Chapter 110 Chapter 110 Alex POV

Chapter 110 Chapter 110 Alex POV
Three years, it's been three years of constant pain. Everytime he is with someone else I feel it through the bond and it tears me up. The last time I spoke was a year ago, mom and I sign and I use mindlink for Aidan and dad. I just don't want to speak. Senior year was tough not talking but I made it through. I have a job at a gallery in Boston and I start Aslan Art University this fall. Mom and dad sold the brownstone and the penthouse, we are officially living back home, as mom likes to say.

I spent my nineteenth birthday packing my things for Boston. Aidan went out with Archie and the boys. We did not want a party this year. I am in my room, door locked. It's the boys third birthday. They are so cute and mischievous. They all have dad wrapped around their baby fingers, even though dad says I am his favorite.

I can hear the pitter patter of small feet outside my door. They are running around with Harmony, uncle Zack's daughter, Harlow is talking to them. Atticus is looking for me. Dad comes running up the stairs.

"Alex is taking a nap. Let's go back downstairs and play in the pool!"

They are going to be swimmers for sure, they love water. I look out my window down at the pool. They are all splashing in. River is sitting on the edge of the pool looking up at me, he winks and blows me a kiss. Fucking asshole! I felt him earlier with her, Trista. Brody has Sam in his arms they are in the pool. He moved out here with my parents, Agnes passed away last year.

He is dating a really beautiful fairy, Marie. They live four houses away from us.

I crack the window open and pull a joint out of my bag. Before I can light it, Blaze does it for me. He is sitting in the corner by the firepit. I feel for him, he has been stuck between River and I. The weed numbs the pain River causes me. I don't want to go to college a virgin but I am not sleeping with River. My eyes land on Blaze, I motion my head for him to come up. I take a hit, hold it and release, putting it out.

Closing the window, I watch the pain roll over River. I take my shirt off, then my bra and I close the curtains. Blaze is already at the door. I pull down my jeans and open the door for him. He steps in the room and slams the door. Just like me he has been holding out all this time. Not River though, he just had to have it. He didn't want a long distance relationship. We broke it off, whatever it was. We are still mates, I love them so much.

Blaze is taking off his clothes. He is so beautiful, that gray hair and his amber eyes. He watches me as I walk towards him. I push him on the bed and climb over him. Sparks roll under and over my skin everywhere we touch. My heart is beating out of my chest. I lower myself down on him. His lips crash into mine. Biting, kissing, licking, the hunger is too much. Blaze's hands roam my body. My wetness pools over him as I start to grind on him.

He glides in, all the way. It's done. Blaze holds my face in his hands not moving as I stretch out and adjust to him. My body exploding into a million pieces.

"Is that good?" he asks and I nod at him.

We move together, our hips colliding against each other. The friction builds. Blaze holds my breasts rubbing my nipples. Pleasure sparks shoot down into my pussy, driving me insane. My vision is blurring, then spots appear.

"Goddess, you feel so good!" he moans out thrusting from under me.

My lips part but no sound comes out. Maybe I can't speak anymore, I can't remember what my voice sounds like anymore. The pressure bubbles over and I let my orgasm take over rushing to every corner and curve of my body. I pulse around his cock and he is losing it, I feel the heat rush inside me. He twitches a few times. Blaze wraps his arms around me while he tries to catch his breath. I take a deep breath in and sigh.

Pulling his arms away from me, I sit up and get out of bed. Picking up my clothes I set them in my hamper. I hand him his clothes. He looks at me with so much pain in his eyes.

"You want me to get out? You are done with me....why are you treating me this way? I love you, I just want to be with you. Why won't you tell me what school you are going to?"

I don't say anything. I can feel the bond get stronger with both of them even though I slept with Blaze only. It's too late to reject each other, it would be brutal to do it now but I still don't want to make things official. Mom tells me stop fighting it but River hurts me all the time. I refuse to let him in and....I don't know what to do with Blaze.

"Alex??? Look at me!" he grabs my chin. "I am not my brother. Do you hear me? Fuck, talk to me damn it."

I...I have to let him in. I can't lose them both. Tears pour out of my eyes, no amount of blinking will stop them. Blaze rushes to me wrapping his arms around me again. I push him back after a few minutes and sign to him.

"Boston, I am going to Boston. Aslan Art University!"

"You are going to Boston!!! Really!!! We are too. Baseball scholarship to Massachusetts State University. We are driving out that way tomorrow!" he is so excited.

I sign to him. "I am leaving tomorrow too! I have an apartment off campus!"

"That's awesome. We are living on campus!"

He learned to sign for me.

I sign to him."I love you!"

"I know!" smiles Blaze, kissing my forehead.