Yzabelle.
Why would I regret something that I badly wanted? I would never regret it.
That’s what I decided when I deepened our kisses. And it seemed like Killian understood it.
From gentle to wild to gentle again, his hands and lips were all over my body. It seemed like he could not stop in one place. He wanted all of me, and I wanted all of him. And I let him maneuver our sail to everlasting pleasure.
Killian’s hand continued to caress one of my breasts while his mouth was on the other. He did it alternately and I was lost to the fiery sensation he gave me.
I felt his hand move down to my belly, down to the center of my body, to the apex of my legs. I felt him caress my paradise, gently teasing my entrance. I gasped loudly. I couldn’t wait for his finger to enter.
“Please…” I moaned in aching pleasure.
I didn’t know how to handle the heat. It was as if I could not recognize my own body. I was wantonly groaning as he pleasured me underneath him. And I enjoyed it more than I thought I would.
“Patient, baby…” he sexily whispered against my ear as he started to massage his thumb to my clit.
I groaned even more. It was such a sweet torture. I unknowingly arched my back. I wasn’t aware of how I moved. I just did it by instinct. And my instincts were telling me I needed more of his lips and hands. I needed more of him.
And Killian didn’t prolong the torture, he slipped his one finger inside. My body tensed to the unfamiliar intrusion. It was just a second and I started to adjust. He started to claim my lips again while his fingers started to move faster, moving in and out of my body. I growled like a wild vixen, asking for more.
“Prepare for the real thing, my Luna,” he whispered to me and I didn’t even care what he meant.
All I wanted now was to reach the thing I was desperate to get right now.
And he did. He gave it to me. He opened my legs wider with his knees as he lowered his huge body on me.
He suddenly plunged inside. Harsh, deep, and strong.
I winced in pain. It was as if something had been ripped from me. Then I felt him stop.
“You okay?” His voice was so gentle, so sweet and so caring.
It was a total contrast to how we talked to each other every day of our lives together.
“There’s no way I can make it painless, baby. This is the best I can do for you not to get hurt even more.” he coaxed me.
It was his side that I had never seen before. And I love it. I love how he strongly, tenderly, and passionately did it with me.
“I’m… I just need to adjust…” I winced under my breath.
It was my first and he must have known it by now. I could tell by the way he explained his actions. I loved that he gave my body enough time to figure out that I was the one who got impatient with him not moving.
I ground my hips and arched my body to show him how much I wanted him to move, to claim me. I didn’t want to ruin the moment. I wanted him to enjoy it too. And I think he understood.
I loved that our bodies could talk. I loved that he understood my body and I understood him as well.
Killian started to plunge harder and faster. Our groans and moans started to synchronize.
“Fck! Give it to me, baby!” He growled as he thrust stronger, harder, and faster.
‘Oh, fck! I’m… I’m…”
I’m fcking near and I wanted to tell him.
“Don’t hold it, baby,” he warned me. “I wanted to see it, I wanted to see you…”
And when I finally reached the peak of pleasure, he rode to my orgasm. Heavy breaths and big sweats were the perfect way to tell how we both enjoyed it.
Killian slid beside me as we steadied our breaths. He looked at me with pure tenderness and lust. I knew lust had always been there. I just decided not to acknowledge it because I wasn’t ready for it.
And if you ask me if I regretted giving in to him, I didn’t. I loved it and I will treasure it for the rest of my life.
“You are so fcking beautiful, Yzabelle,” he said without breaking an eye.
And turned to him and I saw my reflection through his blue eyes. I felt my cheeks burning. I had been receiving a lot of compliments from others but coming from him, it was a different level.
“Should I thank you?”
I wasn’t sure what I should say after an intimate and wild lovemaking.
Killian suddenly giggled.
“I haven’t got a ’thank you’ after sex,” he said, amused.
I pouted. So, how many women did he sleep with? He said he was a thousand-year-old lycan. He had probably had sex with a lot of women.
Thinking about that, my mood was suddenly ruined.
Did I just give myself to a skank?
But Killian suddenly grabbed me to my waist and pulled me closer to him.
“I heard that. I am in no way a skank.” His eyes narrowed. But he gave me a quick kiss. “I was just a man with needs and you hadn't come into my life yet, back then. It was just sex, an animalistic need. But what we did was way different, Yzabelle.” he seemed to explain. I looked into his eyes and he continued. “It was the most precious thing for me. I desired you more than I had ever thought. You better not compare it to my past escapades, because this thing would never be compared to anything in this world,” he wholeheartedly said.
I didn’t know how to answer but I smiled. I didn’t know if he only said that just to console me. But I knew better.
I agreed. We hadn’t met before and now that we were together, I hadn’t seen him flirting with anyone.
Well, of course aside from the gift he received from his admirer, I had never been jealous of anyone. Also, I never saw him with that so-called admirer, so I didn’t feel threatened or anything. A little jealous but still, he gave me assurance in the way he acted. Actually, I was surprised he accepted a gift when he deliberately ignored those girls from the university.
Well, I still felt secure despite that. And what he gave me, I called that peace of mind.
If only our lives were pretty normal and we didn't belong to these complicated races, I could tell, we could have a peaceful relationship.
But life was never like that. Life would always offer rough sailing. And I didn’t know what life would bring us.
“You talk too much,” I just said. I didn't know how to answer him. I felt overwhelmed.
I mean everything was new to me and I kind of liked it. It was weird because I had never liked anything that was new to me.
“Well, I will actually talk a lot now that we have the time.” His face suddenly turned serious. “I have something to tell you.”