Chapter 39: Something I Deserve

Kaitlyn

I was at the mall with Kurt. His smile is really captivating, no matter what anyone says. I mean, if anyone says anything against it.

I entered the mall and he held my hand like he has always, since we met. 

As the music was playing we were smiling and going around. He chose a dress for me. “It looks beautiful” I commented. “But I am not buying”

“Oh then” he turned to me and looked at me more carefully. “Why are we here?” he said so with a playful smile.

I looked down. How do I tell him that I wanted to spend time with him? I want to know about him more. That’s what I want!

“Uh well…” He took a step closer while I stilled in my position. I don’t know, but he still seems familiar even when I don’t know him.

“Kaitlyn” he whispered. “Do you like me?”

I just looked down and my heart was racing. It was awkward looking down. I needed to react but I don’t know. I haven’t decided yet.

It was the chance to know something too.

“Do you?” I looked at him, with much courage. his eyes softened.

“I won’t say unless I know your side” he whispered.

“Uh…”

“It’s okay, take your time”

I went a step back. “Uh--this dress is good. What's the price?” I asked the person there.

“800$” he replied.

“Uh… okay…” I kept it back. I don’t have that much money! At least not to waste on this! I am not a billionaire’s wife!

“Uh, let’s go” I said to Kurt and he nodded. He followed me out and this time, he didn’t hold my hand as we made our way to his car. 

“Let’s go back…” I whispered. He didn’t reply. I looked at him. “What’s wrong?”

He came close to me and I just stared at him. “I want the answer… tell me”

“Uh…” I looked down. What should I tell him? I have just met him, I don’t know him! But I can’t deny this strange feeling that he is familiar.

He came close and I just went back and soon I hit the car. He came close. “If you can’t say, you can show”

“Huh?” I asked him, but it was late. He suddenly joined our lips. My hand went on his neck and he kissed me. Without thinking, I kissed him back.

He was sweet and tender while kissing me. The one I never experienced. I only remember brutal and hard kisses.

even if he ever kissed me softly, it wasn’t this soft.

Maybe this change will not be that bad. I deserve someone who loves me, not someone who just ‘realised’ his mistake after torturing the hell out of me, right?

He kissed me for quite a while before getting away. He smiled. “That was fast”

“Y-yeah”

“Come on, let’s go now”

I smiled slightly. I should welcome this change.

I sat down on the passenger’s seat and he sat on the driver’s seat. His fragrance still intoxicated my senses and I was feeling good. 

He started driving. “Still wanna go home or wanna hang out?”

I started thinking. “Um… maybe hotel is good”

“Okay” 

The drive was smooth. It felt comfortable being with him. “So, about your relationship with Mr. Daniel… I know I didn’t suddenly get the right to ask anything, but I think I can know this… uh, are you gonna divorce him?”

“Maybe…” I whispered. “see, I… I don’t wanna keep you in the middle or something, but I really need to think about this. I mean…”

“Okay. Take your time, Kaitlyn. I… I love you and I guess--”

I looked at him. He smiled. “yes, I love you, now don’t give me that look”

“Ah…” I blushed and smiled. “That’s good to know”

“Hm-mh. So I was saying, I guess that I can wait”

I smiled. “Thank you, Kurt. I hope I don’t let you down. I mean, I don’t want to be with you just now. I wanna be with you, but… only if I can be with you forever. Do you understand?”

“Yeah, but” he looked at me and smiled sadly. “Can I still be your boyfriend?”

“Well…” I smiled. “Yea”

“Thanks, Kaitlyn” he kept a hand on my face.

“Uh, drive!” I reminded him. He smiled and stopped the vehicle, while not even looking anywhere. He came close and kissed my forehead. “Thanks for giving me a chance”

I smiled. “I hope this will make our lives… more better”

“I am sure it will”

I smiled. It felt like I was finally getting something I deserve.