CHAPTER 41

"Marry me"

I looked at him and I raised my eyebrow.

"Why would I?"

He hold my hand. "For our baby"

Inalis ko ang pagkakahawak nya saaking kamay.

"Let me think about it"

"You don't need to think about it, with or without your permission I'll marry you"

He always leave me with no choice.

"Do you love me?" I asked out of the blue. Nasa bahay kami ngayon. I don't even know kung bakit nandito sya. He bought a lot of fruits and milk with him.

"Afcourse I do!" Mabilis nyang sagot.

If not because of this baby, I wouldn't even let him stay with me for this long. I know I love him, but I'm still so scared. I don't know if this is what my ate wants.

"I'll marry you kahit ilang beses pa."

"And you know what? Since that thing happend, I'm just waiting for you to say na you're pregnant because I'm sure, freakin sure na I shoot it" He added while laughing his ass off.

Napa iling na lamang ako. Alam ko naman na he can do everything as long as he set his mind of.

"Should we tell your parents first?" I asked him.

He smiled at me and tap my head "I already did"

Humawak ito saaking tyan "See you soon my sweet little baby"

"When will you get married?"

I can't find the right answer to say.

"As soon as possible" Sandro answered and hold my hand under the table.

Nakakatakot ang daddy ni Sandro.

"Do you agree with him?" Tanong pa ulit nito.

Napalunok ako ng tatlong beses. Pakiramdam ko isang maling sagot ko lang ay mapapalayas ako dito.

"You're scaring her dad"

"Yes po" I answered because I have no choice but to say yes.

Hindi ko pa nga nasabi kila dad na I'm pregnant. My mom will freak out.

"Then, we'll organize everything for you."

I just smile.

"Thanks, dad"

"Can you give me one of your shirt?"

Nalilitong tumingin saakin si Sandro. "What for?"

I looked away. "Wag ka ng magtanong. Bigyan mo nalang ako"

He chuckle "Pinaglilihian mo ba ang amoy ko?"

I didn't answer him. Tumingin lang ako sa bintana. Pauwi na kami ngayon galing sa check up.

"Okay okay. I'll sleep in your house today.

Kaya diba? I was asking you the other day to move out of your house and live with me. Pero ayaw mo"

Why would I do that? Hindi pa kami kasal.

"Whatever" I whispher.

"Can you cook for me?"

"I can" mabilis nyang sagot at binitawan ang hawak nyang mga papel.

"What do you want?"

"I want noodles"

"What? Noodles? Its not good to your health, baby"

Mabilis na kumunot ang noo ko "But I want to eat it"

"No you can't" laban pa nito.

Tinalikuran ko sya at umakyat sa taas, pumasok sa kwarto ko.

"Parang noodles lang ang damot nya"

I know I'm being too childish but that's what I want. I want to eat noodles.

"Allison" Sandro was knocking on the door for almost an hour already but I'm not opening it.

"Manigas ka"

"I'm cooking the noodles. Open the door okay?"

"Allison"

"I'm sorry okay?"

"Whatever, Sandro. You're selfish"

"I'm not baby. I'm just worried about your health"

Worried my ass. Hindi naman ako kumakain ng noodles araw araw. Gusto ko lang kumain ngayon. May masama ba don?

"Open your door na okay?"

So I open my door and he was handling a bowl full of noodles.

"Here"

Hindi ako sumagot, kinuha ko lang ang hawak nya at ipinasok sa kwarto ko.

"I'm sorry okay? Wag kana magalit"

"Hindi kapa ba tapos?" Tanong ko sakanya.

"Why? You need something?"

"No" I answered at humiga ulit. Nasa room ko sya ngayon doing a lot of paper works.

"Having hard time sleeping?"

I nod my head.

Humiga ito sa tabi ko at hinarap ako sakanya. "I'll sing for you"

I don't know what happend, but when we knew that I am pregnant. Things drastically change. Just like that, we're doing fine.

"Are you happy?" I asked out of the blue.

"I am because I have you"

"I know you're thinking about Addison but trust me, she's happy and rooting for our happiness" He added.

I wish she is.

I close my eyes and he start singing.

Don't listen to the voice inside your head

You're doing just fine

You're trying your best

If no one ever told you it's all gonna be okay

We're just people never sleeping over stupid shit

We won't remember in the morning

Yeah, we're gonna forget

And no one ever told you it's all gonna be okay

When you lose faith in everything you ever knew

Don't give up on you

When life gets overwhelming

Relying on yourself is hard to do

But don't give up on you, no

If you've been lost and lonely

Ashamed to be alone with only you

With no one left to lose

If it's the last thing that you do

Don't give up on you

You've been living off opinions for way too long

Afraid to be right, ashamed to be wrong

If no one told you it's all gonna be okay

Those people always keeping up to keep you down

Stop looking for a reason just to keep 'em around

I know they never told you it's all gonna be okay

"I love you so much, Allison"

Pag gising ko tumakbo ako papunta sa banyo dahil sukang suka ako.

"Are you okay?" Sandro tap my back.

"Damn it. I'm so dizzy"

Nagulat ako dahil bigla nalang akong binuhat ni Sandro at hiniga ulit.

"Take a rest, I'll cook something for you. May gusto kaba kainin?"

Umiling ako at ipinikit ang aking mga mata.

This is so hard.

"Okay. You sleep muna"

"Sandro"

"Yes?" I open my eyes.

"Can you massage my head?"

"I'm sorry for putting you in this situation, Allison"

"Are you crazy? Its all part of the journey" I whispher.

He kissed my forehead. "I'll make sure na I'll be by your side every step of the way. I'm not gonna leave you."