A LOVER’s DILEMMA
ALEXANDER’s POINT OF VIEW.
My mind was racing with different thoughts. I was in a complete state of panic.
I almost lost Leila and the next minute she confessed her feelings. I had to change the topic, I was very uncomfortable with that word love.
I felt like I was between a rock and a hard place. I got married to her cause of what I had in mind, and love.. love is completely out of the question.
I grabbed my car keys and left the house, driving to the airport to pick my best friend up.
Half an hour later, I arrived at the airport.
“Where is he?” I muttered to myself.
“Hey Alex!” A voice said.
I turned to the direction where the voice came from and saw my best friend waving excitedly at me, as he walked to where I stood.
“I thought you forgot about me.” Liam said, his lips curled up into a smirk.
“Sorry man, I had a lot of things to do.” I said, running my hand in my hand.
“Yes sure, I am sure forgot your best friend is number right?” Liam asked , his tone dripping with sarcasm.
“Will you get yourself in the car or stand there and watch me drive away?” I grunted In frustration.
“Isn’t this one way of welcoming me.” Liam said and sat in the front seat of the car.
I ignored him and turned on the car’s ignition and it roared to life.
Liam looked outside the window, then turned to face me. “What is wrong with you man? Is it your marriage?”
I sighed and start to explain, “ Yes it is about my marriage. Few days ago Leila was at Ben’s apartment and he met her inside. I do not know what she did or said but somehow she came out unharmed.”
“What was she doing in Ben’s place in the first place?” Liam asked.
“Her aunt passed away, and she went to find out more about her aunt’s death and murderer. She came across Ben’s diary where he writes down the people he killed and how he killed them.” I continued.
“I am sorry to hear about that.” Liam sympathized with me.
“Yeah.. but what is more disturbing is someone poisoned her.” I said.
“In your house!” Liam exclaimed in shock.
“Exactly. That’s the most disturbing part. Leila’s food was poisoned by the maid who served the food. Leila refused to eat the food and demanded that the maid tastes the food. Few minutes later, the maid laid down flat. Dead!” I exclaimed.
“Now that is scary and disturbing. Did she happen to say who sent her?” Liam inquired.
“No, she died without saying another word.” I said, sighing at the end.
“I am sorry about that. But I think there is something else you are not telling me.” Liam pressed on.
“It is about Leila and your Contract marriage with her right?” He asked.
Taking a left turn, I stayed quiet for sometime. My mind drifting back to when Leila confessed her love for me. “I mean, it is complicated.” I started, not sure how to explain the conflict going on inside my head.
Liam nods. “Yeah , your marriage itself is complicated itself. What did Leila say or do that made you so worried?”
I took a deep breath, trying to figure out how to explain everything. “There is something .. she told me she loves me.”
Liam smiles widely, “that is great, I see someone is finally going to unthaw your frozen heart.”
I glared at him for a few seconds. “This is not funny Liam. I am not sure if I am actually in love with her. “
“I know what you need. You need to come out of the car, and let’s head into my house, we can talk about this over a plate of food.” Liam said.
“True.” I said, my voice barely above a whisper.
I parked the car and we both walked to Liam’s house.
“Peace be unto this house.” Liam muttered as he open the door to his house and stepped in.
As I stepped into the house, I felt a sense of relief wash over me.
“I’ll order for food, you go freshen up . You stink.” I said, playfully hitting Liam’s arm.
Liam rolled his eyes and walked to his room.
I sank into the couch and placed an order. My mind slowly drifting back to thoughts of Leila.
She was so sad when I said “okay”.
She should be, she just confessed her feelings and all I said was “okay”.
I am very sure she will try to distance herself from me and accept my rejection.
But was it really a rejection?
Can I really reject Leila’s love?
She is a very beautiful lady, and I really care for her but... love.. I did not have time for love.
Me falling in love with her will only make things more complicated.
I married her cause I wanted to help her in her revenge against Ben Maloney, and I also wanted revenge against the Maloney’s.
“Earth to Alex.. Earth to Alex.” A voice said and fingers snapped out me.
Blinking twice, I collected myself and looked up to see Liam standing in front of me.
“What were you thinking of man? The food arrived minutes ago ... but you didn’t seem to notice or take interest in it.” Liam said, as he took a slice of pizza.
“I am sorry, I got lost in my thoughts.” I mumbled and grabbed a slice of pizza.
“What were you thinking of? Are you still on the whole poison and confession incident?” Liam asked.
I kept the pizza aside and poured myself a glass of red wine. Taking my first sip, I closed my eyes and relished the taste.
“Yes. I am worried about two things. One, how did an enemy gain entrance into my house and that too unnoticed.”
Liam looked at me , “and what is the second thing?”