The blood of people that stained my hands. Especially the bloodshot eyes that were filled with deep overflowing resentment… I couldn't believe what I had seen because to me, I saw a monster, a beast. I saw what I had created.
My airways constricted, and I gasped loudly before I could stop it. Tears flowed down my eyes.
I heard the sound of chairs scraping against the marble floor, followed by hurried footsteps.
Before I could react he was beside me like my guardian angel. His eyes scan over me like a hawk, as his presence felt like a safe space for me, to pour out my worries on.
Master was beside me, in the flesh.
The air around me thickened instantly, his scent lavender mixed with ash and wild flowers flooded my nostrils. His golden eyes were filled with something dark and intense, I felt like it was drowning me in, pulling me.like a strong magnet.
My brain blanked, and before I could catch myself, my body moved faster than my brain could catch up.
I hugged him.
It felt like peace. like I could finally breathe. my wolf lior purred deep inside my chest, prancing up and down. But I hardly paid attention to anything else, but the calm sensation that made its way to my whole body. And for once, since I woke up, I suddenly felt like everything will be okay.
Unconsciously, I snuggled even closer as if my life depended on it. Holding him so tight, like if I let go, I might fall back into the spiraling darkness.
“Ehhhmmm” , the rough clearing of throat forcefully pulled me out of my daydream. Master was looking at me with a silent, unreadable look on his face, and despite not pushing me away.
What have I done? I backed away from him like I had touched a life wire. I didn’t know how long had stayed, shaking and trembling in his hands like a little baby. I could feel my face heating up like fire.
“I’m sorry,” I choked out the apology, my voice breaking. “I’m so sorry… I don’t know what came over me… I…” words failed me, as sobs tore through my throat. “I am a monster.”
Master didn’t say anything, nor did he do anything. He just stood through, his body frozen in place. and a look of surprise and something etched in his face, like he was not expecting my shameful attitude, but it didn't last for long.
Like he was suddenly pressed play, His hands moved, slowly cupping my face, while using his fingers to brush away the tears that were slipping down my face like waterfall.
His actions were slow…almost gentle, like he was handling something breakable. My heart stopped beating for a second. The way he was staring at me, was almost like the way a man would stare at his old lover.
His gaze pinned me down, freezing me in a place. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't look away. It felt like my soul left my body, like all the strength in my body had evaporated into thin air.
“Everyone has done terrible things they regret, milo” he said, voice low but firm. “You are not a monster. That was your wolf trying to do what's best for you. He was trying to protect you.”
I blinked in confusion, not sure if I had heard correctly. “Protecting me?”
He nodded, “Yes.”
I tilted my neck,
“When you were still in a coma, your wolf never left your side. He kept on guarding you, stopping anybody that wanted to come closer to you…”
My body shivered from dread. It then occurred to me that nobody knew about my wolf. Not even my parents yet knew that my wolf, who everyone thought was dead, had awakened. And I had not told him…
“I…am sorry…”
“I know it wasn’t something you could control. Honestly, I am not even angry that you didn't tell me about your wolf.” He cutted me short, his eyes still looking at me in that same tender way, that was confusing and sweet at the same time.
I became speechless,
The silence between us became deafening, not the uncomfortable type but an intense charged silence…
My throat tightened again…i couldn't speak, but this time, it was not because of shame, or the guilt that was eating me up before.
Noo,
I wanted to say something back, maybe tell him, okay. But before I could open my mouth to speak…
A sharp knock echoed through the silence. breaking the fragile moment like glass.
I flinched unconsciously, immediately crawling back to my shell. I wrapped my hands around myself, while bringing my knees tk my chest.
Master's body tensed, before he released me slowly, almost hesitantly, before straightening himself.
Taking a deep breath. He crossed the room with that same controlled and confident composure that made all the nerves in my body suddenly itch and yearn for his attention.
I bit my lips hard, to keep my body and heart steady, that was beating faster for no reason. As I kept on wondering who it was that was knocking at the door.