Chapter 81 Come over tonight
DASHIELL
My phone rang the moment I stepped out of the office as if the caller was keeping tabs on me, waiting for me to leave the office. After Nova left, I returned to my work and buried my head in the workload, not thinking of anything until I had completed all my tasks, and that meant staying back to work way behind the normal closing time.
There was no need for me to hurry home. Nova wasn't returning that night. She told me she would spend the night with her babies, and that damned Brion, a reason I focused on work, so I could take my mind off them. I didn't want my thoughts to keep filtering towards Nova and Brion. I knew she wouldn't cheat. That wasn't something Nova would do. It wasn't like her to do it.
Fishing my phone out of my pocket, a frown marred my features when I saw who it was. I contemplated answering the call until she called for the second time. Puffing out a breath and getting my mind ready, I answered it.
"Lils?" I kept my voice as pleasant as I could, so she wouldn't hear the displeasure in my tone.
"Das... hell," she slurred.
"Why do you sound like that? Are you drunk?" I frowned, wondering why she sounded that way. "Are you okay?"
"No, I'm not," her response was instantaneous. "I'm not okay, and I'm sure I'm not fucking drunk!" She yelled out, prompting me to separate the phone from my ears to avoid getting my drums split. " I'm not okay, Dash," she lowered it to a whisper. "I'm not bloody okay."
"What's wrong? You don't sound like your normal self." Locking my door, I walked towards the lift, with my briefcase in my left hand and my phone in my right, placing it back against my ear when I was certain she wouldn't yell. "Are you certain you aren't drunk?" I asked when I didn't get a response to my first question. "Lils?"
"I miss you," she said, laughing. "I fucking missed you!"
"Okay, you need to calm down." I pressed the switch on the lift and stepped inside, pressing the button for the ground floor. "You don't sound like your normal self. Are you certain you are okay?" Her background was silent. Aside from her rapid breathing, I couldn't hear anything else. I was trying to check if I could tell where she was, but couldn't. It didn't sound like she was in a public place.
"No!"
"Lils?"
"Why did you break up with me?" She sobbed, her voice breaking. "Why did you fucking split with me?? I did everything for you, Dash. Every fucking thing! I sacrificed my youth for you! I did everything so you could make me your wife, but what did you do? You fucking chose that bitch over me!"
I gritted my teeth at her comment but said nothing. She didn't sound like her normal self, which was why I ignored the name she called Nova. If only she was her normal self, I wouldn't have tolerated such words from her..
"I stayed with you even when I learned you were lying. Even when I fucking knew you missed her. For the past five years, you fucked me like a beast! I could feel how detached you were, but I fooled myself into believing you loved me when you fucking didn't. She took your heart from me before I even had the chance to fight for it."
"Lils -"
"Do you want to deny that those words are true? You know, just like I do that you never loved me. Nova was the one you loved, not me."
"I loved you, Lils, I did." I wasn't lying about it. I did love her. Even though I couldn't tell when I started having feelings for Nova, I once loved her. There were times when Lilith was my world. Back then, I blamed Nova for not being able to be with her. I punished her for it for years, only to realize I fell in love with her along the line. It was mad. Almost laughable.
"Can you come with me tonight?" She begged. "I've missed you so much, Dashiell. I feel like I'm going to run mad from the desires coursing through me. I want to feel your touch." She sounded desperate, so different from the woman I knew, the one I fell in love with years ago. Had I not known she was the one speaking, I wouldn't have believed it.
"Lils -"
"Please don't deny me this, Dashiell. I love you. You know I do. I just don't want to be lonely tonight."
I stepped out of the lift and headed towards the exit. "I'm sorry, Lils, but I can't do this for you. I'm married. You need to know that. Saying things like this will make anyone who hears it misunderstand." The last thing I would want to do is to jeopardise my relationship with Nova. I just got her back. Losing her over something I could avoid wasn't part of the plan.
"What if she dies? Will you return to me?"
I halted
my steps at her comment. "What did you just say?"
"If she dies, will you return to my side?" She asked again, this time her voice louder. "Will you still love her or will you return to my side?"
"Why?" I was barely keeping my emotions in check.
"Just asking." There was rustling from the other side before she spoke once more, her voice sultry, "I'm waiting for you, Dash. Will you come tonight? I shaved. I'm bare, just like you have always loved.
"Lils," I warned, knowing I wasn't far from combusting. "You are stepping over the line, Lils. You need to get over it. It's time for you to move on, just like I have. I want you to be happy, Lils. I don't need you to dwell in the past."
"Dash -"
"Call me when you have calmed down." Disconnecting, I pocketed the phone and walked over to my car, thinking back to Lilith and how much I had hurt her.