Chapter 46 WHEN TRUST COST ME
Celestia's POV
The first time I saw Eclipse my immediate thought was that she looked too thin for her age, whenever she so much as took in a breath you would see the outline of her collarbone under this kinda already oversized clothes that hung off of her in such an unflattering pattern that I ended up lending her some of my old clothes.
I remember how her face lit up with joy, and she thanked me for it all, tears in her eyes. I even felt a little bit guilty because these were clothes that meant nothing to me anymore.
"Sometimes I wonder when she changed, or if she had always been that way and I was too foolish to notice..."
I held out my fingers allowing the light of the moon to pour over them, then closed them as if I could encase that light within my palm.
Lucian placed his hand over mine.
"You weren't foolish because you were kind, they are the ones that deserve to be ashamed for being two-faced and deceitful, it was your choice to trust and it was theirs to betray you but in all of that there is only one party at fault,"
The way he said it, it was as if his voice was directly soothing a wound that had never closed up within me and then his fingers curled comfortably around me, taking the weight of lifting my hand by myself.
"If only the world were really that idealistic," I admitted with all honesty, only people were just a little bit more sincere..." I didn't complete that and he didn't push me either. He just stood there behind me. His presence always felt like his breath gently brushing over the parts of my skin it passed, leaving goosebumps.
He stayed like that behind me until eventually I got too tired to stand and slumber finally began to take its toll, I didn't even notice it's cracked slowly and before I can blink twice It's hard already captured me I slumped into his arms and he picked me up in my semic conscious date I could feel him carrying me over to the bed and for the first time in a long while I just allowed my muscles to relax and ease up.
The fight was going to be long and hard.
But I was ready for whatever was going to come, I had to be.
For Asher's sake and for mine as well.
Then maybe also for Lucien too.
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By the time I rolled out of slumber, Lucian was already wide awake, that was a bit of a surprise for me because I was normally a light sleeper and had trained my body to wake up before the crack of dawn but here I was and the morning rays were already spilling into the room.
Lucian stepped into the main bedroom from the bathroom that it was connected to and a wave of steam followed him, water dripped from his washboard abs and the rest of his dare I say succulent muscles, his hair was also wet and messy too adding to the whole appeal.
If all of this was not actually just a relationship before the show, not much would have been enough to stop me from pouncing on him on the spot.
He must have at least some idea of how good he looks right? If so, why was he tempting me with his looks?
"Good morning, did you sleep well?" He came dangerously closer and my heart began to pound like a drum.
At least he should give me some warning before he comes that close, all this time I have been moving on pure adrenaline everything that has been happening no matter how slow paced it has been I have never been able to grab more than a couple of seconds to collect my thoughts before I was in full motion again either fighting to protect my life or those around me.
But for the first time in far too long, I was able to take a deep breath, or at least that was what I should be able to do if he wasn't here in front of me and every look at him made my throat malfunction and I was inhaling manually.
"I should take a shower too, today is going to be a long day," I said ignoring his question because that would mean engaging in small talk that would lead to me looking at his scrumptious body for longer than I was safe to.
I walked into the bathroom and made sure to give myself a long steaming shower, as if that was all it took to wipe away all the dirty thoughts I had about Lucian.
Not as if I've been blind to his looks all this time but of course, reaching my son has always been my top priority.
It still was obviously, once I've tucked into her place there won't be a problem with that at all.
And because I was becoming more laid back and relaxed I really had the time to appreciate his beauty.
He wasn't just good-looking, his disappearance deserved to be imprinted into art for centuries to come so that others could admire and gape at it as much as I was doing right now.
I was done with my shower and I thought that maybe I could give him a little tease myself as well, things had gotten a little serious between us yesterday and there was no harm in softening up the mood.
Besides it was only fair that I gave him a good payback afterwards he did to me earlier because I'm not taking any excuses he definitely knew what he was doing when he came out with that handkerchief of a towel barely strapped across his waist.
I grabbed my towel and tied it a bit loosely preparing to give him a taste of his own medicine.