Chapter 3

Jewel knew the truth why Zander wanted to be with Sophie and was pushing so hard at her. The reason was more than even Jewel could take. She wanted to say something, yet she was tired of having to be in the midst of all of the lies, and deceit. It will all come out in the end. Sophie will realize that Zander does not love her; he thinks she is a nasty whore; he just needs a home to raise his children. He had played this game so many times before and won every time. He found himself a naïve stupid bitch as he had put it, this one so easy; it was going to be a piece of cake. Aah sweet revenge Jewel thought as she poured a cup of coffee. If only Sophie were not so stupid, but then again she was getting her due.

Sophie was scared to call Zander. She was not sure what to say to him. She felt like a teenager. Her heart skipped a beat every time she thought about Zander.

So many things crossed Sophie’s mind. What will life with Zander Ramsey be like? Will it compare in any way to life with Alex Sharp? It could not be any worse, or any more, dull, than the life she has now. It could not be any worse than feeling like a prisoner in your own home. Sophie felt confident that Zander would not make her feel that way. She just wanted out and to be loved. Was that really too much to ask for. Every time she wanted to go to the store she would hear “No, you are not going anywhere. You are not leaving without me. You will not be out spending my money and I not know on what.” Every time she would dial the phone he would ask “Who the fuck is you talking to now? Who are you calling? We need to talk, but do you think you can do that hell no you have to call someone else.” Sophie just could not take it anymore. She wanted to be done with Alex once and for all. Alex was not who she wanted. She wanted Zander.

Sophie looked in the bedroom to be sure that Alex had gone to sleep. Then she picked up the phone to call Zander. Her hands shook as she dialed the phone.

“Zander, this is Sophie. I know I am probably the last person you want to talk to. I know I hurt you, and I do not blame you. Jewel told me I should follow my heart not what my mind says. My heart leads me to you. She did say that you had asked about me. Oh, Zander, I never did forget you. I love you. I realized that not to long after I told you it was over. I want to be with you, not Alex. I am just scared to be on my own. Especially with you having six years left to go in the service. I am not the “being alone” kind. I need to have a shoulder to cry on. Someone to be here, to help me through this.”

“Sophie, slow down. I have not been able to forget about you either. When you wrote to me and told me that you had finally left Alex I was happy, I wanted to catch the next flight home. Then two weeks later when you wrote me telling me that you were not going to be writing anymore, you went back to Alex, I thought my world had ended and would never be the same. I wanted to end my life. Then I decided I could not do it. My pain would be over but then I would be causing those who loves and cares for me a world of pain. Theirs would just be starting. I loved you then and I love you now. I actually had been looking forward to spending time with you, being with you. I still have fantasies about that, fucking the hell out of you, loving you morning, noon and night. I told Jewel that I was not giving up on you. As a matter of fact, I even said I would be there when Alex messed up again. I would be there to pick up the pieces when your world shatters and no one else cares. I do believe that I can give you the love the way that a woman deserves to be loved. I am really glad that you called. At least now I know that you are okay.” After a short pause Zander was thinking damn stupid bitch if you bought all that you are deserving of being used, if I find someone better and stupid enough to fall for my lines, you are out of this game no harm no foul on my part.

“I am just fine. Alex and I are moving into a bigger house. I cannot stand this small ass house. The problem is the loan went through on his income not mine. I am planning to leave him. I just want to pay some of our bills off first. By then you will be home again, he will be out of my life, and then we can finally be together once and for all. No more sneaking around, we can see each other and talk to each other when we want to.”

“You do not have to explain anything to me. I will wait for you. No matter how long it takes. At least you have given me something to look forward to. I just wish you were here now. I have to be back in seven more days. I want to see you at least once before I have to leave.” God I am so good, I got this dumb ass cunt right where I want her. Won’t be long, I will be living his life, with his kids and mine and taking his bitches money.

“We can talk to Jewel. Maybe she could arrange something. At least we would be alone.”

“I will let you talk to her. Then let me know okay. Until then I will be thinking about you. I love you.”

“I love you too. Call me at midnight. Alex goes to work then. Promise to call me then.”

When they hung up the phone Sophie began to cry. She wanted to be with Zander. She ached to be near him. To hold him to have him hold her. Zander was everything she wanted in a man. He was simple. He understood, he loved, thoughtful, her feelings were what mattered to him, and he was not a self-centered bastard like Alex. Alex had none of the qualities that Zander had. Alex was the total opposite. He had a selfish attitude. He was so demanding, he did not understand Sophie at all, and he did not get her feelings, her wants, her wants, her needs. He was jealous of everyone she loved and cared about, even their own children. Alex thought fucking twenty four hours a day was the key to a good relationship and meant more than anything else. Little did he realize that he was smothering Sophie, not letting her have her own space, that was just pushing her further away. She had known that their marriage was over when she would tell him no to having sex. She had wondered at one point how her life could go on, she no longer loved Alex. Her life had taken on new goals. There was a fire burning out of control between her and Zander. She wanted to build it to be more. The few stolen minutes they had shared, they spoke of the dreams they both had. How could she ever forget Zander? Zander had taken her heart, he had haunted her thoughts. It saddened Sophie to think that all she could give Jake was a little hope, and a lot of loneliness.