Chapter 45 ECHOES OF BETRAYAL
Celestia's POV
I never thought that I would be hit with such bittersweet feelings coming back to the place that started it all to the beginning of all of my pain but while the bitterness part of it was pretty obvious the other parts were clear as well.
Asher was here.
He had to be.
Somewhere behind one of these doors my son would be resting. It was already nighttime so I imagine that if Raphael was not completely hopeless as a father there was care for him and he should be asleep by now.
I wondered just how much his face had changed not just his face but everything about him to think that a baby I had held only briefly could now be a little older standing firmly on two feet able to express himself even if it was just a little bit wearing clothes that were nothing like the onesies I had picked out before he was born.
All of it seem to tear at my heart beat by bit I wanted to run through this entire place like a maniac until I reached him until I could hug him until him that's every day for the past 5 years I have thought about him and I have missed him to the point that it hurts like physical pain because that was how badly it's called so deep inside of me.
I wanted to tell him that mommy had never stopped loving him even for one single second. He was all I had in the world after all and I could only love him more, not less.
Lucian had already gone to sleep funny I didn't really pick him for somebody who slept off early enough like I knew much about him in the first place anyways I did know that his face was quite handsome to look at when he did sleep it was something that caught my eye then again he was also quite handsome when he was a week too like a perfect sculpture that had been animated to life and talking to everyone else.
I decided that looking at him any longer would eventually stray into creep levels so I decided to make myself busy walking over to the nearest window where the moon rose in the sky as a crescent shape I looked at it and I wondered if Asher was awake right now and looking at the same thing right as I was.
I wrapped my hands together and fought against the foolish choices that I wanted to make so badly because how else was I supposed to feel at this moment? I was closer to him than I have been in over half a decade.
All it would take was just speed and maybe throwing a couple punches but by the time I had found him all that I had to worry about was escape the layout of this place had not to change at all in the past 5 years though honestly the park house looked in Little almost as if it was not even being maintained at all by anybody but that made no sense because it would be strange that's the pack house of all places wasn't being maintained while Media reeked of someone being pampered.
Strange to think she would take care of herself and neglect that pack house, maybe that was more of my personal denial than anything else because it sounded pretty much a brand for her to do something like that rather than not especially with her sister backing her up.
I had a better smile playing across my lips as I remembered one of the other main pillars that had led to my exile in a way she had played such a pivotal role that perhaps their plan would have fallen apart if she had not been there in the first place to orchestrate everything and make it all fall into place.
Suddenly as my heart was going cold with hatred I felt a warm blanket wrap around me I turned around and saw that it was Lucian who had placed it on me I guess he wasn't really sleeping but he had fooled me for sure he looked at me with something of concern and worry caught between his eyes I smiled to dismiss all of them.
"Before you ask, I'm good," I said, knowing that it was going to be something between those lines.
"Are you sure?"
I thought about it I don't wonder if they should just be something else that I keep closed within myself away from everyone else but then again we were technically still backstage and I could be a little vulnerable us still strangers more than not so maybe I could tell him maybe it was just all right for him to know this part.
"I'm just thinking about it... It's just so crazy what happened to me 5 years ago. There are so many reasons for it but the worst part is that everyone who betrayed me was someone I had trusted in my life... And after my mate the person I trusted the most was Eclipse, she's made a sister,"
"I've heard of her," he said.
I hooked the blanket around myself looking wistfully out the window.
"Whatever you heard about her it was just on the surface, she has thing for hiding her intelligence, dancing around a topic until you are forced to bring it up yourself and she was also hard working too so it was less of a floor to me at the time and more like a quirk I could learn to mind without taking it to personally,"
Perhaps I should have taken it a bit personally back then but I wouldn't be the person I am today if those things had not happened at least that's what I tell myself when the pain of it becomes all too much the pain of accepting what she had to do to me when I gave her so much trust